#im confounded

sitting at this bar glancing at espn on the tv and they have an ad where "fandom 101" is written on a chalkboard behind the guy interspersed with random sports moments and i'm sitting here like. where is destiel. where is cas getting obliterated by dean pushing him aside to score a touchdown. weeping wailing pounding his gay little fists into the field.

like good omens is good or whatever but i only fixated on it for like 3-4months so why has it become my blogs legacy

how did i used to??? how did i used to DO stuff when i was in high school???? getting up and catching the bus by 5:45-6 am... school until 2:10pm with ONE (1) 30 minute break... then after school clubs until 4-5pm... then there was the HOURS i spent doing theatre, and even then just bullshitting at home all evening long and staying awake until 2am or later EVERY NIGHT!!!! what???! even on days when i wouldn't do after school stuff.. i never took naps until college... like how did i FUNCTION how did i somehow get SO MUCH and SO LITTLE sleep at once and how did i STILL never get my homework done.. if im awake for 12 hours straight now as an adult im positive i deserve a medal like. how tf did i live as a teenager