Jun 26
top three video essays i canāt ever bring myself to watch bc i already know theyāre gonna send me into a spiraling agonizing meltdown panic attack out of sheer frustration alone
#broadcasts from the astronaut#thatās not the right jinx video thumbnail cuz i clicked it by accident (saved by an ad) but what the fuck ever#this is kind of a lie actually i think iāve watched the h*mest*ck one#but both the lady of the channel And the whomstve team reaction have pissed me off so bad in the aftermath (for different reasons)#i canāt bring myself to dredge all that shit up again LMFAO#look i can usually be pretty normal about my interests. at least in front of other people#maybe less so on here than irl but still thereās a Limit of how much iām willing to lose my shit publicly#However. comma#sometimes it just consumes me so bad i canāt fucking stand it okay HAJDKFKSKDN#am i actually crazy for this. do other people get so pulled into their interests that they just canāt stomach certain types of discussion#about it#tbh this isnāt even about Criticizing my interests like iāll willing do that all the time#itās just that when the approach from the start seems fundamentally fucked#or just like diametrically opposed to my own fandom politicsā¦ i just canāt stand it#same reaction i have to rival characters getting too much power over dumb protags in BL tbh#i guess certain things just set me off and thatās fine#can a squick also count as a trigger?? not that i necessarily need warnings for this#but some things i just have to avoidā¦#which is maybe only painful bc i want to know Everything once i like something deeply enough#and also thereās barely any other loveless video essays that i can find rn SIGHHH lol#okay whatever donāt reblog this iām just rambling#no ID
