#ilosthim

I never wanted to depend on someone else so much to be able to deal with loss and pain and problems, it happened when I didn’t look. Everything was easier with you there.

how can you claim you know me.

when I only allowed you to see

the parts of my skin

I wanted you to see.

or when I only let you hear

the words I chose to say.

but did you know about

the rivers that gush from my eyes,

when you're not looking?

do you know about the untrained

beasts living in the depths of my thoughts?

or the vines that tightly cover

my heart- refusing to let another soul inside.

you've never seen the castle in which

my lungs remain,

the way my breath carriers

itself through each staircase.

have you seen the heavy moon

glimmering inside my skull?

or the stars that dance among it?

you cannot claim you know me,

when my exterior is all you see.

you fell in love with the way

my flowers bloom in spring.

but would you still be in love

when I am only

my roots

in winter?