#hotsoymilk

I don’t really know where to start. Last time someone asked me to tell them about myself was Sunday. And I actually really struggled. First of all I’m really bad at writing but here I am trying to create a curation of writings that will 99.9% make no sense. 

So i’m going to attempt to explain what my life looks like as a 20 year old girl who believes in angels but doesn’t believe in heaven. I’m Sourita. I don’t believe in many beliefs or systems. Just things that many say aren’t relevant like the star and moon. However I believe in people. I believe so much in people that some would say is a flaw.  

I love learning. I love reading. All my books have prints of tanning oil left from my fingers and grains of sand from beaches all across Australia. I’m currently reading “The Power of Now” by Eckhard Tolle and “Hot Milk” by Deborah Levy. Yeah I’m reading two books at the same time because I suck. I paint. But only things that aren’t visually recognisable. Only I know what it is. 

I sleep on a mattress that sit on crates that I begged my dad to drag all the way from his work (thanks dad) I have lighters and books scattered everywhere. The best thing about my room is the disco ball hanging from my ceiling and the random things stuck on my walls. My walls are covered in glow in the dark stars, photos of friends and family, a picture stolen from a memory of a boy I love, film posters from Vietnam, a weird painting of my past lover and a gay pride poster my sister made and stuck all over our Catholic school.

Films and music are the only things that make me cry. Sometimes boys do too. I’m like water. I’m always changing. Nothing is ever still with me. Physically, spiritually but mainly emotionally. I’m just a confused little soul. All I know is I’m supposed to be moving. 

Do you ever do those quizzes that tell you which celebrity you’ll get married to or where your next holiday is? Well I did an enlightenment quiz and my results. An “Awakening Dreamer”. 

“Walking the path of enlightenment and are riding high on the excitement of your spiritual and personal growth. You have attained a state of consciousness where you are living your purpose with an open heart and you shower love and peace on all who encounter you”.

So this is it. 

A blog made of love and a curation of random ideas, memories, sounds and words. Mainly my 4am sober thoughts. Nothing is going to make sense because too much goes on in my little head. Yet half the time if you asked what I was thinking about. I’d say nothing. 

Peace and love,