#hl13

Yeah it's kinda late

01/06 Highlight - Our last practice was great. We did what we could without Jimmy, and even though I think that we could have practiced more, it was still pretty good.  Lowpoint - It's kind of bittersweet considering this probably will be our last practice all together, not all of us are staying and it's pretty upsetting. 

02/06 Highlight - We went and performed. We came in fourth, but (at least for me) it wasn't even about placing anymore.  Lowpoint - I think we could have at least placed if they hadn't banned our own choreographer from talking to us. I feel like that's a big reason why we couldn't do it to the fullest. Ryan was a good step in, but mouse knew what he was doing. In addition to not getting his pointers, I think it affected a few of us seeing him there, but not even being allowed to say hi.  

03/06 Highlight - SECRET LIFE ENDED AND AMY FINALLY DID THE RIGHT THING. SORTA.  Lowpoint - Sometimes I do things with a lack of care when I really should care

04/06 Highlight -I went to the MMVA lineup with Catherine. Talking to her for a change was nice  Lowpoint - Kristen flopped out ):

05/06 Highlight - I got to actually see and hold the yearbook. I was so happy to have it in my hands.  Lowpoint - I feel really bad about him now but I can't do anything

06/06 Highlight - I'm getting a car for my birthday! Lowpoint - Afshan put up this status saying almost none of the people nominated for Ms. Congeniality weren't well rounded, even though she said she didn't mean me I took offense for it for most of the others who were also nominated

07/06 Highlight - We got our Yearbooks! Lowpoint - I didn't get anything free before I got my MMVA wristband because Catherine forgot her number and we came too late for that

08/06  Highlight - I went with my dad to get his anniversary stuff. It was nice to see him do that Lowpoint - The status is becoming full fledge drama

09/06 Highlight - The anniversary dinner was nice Lowpoint - I didn't get much done work-wise

10/06 Highlight - The grad run was a lot of fun Lowpoint - The drama escalated. People were slapped, others suspended and a fight broke out in the mall. I sound horrible for saying it but I wish I saw it. 

11/06 Highlight - I randomly did the Tropicana interview. I think it went well Lowpoint - Doing most of my essay was really hard. 

12/06 Highlight - I spent the whole day with Kevin helping with his promposal Lowpoint - I realized I am really going to miss him when he goes to Waterloo

13/06 Highlight - It was the last day of Highschool classes. Ever.  Lowpoint - It's bittersweet because we aren't going to see everyone again unless everyone comes for marks. It’s just sad to think it's over, no matter how stupid our school is. 

14/06 Highlight - Got yogurt and chocolate covered pretzels Lowpoint - My dad's friends were over and I had to stay in my room all night wearing jeans ):

15/06 Highlight - I bought hairspray and mascara Lowpoint - I went to mass today to help Jonathan with something and it turned out that he was showing the testimonial video. It upsets me that I don't have the same passion for religion anymore. Jonathan was tearing and I felt like I shouldn't have been in it at all because I don't really believe in it. I just question why I still go. Anyway, I couldn't say no to the retreat next month and I feel bad for that too

16/06 Highlight - The MMVA's were awesome as usual minus the usual crazy people Lowpoint - We came at six in the morning and weren't given proper instructions when given our numbers so there was actually another number we were supposed to get. Management kind of went "fuck all of you" and just gave out the numbers regardless of the first ones so we were like wth

17/06 Highlight - I did my last Highschool exam ever  Lowpoint - I found it to be bittersweet. I read the teacher comments in my yearbook and started crying. I will really miss this school. 

18/06 Highlight - I started watching 90210 Lowpoint - I found out that I gained weight because of the pills and I don't want to stop taking them

19/06 Highlight - The car is now in my driveway Lowpoint - I was talking to my mom about finally getting my lessons done so I could get my license and it was like I wasn't there

20/06 Highlight - I had a deep talk with Venuya and Sindhuja. I was more on the listening side but it was so refreshing Lowpoint - I blew up with my mom about money and prom and just started crying. I just can't take her blaming me for every single financial blip in this family. 

