#kawa rambles

late bday present for my amazing friend @arcade9witch !!!! 

i drew her hansel and gretel ocs!! they are very Good girls and i love them 

"My work is never as good as AI's :("

"I have to use AI to be good :("

A beast stuck in a slayer form, a monster who is not themselves anymore, a former person who can experience glimpses of mental clarity and uses them to beg for the mercy of death. A Durge who defied their Father and saved the world and in exchange destroyed every chance for freedom they could've had.

And a vampire Ascendant, a man who sacrificed thousands for what he thinks is personal freedom. He can walk in the sun but at the cost of doing so utterly alone. Grabbed Durge when they went insane and locked them away, promises to find a way to save them but c'mon, why would he do that? Like this, they're a mindless beast, the way he once was, wrapped tightly around the primal hunger and lust that was ordered by their Master, and AA is the only one who can ease the pain a little.

AA can't die by the feral beast. AA can take it when it rips apart anyone he throws to them for food. AA can whip and beat it until it cowers under him and he can call it mercy because the beast needs a firm hand. Wouldn't it be just so much easier if Durge had accepted to become spawn when Astarion offered? Wouldn't he be such a nicer master than Bhaal is?

Now look at what he is forced to do, the wretched beast.

What if it was none of that. What if they botb expect something like it, they're both tense, and ready, and unsure - and then the meeting happens, and just... They're back where they were. Durge doesn't remember, maybe walks a different path, but besides that, is personality wise the same. Gortash drops his personas and serves them their favorite drink and it's the same as it was back then. They sit and can agree to an alliance and it feels so much like nothing changed that Gortash forgets himself and makes an inside joke that Durge doesn't understand but still chuckles at. Durge doesn't remember Gortash's old name or favorite dish but remembers exactly the way his skin feels. Gortash notices that Durge still stims when they're sitting but the stim is now different than it was before.

What if there was nothing more. What if they changed so much and yet not at all. What if they both came ready for a violent altercation but now they're just two sad people starting to go grey who were so lonely and know eachother best and yet not at all anymore. What then.

Everyone stares in anger and horror because he still has his claws on but Scratch is oblivious (you cant tell me Gortash couldn't charisma his way into a dog liking him) and Gort just looks up from a book he was reading like "ah good youre finally here! Just wanna talk :)"