#idyllify

THIS IS NEWS TO ME

I thought about commenting on that thread but was too sleepy. Love how the kid is just like categorically wrong about how the law works, also only 20 states have laws prohibiting discrimination based on sexual orientation so like he's also wrong on that front

JESS I GOTTA WRITE AN ESSAY but lbr i wasnt gonna do that so thank u for the excuse 

pluto: what do you love most about yourself?

physically my eyes and my neck, personality wise probably my facial expressions or how loyal i can be 

mars: who is your ideal best friend?

i already have two hahaha fuck the system @philonotis @cu-curu-gol

earth: what’s your ideal house/home?

an old townhouse in new york, that i could decorate the way i want, id paper the walls with tarot and playing cards, i’d have the most beautiful rooms, and i’d have gorgeous art everywhere with a windowseat facing the street that i could sit in and look out of whenever i want.

saturn: what’s your aesthetic?

either cozy fall witch or goth witch i vary between those a lot tbh

jupiter: if you could choose your own name what would it be?

Ember. I’ve loved that name since i was ten.

neptune: what’s an album that you can listen through entirely w/o skipping song?

vices and virtues by panic! at the disco, and maybe danger days by mcr i feel like i have to explain this but its not the black parade because like, i can and have definitely listened to it without skipping anything but like, that album is a fucking journey, i cant just listen to the full thing every day u know??

venus: go to piece of clothing/outfit?

black jeans, any shirt, and a big sweater

mercury: what’s something you couldn’t live without?

stories.

uranus: what’s your zodiac sign?

aquarius eyy

the moon: favorite quote?

it changes a lot, one of them is 'Be clearly aware of the stars and infinity on high. Then life seems almost enchanted after all.’ by van gogh,  but right now my main favorite quote is “Angry, half in love with you, and tremendously sorry, I turned away.” because the great gatsby can be far more relatable then you may think.

the sun: what motivates you?

my incredible fear of not living the life i want to and also the hope of one day living in new york or london and owning a cozy unique bookshop with a dog or a cat and a love intrest

kepler-22b: if you could go anywhere, where would it be/why?

probably london, because i’ve always wanted to go there, or venice because what other city is so incredibly romantic?

phobos: what was your favorite song as a child?

i don’t really know, but Quelqu'un m'a dit by carla bruni always reminds me of being younger, and of my mom. I listen to it on the nights when i feel like i don’t belong anywhere. 

ceres: out of everyone/thing in this world, who would you elect president?

bernie sanders 

titan: if you could die your hair absolutely any color and pull it off, what would it be?

dark blue, i want dark blue hair so badly.

callisko: what’s your ideal job?

a writer.

enceladus: who is your favorite person? what are they like?

i dont really have a favorite person tbh

hyperion: do you have a favorite store/shop?

if i had to pick it would be express

comet: what’s your biggest secret?

i don’t think i’ll live to be 35. not because im suicidal anymore, but just because i genuinely never really saw myself growing old.  

astroid: what’ your biggest fear? i there a reason why you’re scared of it?

dying a bad death. not a painful death, but a way that isn’t heroic or brave or respected at least. i wanna go out with a bang, i dont wanna, like idk, choke on a piece of food or because of my own clumsiness. theres not really a particular reason, i just wanna be remembered, i wanna be seen as a hero, or a tragedy, or just something that people will respect and remember me for. maybe living an uneventful life is a bigger fear though. 

shooting star: who is your ideal s/o?

ILY JESS

1) how would you describe your relationship with your mom/dad

complicated

2) when was the last time you cried and why

i think its been maybe four days which is actually impressive for me, and it was bc my mom was just being really insensitive

3) whats your favorite/least favorite quality about yourself; why

i think my favorite quality about myself is either my eyes or my imagination, and my least favorite quality about myself is my indecisiveness and how i’m less brave than i admit

4) do you smile at strangers

sometimes

5) how often do people (not family members) tell you they love you

not very often tbh, some of my friends do sometimes which makes me feel really nice

6) how is your life different now from two years ago

well, its better in some ways and worse in others, i’m being treated for the stuff im going through but at the same time im still more sad than i used to be, but i’ve learned a lot more and I think I’m a better person than i used to be. 

