#hyperfixation hell

I close my eyes and nahyuta ace attorney is standing there I cant free my brain from him. I keep doodling him everywhere.

(not to mention the gaps in between posts as well) yes so I regret to inform anyone who actually Cares that my hyperfixation has switched fandoms. It’s now the Marvel franchise. (As you may be able to tell from the bio and pfp)

it started with just wanting to watch ONE Marvel movie and it was ‘Iron Man’ one my mom realized based off of how I talked about it that I don’t actually remember a lot of the movies and there’s quite a few I haven’t seen, so she and my older brother roped me in to watching the entire movie timeline. (my brother even Tricked me in to watching the 2008 hulk movie that I was skeptical of. good on him I guess because I actually Really like it. . .)

I am currently 6 movies in minus ‘Captain Marvel’ I’m vary slow to watch stuff especially long movies

Technically speaking this is actually what my brain needed. it was getting to the point where I wasn’t feeling as. . .good? In the turtles franchise, I could see it coming for a while. it was at the point where it was going to be forced if I continued which typically causes me a form of irritability and not wanting to do anything generally a bad mind set, so I dug my brain in to a transitional hyperfixation as a call it and ended up on Marvel. I didn’t bring this up when I switched from Sonic to turtles because I was still newer and didn’t have as many people to interact with, which is also part of why I wasn’t around this week, because I was scared that the people I’m ‘Friends’/Mutuals with will stop talking to me even tho I miss em and Want to talk to em, which will probably happen. I can’t say for sure if I’ll ever come back to the turtles fandom, theres certain feelings I get with fandoms after so long/when I’m done with them. And the turtles fandom feels so much smaller than the others, it’s suffocating in a way. (big fandoms are overwhelming as well). there are fandoms I Know I’ll come back to and the turtles probably isn’t high on that list. I realize now that getting in to a new fandom every few months (or just every month) sucks because of how Easy it is to leave/drop the others behind, I have projects, and knowing people who are ‘friends’ or want to know of these projects, makes it so much worse. It honestly kind of hurts. I didn’t mean for this to get so dramatic gosh~

I’m vary sorry to anyone/everyone and I feel really bad for it. I knew when I got so much into the turtles fandom that I was to comfortable and I’d inevitably have to switch and it sucks so much. and, I Honestly can’t express how sorry I am, really.

Bye, Bye, Turtles hopefully I’ll be back. . .

I’m getting pulled into an old hyperfixation like getting dragged into hell.