There's a reason why i heavily disliked jon in the earlier seasons. He just reminded me so much of the people who used to bully me before. The ones that made school and work so hard. Especially when jon, although capable of being unpleasant to all, was quite obviously the worse to martin?
I used to be martin. I was treated the worst while my friends were just fine because they were somehow higher on the social ladder. EVERYONE KNEW martin was treated worst. Jon suddenly yelling was just something that made me so angry, knowing jon would never be that outright aggressive towards tim or sasha ://
To be completely explicit, THIS IS NOT CHARACTER BASHING. All characters in tma are very flawed people. I just don't think i see enough discourse about it? I see so many people trying to excuse jon's behavior instead of looking at it as the actions of a flawed person. you can't justify being an a-hole. There's no excuse for that.
Jon had to work towards changing.
And honestly, when i first heard about jonmartin as a ship i was deeply unhappy. And i know this had, in a way, something to do with me projecting myself onto martin. Even if not completely.
I think, honestly, seasons 4 through 5 were such game changers. You really have to give it to the writers. That was all thoughtful and considerate writing. There was no shying away from how jon was to martin before. I still do mourn a bit, when martin most of the time, wouldn't let jon apologize fully? He feels he has to stop him. And i see that as martin having his own baggage to deal with.
Of course obviously, i now very much love the two together. They've come so far.
This relisten. This episode. I think, just serves as a reminder that these two have crawled and climbed and fought for the love and companionship they exchange with each other. Jonmartin is a very, very, raw and human ship.
One of the best parts of tma is how realistic the character development and the struggle to be a better person feels
