#i care...

The way Juuzou sees parental figures is very much skewed given the abuse he suffered at the hands of Big Madam. So, once he associates Shinohara with a father figure (which is even further drilled into him by Mrs Shinohara telling him that Yukinori saw him as a son), even though Shinohara was kind to Juuzou in a way Big Madam wasn't, he approaches the situation the same way, giving him a seemingly morally correct yet violent goal to pursue. Juuzou recognizes Big Madam hurt him and loves her regardless, but even with that realization, he's still playing his puppet role.

Juuzou is still just a weapon.

While as a child he obeyed every order Big Madam gave him, as an adult he obeys every order he's given by the CCG higher ups BECAUSE he thinks that's what Shinohara, his supposed father figure, would want. He thinks that he's supposed to BECOME Shinohara just because Shinohara showed him kindness.

He can't make decisions for himself, because he's never been allowed to, so he doesn't know how. Once he was out of Big Madam's control, he was forced to re-live his trauma by killing again, just because killing ghouls is considered "morally acceptable".

Even though it may not seem like it at first glance, letting him channel his violence the same way he did when he used to be a scrapper, RETRAUMATIZES him.

So even though he gets better and develops empathy (In the Joker chapter of Tokyo Ghoul:re, he stops a girl from being groped on the train because he's been through it as well.) and care (for Shinohara and his own subordinates who seem to trust him a lot), at his core he's still the same traumatized Juuzou; That much is obvious in the way he approaches his rematch with Kurona, demonstrating that he's changed but not completely, because he's willing to kill his friend Sasaki without much thought just because he was told to, and in saying that he smiles the same smile he'd given Big Madam.

Juuzou associates parents with control, and that includes Shinohara, which breaks my heart! So once Shinohara wakes up they seriously need to talk so he can unlearn some of that😭

I haven't finished Tokyo Ghoul:re yet but I already know the ending is rushed and doesn't show anything like that.

I wish Juuzou's character arc included him learning to decide for himself rather than just going along with what everyone says. It's unlikely for him to fully ever recover from his trauma, but that would've been a massive step forward.

[I know I didn't say anything that hasn't been said before, but this is just a way for me to metabolize the chapter I just read, because it makes sense but it still upsets me greatly. As someone else put it, Juuzou's character arcs stagnates in :re. There's still 80 chapters or so for me to read and I kinda lost interest because I'm not liking this one eyed king kaneki making shitty decisions thing. The fact there's only like 4 Juuzou fics makes me wanna kms!!]

{I doubt anyone's gonna read this but if u did tysm and sorry for my english, My way of speaking makes more sense in italian!]