#i keep venting

I don’t know what it is about me but I will always think that everyone hates me

I think he hates me,

He didn’t hang out with me today,

We made a plan! He said that we were going to draw together, I was so excited,

I painted my nails red just like he suggested, I even dress fancy because I thought I was going to see him!

But no, he went with his other friends instead,

He must’ve know what he was doing, I’m such an idiot,

Waving at me doesn’t heal the damage you done,

I cried today, I cried because of you,

Because you promised we would hang out just to not show up,

I couldn’t help it, I cried like crazy,

How was I so stupid to think I meant something to you?

I had to, I had to cut myself,

I didn’t know what else to do,

I hope you’re happy,

You’ve ruined my life,

I should hate you, but I can’t help but feel entitle to you,

I hate this, I hate everything,

Food I don't want

I have no appetite

I feel fat

I miss my gf

How come as soon as I get something good

I’m just not ready,

Everyone is going to ask about what happened,

I’m not ready to talk about it,

I’m not ready to see him again,

I don’t know what he’s going to do,

I’m scared,

I’m not ready to see her again,

I don’t want to see her ever again,

I should have stayed in the hospital longer,