Thank you @yonigasm for the challenge of posting an image of me feeling and looking my best. I have thousands of professional images, but decided to go with a selfie from my train ride on Monday in which I was feeling really pampered by the universe and in love with myself. Unfortunately I’ve been in bed crazy sick and quite sleepless all week since then, while also having an ongoing email “battle” with my husband as I attempt to collect my things in LA and start a brand new chapter of my life that I never expected not desired, and throughout these sleepless days I had disconnected from the truth - that I am light and I am love. It’s hard to feel pretty or capable when you’ve been going through a box of tissues a day for four days, and when someone you still love and forgive selflessly is committed to extracting vengeance on you in order to justify their bitterness, but no matter where I am or how I am perceived or treated by others, I know that I am incredible. I am a dedicated, loyal, forgiving, and loving person committed to self growth and expansion - who could ask for more? I’m so grateful to have me. Me being sick, I’m told by both @allisonholleycreator and @luspiritualcoach is quite tied in with my very deep feelings of home sickness, as I’m no longer allowed to return to the arms and the home and the man that I love, and I am slowly solidifying the lesson that home is not a place, home is a sense of belonging and peace. I have to believe that even sick and sad, that being in this moment is where I’m meant to be. Even if it’s nothing like I envisioned for myself, I belong here. And I can find reassurance in that truth. I’m connecting deeper to all levels of me; the spiritual, the karmic, the emotional, the physical, and the sexual.. and this incredible deep healing seems to keep causing incredibly deep sickness. I’ll continue to navigate it as best as I can and am so grateful to the DOZENS of amazing people in my life holding space for me to heal and to cry and to grow. Thank you for being there for me. @yonigasm - #iamlove. Thank you for the reminder. Go follow @yonigasm if you’re in to connecting to yourself spiritually and physically 💗 https://www.instagram.com/p/BtpR6yFD_xU/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=ublascqmk3in