#selfishpost

I have been pretty unkind to myself. And without friends like @iamnatho and @ohhowstrange I don't think I would have ever seen how badly I mentally beat myself up for almost every single little thing I do. It comes from a good place, wanting to be purposeful with my life and making sure everyone around me is happy, loved and taken care of. What I forgot was that I need to love myself too. Give myself allowances to make mistakes, believe I deserve love instead of being defensive trying to fight for love. Anyway just thinking out loud while I post this photo of me exiting this chapter of bein an a$$hole to myself and into a new one where I'm a little more kind and grateful to ME. #selfishpost #selfcare #selflove #newchapter #exit #takecare #loveyourself #takebreaks #beselfish #NatHoShootsPeople #dontbeanassholetoyourself #stopit #fearisstupid #butsometimesitkeepsyoufromdying #thosetimesfearisgood #okbye (at North Hollywood) https://www.instagram.com/p/B2Kl6aUnEp3/?igshid=ry1d2b39ibt1

#selfcaresunday Ran Lariah a bath and detangled my hair. Despite being a Veterinary student working on my doctorate, a wife, a mom to a 2 year old, and all of the other hats I wear, it’s super important to take care of MYSELF sometimes. I was still watching my daughter, listening to Daniel Tiger songs, and intermittently reading about thyroid disorders... BUT my hair is STILL growing and I’m finally down to 100 pounds (93-96 pre-Baby)! I don’t go to the gym, I’m not on a diet, and I don’t have any advice for anyone else on how to do these things. I didn’t consciously play an active role in getting here, but MAN am I glad to be here!! Almost 28 months post partum! shout out to Lariah for still wanting to breastfeed 🤱 cause that’s the only explanation I’ve got 🤷🏽‍♀️😂❤️ Forget the super bowl, this is a win for me!!! #mombod #mombod #naturalhair #longcurlyhair #postpartumabs #100lbs #proudmama #selfishpost #selfcaretime #mememe #loveyourself #squallymuffin

Besides, I don't want to stake my passion for fame and for anything usual in this breathable planet.

So, you finally bought your ticket. I'm really happy that you did and that it's final. I'm just a little meh because you are going to be spending the night at your friend's house. I don't want to be a selfish and controlling boyfriend and don't want you to get mad at me for my opinion so I'm forced to say yes. The reason why I don't want you to go is because 1)I have terrible trust issues. I trust you completely but I don't trust other people. 2) I want you all to myself. 3) I want to be with you as much as I can before we have to face the time that we do for the next year and a half. 4) I'm very greedy when it comes to you.  Honestly, the only reasons why I am saying yes is because 1) I don't want you to get mad at me if I say no. 2) I want you to be happy. 3) And I just don't want to argue about it. Honestly, if you do sleep over, I reeeaaalllllllyyyy don't want to make two trips back because I want to be as conservative with money as I possibly can and I don't want to spend a single night without you while you're here in the east coast. I would rather just suffer the awkwardness with being with your friends and the outsider of the group because I usually always am. *Sigh* this is just me being selfish. I'm sorry, love, I don't mean to be. It's just a natural reaction I suppose :| I love you so much and I just want you to be happy, despite my feelings on this...