Tonight, I was called a heartbreaker, but that soul doesn’t realize I’ve yet to find peace. I’m haunted by an old being, a soul that no longer belongs here. Like an old ghost, she keeps haunting me, unwelcomed reminding me of the past when it’s the future I’m trying to aim for. I just want her to let me let her go, to have her no longer search for me in the corners of her life, to no longer set out for the attention that’s no longer hers to hold. I wasn’t the leaving party in this parade, she left me long before I knew how to breathe on my own, and now I’m here, breathing, new air and new coast lines and she knows nothing about who I’ve become. This time I was the heartbreakee, the one who didn’t want to be left. I lived all my life as a heartbreaker until I met her newfound soul, and now all I know is her shadow, that haunts me awake, and jolts me to the reality that can no longer ever exist. She won’t let me find peace and all I want is to move on, to let her go like I’ve been trying so well at, to be happy like I know I can be on my own, because I’ve seen it in this month, my smile rediscovered and my confidence being repaired. But she won’t leave me be, little pieces of her presence pop up in my everyday life, telling me she’s still trying and for what? What she says and what she does, don’t and will never match, I need her to let me let her go. When will she let me find peace? when will she finally let me let her go?
Please, stop haunting me, (coloringtheworldwithwords)
