#imallalone

Lady antebellum

"Let me out, let me out, let me out of here!!!!" #imallalone #theresnooneherebesideme https://www.instagram.com/draftmare/p/BusFVQChL67/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1g30p0x1czoyt

Night time is when you’re supposed to be sleeping, but I can’t. At night people close their eyes and rest their minds, they descend into dreamland to recharge and prepare for the day to come. But when I do that all there is to it is nightmares and restlessness. My blood stops flowing in my limbs and rushes to my head where my jaw is clenched and my neck is tense. I close my eyes and all of a sudden I hear the voice of the guy who assaulted me. I lay on my side and I can feel his hand on my throat and feel his breath on my neck. My mouth is dry and my stomach is in a knot, my chest tightens with every breath. I can’t sleep now that the night is upon us because it fell on my soul long ago. My heart is bruised and everything hurts, sleep doesn’t seem to heal anything. The only way I feel safe enough to sleep is if the sun is out. But that’s not very useful since day time is a time to work, and live and walk around. And I really want to live, I really want to go on walks and see the world. But I’m in so much pain that I don’t know how anymore. I don’t want to be scared anymore, i can’t spend the rest of my life in fear. I want to sleep at night, like normal people do.

“There simply must be, simply must be...” #finlandfinlandfinland #heisnotdeadyet #lakergirls #imallalone #findyourgrail #37 #highschooltheater #evaluator (at Kamiak High School)

Yes, Enumclaw. #heisnotdeadyet #findyourgrail #runaway #divaslament #imallalone #highschooltheater #evaluator (at Enumclaw High School)

Late night space train, flying through eternal darkness #imallalone #space train #stars #night

Witnessing them heal takes my breath away. Revealing vigilant scar tissues awaiting a painful removal. However, there's always a price to this experience as you witness them fumble in agony, working towards their revival; escorting them down their excruciating pathway. They eventually out grow you, in some cases despise you. People do not grow together, those who stay to help the others heal never focus on their own health. You witness their souls becoming whole because you gave a piece of yours to speed up the process. I'm in love with damaged souls, they carry a part of my own soul with them as they walk away, and I await the next.