Where's that Richard Siken quote about breaking down and your brain focusing on a single detail because I remember having a breakdown at 19 and all I remember thinking in the moment was that my table is dirty and needs a good scrubbing and again now at 23 just bawling my eyes out crying and looking around for a kettle in a room I know doesn't have a kettle like. Something something brain so overwhelmed can only handle one otherwise insignificant thing while heart tears itself to pieces
