7) would you ever cheat on someone

fuck no

8) are you a jealous person

a little bit, and i hate that 

9) whats the worst pickup line someone has asked you

no ones really used any pick up lines on me

10) do you believe in ghosts

kind of, not really the coming back after death thing, though i would love that, but i think memories can haunt people and become ghosts in a way.

11) what are your ambitions

I want to travel all over the world and become the best photographer anyone has ever seen, and I want to prove to my parents and myself that i’m worth not giving up on.

12) 3 deal breakers in a relationship

if they arent a feminist, if they aren’t well read, and if they make fun of the things or people i love in more than just a teasing way.

13) what is one thing you’ll never do again

graffiti 

14) whats your most bizarre pet peeve

does passive aggressiveness count bc when people are passive aggressive i actually get ridiculously angry and i’ve lost control a few times 

15) what is your favorite memory

well, one of them is when i was little, I used to take ballet, and every year we put on a production of the nutcracker, and one year there was this girl in my class who had short black hair and wore chokers and had an ipod so i thought she was the coolest person to ever happen and we bonded over the fact that our ballet teacher hated us, and i really love the memories i have of us hiding behind the curtains and watching stand up comedy on her ipod and trying on the older girls costumes and running from the security on stage. 

16) whats your zodiac sign

aquarius!

17) what ‘small things’ things terrify you

grades and people talking about grades, dentist drills and anything that sounds like them.

18) do you like your laugh

yeah it can be really cute

19) have you ever stalked someone/been stalked

I’ve kind of stalked someone but im not sure if ive ever been stalked

20) do you feel loved

in some ways

So I'm friends with a guy, and we met when he asked for my number and I initially agreed to go on a date with him. As time went on, however, we realized we have different perspectives about dating and relationships but we enjoy talking with each other -- we both like nerd stuff, feminism, and politics and are even passionate about the same regions of the world geopolitically and have good discussions. 

jess i literally have so many tests to study for oh my god

Who was the last person you held hands with?

idk actually2. Are you outgoing or shy?

shy af3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

i dont really know right now, i guess my cousin heller cause shes having a baby??4. Are you easy to get along with?

i hope so5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

like a crush? maybe, if he wasnt on a different continent.6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

people who are interested in things that i find interesting, and who i can have a good conversation with without getting too anxious, and who seem like they would be up for having all kinds of adventures.7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

i have no clue8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

well now its fucking clarry thanks for making me think about him again9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

not really, depends on who im talking to10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

it was a group of people, my normal buds, i think maybe a litle more than a week ago11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

'i had such a bad day'12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

chelsea by the summer set, the kids arent alright by fob, all i ever wanted by basshunter (im sorry), drugstore perfume by gerard way, and time to dance by panic! at the disco  13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

idk people dont really play with my hair14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

kind of15. What good thing happened this summer?

warped tour and my photography internship16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

i havent really kissed anyone17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

of course! maybe not in our solar system but the universe is so fucking vast its stupid to think that we're alone18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

nah i have no idea where he is, but i'm friends with my second ever crush19. Do you like bubble baths?

yes20. Do you like your neighbors?

well yeah i had like half a crush on their son for like five years21. What are you bad habits?

biting my nails, listening to my music way too loud, and procrastination22. Where would you like to travel?

all over europe, right now mainly venice.23. Do you have trust issues?

a little bit24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

going to bed25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

my eyes26. What do you do when you wake up?

groan27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

i think i miht wanna be a bit paler28. Who are you most comfortable around?

my friends like ellie, jess, ashlee, eve, gen and the rest of that group29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

i dont have an ex lmao30. Do you ever want to get married?

maybe31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?

yep32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

i dunno, frank iero, and anne hathaway or lindsey way??33. Spell your name with your chin.

ann

i have a v pointy chin34. Do you play sports? What sports?

nah35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

tv36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

yes37. What do you say during awkward silences?

i usually ask a question and that either makes it more awkward or breaks the silence38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

they like pop punk, be adventurous, have nice eyes, be passionate about something, like to talk about stuff and hold a conversation, dark hair would be nice, lip piercing bc those are so attractive, like to sit on rooftops and just talk, be able to pull off a beanie and cool jacket,  mainly i just want someone i can travel the world with and never get tired of talking to them. 39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

express, and hot topic cause im shit40. What do you want to do after high school?

