Jan 25, 2025
am realizing with horror and great annoyance that if i don't write a chapter in one go and then post it immediately, i get hit with a huge wave of 'oh i hate this actually' and it becomes almost impossible for me to finish it
i really have to power through that one and i think i will hate it until it's posted but i'm just. so annoyed with myself. I've been writing it on three separate days already it feels shitty and boring and bad but I know it's just cause I haven't finished it already
#ngl what helps me a lot is that i've put some sort of a schedule for myself#i'm trying to do one every 14 days or so and now i might feel guilty enough since it's day 15 that i will actually go at it#blessings of adhd i guess#i can write 5k words and a full chapter without need for revisions (other than grammar) in like six hours B U T#if I don't#it's suffering#comments help immensly though because I reread them when I need to kick myself into a writing mood#like not to beg for them this is me being grateful they're wonderful and are atp a very important part of my process lol#thank you a lot i appreciate you dearly ^^#idk personal?#writing vent#kawa rambles