21/06 Highlight - We went to the mall for prom stuff Lowpoint – Everyone was buying stuff and I was kind of just there

22/06 Highlight - The fun fair was more fun than we thought Lowpoint - It rained and it kind of ruined my tie dye shirt

23/06 Highlight - Both church parties were a lot of fun Lowpoint - Even though Jonathan was accepting of my agnostic-ness, I felt bad about it

24/06 Highlight - I watched 90210 all day Lowpoint - Mr. Zoras posted a video to say goodbye to all of us and it was just bittersweet

25/06 Highlight - Venuya, Mausami, Pirasha and Sindhuja came over and it was fun to vent and do make up and stuff Lowpoint - I called Sephora and they said my stuff is going to come next week

26/06 Highlight - I got everything I needed for prom Lowpoint - My mom's friend gave me every purse except the one I asked for, and being the day before I was going to start crying 

27/06 Highlight - Prom. All of it.  Lowpoint - The food could have been better

28/06 Highlight - Shannon and Micheal's after party was a lot of fun Lowpoint - I wish people stayed longer 

29/06 Highlight - It was nice seeing Menelik and Kim at his Grad party thing Lowpoint - I had to wait so long for the bus to go home

01/05 Highlight - The weather is amazing Lowpoint - Venuya is starting to scare me now

02/05 Highlight - I skipped fourth to go to the park with Venuya, Pratheep, and Zargham Lowpoint - The rough copy of my essay is due tomorrow

03/05 Highlight - After Farabi's prompasal our WHOLE group of friends skipped the afternoon and went to the park Lowpoint - The moments we have together like that are probably ending with highschool. I don't think all of us can maintain this

04/05 Highlight - I got a frapp at happy hour Lowpoint - I had to finish up with my essay to send it to Ms. Szoke and I don't think it was good

05/05 Highlight - We met Victor's girlfriend o: Lowpoint - Aunty Marita and her family came over and it was just a compare-the-daughters type of night

06/05 Highlight - We went to Starbucks and Swiss Chalet after school. It was a fun last minute thing Lowpoint - I did not end up copying those notes

07/05 Highlight - Free food from Venuya again Lowpoint - Lunch was SO uncomfortable 

08/05  Highlight - Practice was intense, but good intense Lowpoint - We went to Swiss Chalet again, but this time the fries went right through me

09/05 Highlight - Mouse wasn't here for the beginning of practice so while we were practicing we got to let loose a little before he came to have us drill the routine Lowpoint - I had to do my one line solo, without a Goddamn mic.

10/05 Highlight - When I practiced the routine by myself and got praise for making it so far I was just happy Lowpoint - I'm finding it seriously difficult to do for my city mirrored 

11/05 Highlight - Morgan and Joyce tried to get me to feel better before dress rehersal and I just thought it was sweet of them for getting me food and trying to get medicine as well\ Lowpoint - I got sick in the morning and I was basically dying throughout the whole dress rehersal 

12/05 Highlight - I got high Lowpoint - My mom didn't want to hang out with me on mother's day ):

13/05 Highlight - A TV baker named Anna Olson came to talk to us and she told us that the left over food from her show goes to shelters and it just made me really happy Lowpoint - I wasn't feeling life today

14/05 Highlight - I didn't feel much need to care today Lowpoint - He tried to send a goodbye message through text. Although my gut says no one who wants to commit suicide would take that kind of risk, and despite him taking the time to argue about it with me, he might have done it

15/05 Highlight - My dad let me stay home one more time Lowpoint - Practice kind of completely failed today

16/05 Highlight - I bought Vans today Lowpoint - I'm really worried that it happened

17/05 Highlight - My friend didn't die Lowpoint - My Uncle passed away

18/05 Highlight - I got accepted into UTSC Lowpoint - I could care less that I got accepted. Venuya was more excited that I was

19/05 Highlight - We had our Unity audition today, it was nice seeing David again Lowpoint - It was pretty bad. I'm afraid Multicultural will be shit too because they refuse to put enough time aside to practice

20/05 Highlight - Secret life is going in the direction I want it to and I'll be free in two weeks Lowpoint - I had to do all my english today since I left it to the last minute

21/05 Highlight - Mom got food from Aunty Mary's. Guess it was a nice change Lowpoint - I fell asleep and didn't finish the Motif so I had to skip the morning to get it done

22/05 Highlight - My mom brought home this cereal and I just couldn't stop eating it even though it was bannana flavored Lowpoint - I was just really upset today. Especially after English

23/05 Highlight - Muhid, Vithu and I talked about drugs while we were cooking it was fun Lowpoint - They pretty much cornered me and tried to force me to say why I wasn't at school last week 

24/05 Highlight - The promposal went well Lowpoint - The drama behind this dance stuff was more serious than we thought

25/05 Highlight - It was nice seeing some family Lowpoint - The funeral felt more like a promotion for heaven than the celebration of my uncle's life

26/05 Highlight - Going back to youth group was one of the gratest feelings I've had in a while  Lowpoint - I had to leave early

27/05 Highlight - The class picnic was so much fun Lowpoint - I accepted my university offer and I'm just not satisfied with it

