It's been a while. So last week, he invited me over to his work, and we ate during his break. It was fun. I had an alright time. It was kinda cute. So for the longest time, I've thought about asking him to prom. And I was like yeah, imma do it. So I made some signs, his favorite superhero is captain America, so I got him the shield, and put 'hey Andy, prom?' On it and put it on his windshield, then I came out of no where with a sign saying 'with me?' And that's what i did today. Note* we are two very awkward people. So this is where it gets awkward. He like grabbed the sign and then he sees me, and I'm walking over to his car, and he's like honestly thinking about this. Like hardcore pros and cons. And then after what seemed like a good 5 minuets (more like 2) he says oh I loved to go to prom with you. And we just laugh awkwardly. He was token by complete surprise. He was in shock I think. And he was asking questions like when is it? And stuff. And then my friend who was helping me left, and I get really like, okay I got really bad anxiety. And I was like you don't have to, and just reassured him in a really crappy way. Then he's like lets go for a walk, get the nerves out, and he basically tells me that today was supposed to be his 3rd date with this girl, and that he likes me too, and I stopped listening. My anxiety got the better of me at this moment. And I honesty had no idea, I feel like such a shit person, I put him in a really shitty situation. And I feel super awkward, because I shouldn't of asked. We talked more, he was still in stock, he said it'll sink in tomorrow. But I just feel like such a shit person. And it's like I know asking him, anything can happen, but I feel I could've seen this coming. I feel really bad. And I just want the world to stop spinning so I can catch my breath, and take a few breaths. Especially because me and my dad have been arguing lately, and usually we fight and get over it the next day, or whatever. But I honestly think he's starting to see me like my mom sees me. And I just I don't know what to do after graduation. And I need a moment. I'm in a sea of emotions.
