#hopsreflections

it’s funny how similar the person is but how differently im approaching

this time more carefully, being more wary, and significantly less attached

bittersweet in that it shows growth, but also how it shows that it was somewhat traumatic to the heart

your name passed through the person’s mouth again in the most abrupt manner on sunday, and my head instantly turned to the sound of your last name

I was really happy and glad to see you. Even though it may have not seemed that way because of my lack of affection and how awkward I could have been, I just want you to know this. It felt warm to be beside you again. It felt full. Your words of encouragement built up my spirit. Your words of affirmation relaxed my heart once more.

I was reading over Matthew 12 today. Jesus answered the scribes and Pharisees from verses 39 to 42, talking about Jonah and his three days and nights in the great fish, the people of Nineveh and how they repented at the preaching of Jonah, and the queen of the South who came from the ends of the earth to hear Solomon speak. As he spoke about these people, Jesus always ended their story by saying,

“behold, something greater than [name] is here.”

All the accounts of these “godly” men in the Bible are only broken glimpses of Christ and His story. The fact the God allows us to imitate and walk in Jesus’ footsteps is such undeserving grace. Jesus is greater. His life giving, soul saving, heart healing, and mind transforming power and victory on the cross is far greater than any of our circumstances, brokenness, and sinfulness. We are so small in this big world; imagine how much bigger and greater God is.

a humming constant of laughter, conversations, soft music, and occasional yelling

attempting to capture moments before i leave

and the wave of assurance and fullness that swallows it whole from a being who is greater than all.

thank You,

for a new ending, towards a new beginning.

new conversations, new visions, new people

beautiful chilly fall weather and an amazing group of company in the Wendy’s parking lot.

haven’t felt so wholesome and happy from a group of people for a while until yesterday

forgot what it felt to have a bubbling excitement and expectancy for a ministry until yesterday.