travel41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

it depends42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

im just usually quiet43. Do you smile at strangers?

yeah44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

OUTER SPACE45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

music46. What are you paranoid about?

if people are talking about me behind my back47. Have you ever been high?

not yet lmao48. Have you ever been drunk?

a little49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

yes50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

back51. Ever wished you were someone else?

yeah52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

my shyness and my legs53. Favourite makeup brand?

probs sephora54. Favourite store?

express55. Favourite blog?

idk??56. Favourite colour?

dark red or dark blue or black57. Favourite food?

pizza58. Last thing you ate?

eggs59. First thing you ate this morning?

a cookie60. Ever won a competition? For what?

several essay contests, an art contest once, a skit contest a couple times, a poetry contest once, a science fair that one time, etc etc61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

not yet62. Been arrested? For what?

i legit almost got arrested once63. Ever been in love?

not really64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

hasnt happened65. Are you hungry right now?

nah66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

not really67. Facebook or Twitter?

twitter68. Twitter or Tumblr?

tumblr69. Are you watching tv right now?

no70. Names of your bestfriends?

valerie, liam, ellie, ashlee, jess, gen, eve, nick,  whoever reads this whole thing through

71. Craving something? What?

dance

72. What colour are your towels?

theres a lot of towels72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

two73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

occasionally74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

i used to have so many but then i lost a lot of them, so maybe around ten?75. Favourite animal?

idk76. What colour is your underwear?

white77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

both78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

cookies and cream79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

grey80. What colour pants?

black81. Favourite tv show?

dont really have one82. Favourite movie?

the corpse bride83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

mean girls84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

mean girls85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

oh my god no

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

the pelican87. First person you talked to today?

my dad88. Last person you talked to today?

my mom89. Name a person you hate?

i dont really hate anyone, just dislike,90. Name a person you love?

lindsey way91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

yes92. In a fight with someone?

nah93. How many sweatpants do you have?

one 94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

so many95. Last movie you watched?

into the woods96. Favourite actress?

probs helena bonham carter97. Favourite actor?

probs johnny depp or daniel radcliff98. Do you tan a lot?

nah99. Have any pets?

nah100. How are you feeling?

ok101. Do you type fast?

kind of 102. Do you regret anything from your past?

yep103. Can you spell well?

yeah104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

yes105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

yes106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

maybe107. Have you ever been on a horse?

yep108. What should you be doing?

studying109. Is something irritating you right now?

yes110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

yes111. Do you have trust issues?

maybe112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

my mom113. What was your childhood nickname?

annie114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

yep115. Do you play the Wii?

used to116. Are you listening to music right now?

nope117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

yep118. Do you like Chinese food?

some foods119. Favourite book?

THE NIGHT CIRCUS120. Are you afraid of the dark?

kind of121. Are you mean?

not really122. Is cheating ever okay?

unless you're in like an abusive relationship and trying to leave it with someone else, no.123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

nope124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

maybe125. Do you believe in true love?

yes126. Are you currently bored?

yeah127. What makes you happy?

music and books and my friends128. Would you change your name?

maybe129. What your zodiac sign?

aqaurius130. Do you like subway?

sometimes its a blessing but most of the time its terrible131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

'well i've liked you for more than ten years, lets give this a try.'

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

didnt i answer this??133. Favourite lyrics right now?

'this place let you down, easy'134. Can you count to one million?

probably135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

'yeah the email just doesnt work sometimes idk'136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

closed137. How tall are you?

5'3138. Curly or Straight hair?

wavy139. Brunette or Blonde?

brunnette140. Summer or Winter?

summer141. Night or Day?

night142. Favourite month?

july or octorber143. Are you a vegetarian?

nah144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

milk145. Tea or Coffee?

tea146. Was today a good day?

not really147. Mars or Snickers?

mars148. What’s your favourite quote?

'we all need to see at least three of the seven seas in our lifetime' from the vanishing act149. Do you believe in ghosts?

not really150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?

just keep feeding them water and hope for the best.