#i hate...everything

okay i know im being so dramatic and none of this in itself is a big deal but ive been feeling very bad lately and fragile and today was awful at work like really shitty i went to dunkin on my break and just screamed in my car the whole way there and just felt fucking awful all day and i come home and im locked out of the apartment for 20 mins bc cris is asleep so im thinking im going to be locked out all night and im just sitting on the door step crying he finally wakes up and lets me in and i shower and go to get us mcdonalds and the wait is super long (not a big deal i kno how it is) but i get to the payment window and they dont have any salads so all im getting is fries and i get the food and they dont put ketchup in the bag so i have to stop at walgreens to get ketchup in my house shorts and a sweatshirt and a guy asks me for money when im leaving which makes me feel awful and then i get home and drop my fries on the ground. the end i hate my life. 

i miss my.good medicine im for real teetering on the edge of a breakdown for NO REASON ..AND ive been trying tk sleep for an hour and im so dead tired but The Mental Illness is keeping me awake...I am so upset

i only have 4 paths left fml

sometimes i think medicolegal entomology might be a risky career health-wise but then i see vulture culture blogs on tumblr dot hell with people handling roadkill with their bare hands and putting skinned animals in their closed car trunks unbagged