28/05 Highlight - The rehersals for multi are pumping me up Lowpoint - I have procrastinated a bit too much with my ISU

29/05 Highlight - I don't have to do my ISU until monday Lowpoint - I keep thinking about how fast time is moving and it's scary

30/05 Highlight - Bidhan gave me a more or less inspirational talk about my dance. He said he could be a great performer and that I should push for it. I don't know if it's the way he delivered it or getting that kind of feedback from someone who I know wouldn't just say I did good because they're my friend, but it meant so much to me that it just set me on trying to become a professional dancer regardless of all this university shit.  Lowpoint - When I watched our performance, I was just horribly dissappointed in myself. I know the rest of my group doesn't care how the coordination was because this is their hobby, but as for myself it's just sad that this was our last performance. I wanted to leave my heart on the stage for everyone and it didn't feel like it. The only part I liked was how I handles the wardrobe malfunction. It just upsets me that that was it. 

01/04 Highlight - I saw 21 and Over and it was very funny and worth what I paid.  Lowpoint - My mom and I had a huge fight over a fucking sandwich 02/04 Highlight - This time I hung out with Kevin, Kavishka and Anthony. Venuya was a loser and hung out with her boyfriend. The benefit was free candy :D Lowpoint - In Walmart I found a pack of Hershey kisses from Valentine's Day assuming it was going to be discounted, but it was full price for some odd reason  03/04 Highlight - I finally got to watch Spring Breakers, despite the quality being awful and the visual getting cut off at the end, it was good. I hope to see it again, but in theatres. Lowpoint - Venuya and I went all the way to Markham to find our prom dresses at this one store and the store didn't have a single prom dress either of us liked even slightly 04/04 Highlight - Making the cheesecake in the afternoon was fun even though it took twice as long to bake as it should have.  Lowpoint - I got a phonecall home for philosophy even though I had a note 05/04 Highlight - Since it was Menelik's birthday after dance he invited us to tag along to Kelsey's and the movie even though I had literally 10 cents over. I met more of their friends and the whole evening was just great Lowpoint - I don't know if I imagined it because I was high or if it actually happened but I swear I heard Jimmy say "I like you" during the movie, and he was on the end so I was the only one next to him. If it happened then that's just awkward.  06/04 Highlight - Shariqa's party was fun Lowpoint - I kind of feel seperated from my friends. Like I'm hiding a couple of things from them so I don't know what that says about our friendship. It was just I couldn't share much at the party 07/04 Highlight - The weather was so nice, warm breeze and all Lowpoint - I hardly got any work done  08/04  Highlight - Although it took all of lunch to get the yearbook photos done, it was fun when we did them Lowpoint - We didn't make the deadline 09/04 Highlight - Well this isn't the first time I've rped recently, but its nice to be doing that again Lowpoint - I'm so piled under work and yearbook. I just want the week to be over 10/04 Highlight - Didn't go for any classes today  Lowpoint - Pratheep's actually getting slightly on my nerves 11/04 Highlight - We had our first multi practice, it started late and not much got done but stuff did get done and it was nice to get back into it.  Lowpoint - I don't think Thursday practices for hip hop are happening any more 12/04 Highlight - The debate that we were all freaking out about went pretty well. 45 minutes long well.  Lowpoint - Pratheep seems to not have any respect for us being editors as he changes shit without our consent then yells at us for not saying "thank you" what kind of bullshit.. 13/04 Highlight - Lazy day (: Lowpoint - Unity was cancelled and I had to waste two bus tickets to find out 14/04 Highlight - I didn't have to leave my house today Lowpoint - I tried moussing my hair and it was so bad that I decided the outside world wasn't worth it 15/04 Highlight - So we got this sheet that 'determines' how depressed you are and Amina was filling it out and once she got to "loss of interest in sex" she froze, said it out loud and stared at it like it was a foriegn language. When I explain why it may be a sign of depression she was like "ewwwwww". She's so innocent, its so precious omg Lowpoint - Pratheep was seriously getting on my nerves with this yearbook thing. We gave him one Goddamn job and he did every fucking thing BUT that.  16/04 Highlight - Yearbook is done so I don't need to stress anymore  Lowpoint - I woke up wishing I never did 17/04 Highlight - I finished my choreo Lowpoint - I didn't do that thing I wanted to   18/04 Highlight - Hung out with Kevin at STC. It was nice to be able to hang out with him Lowpoint - Venuya got upset for some reason at lunch and she was putting it on me. I wasn't up for it today.  19/04 Highlight - Zohra decorated Kevin's locker better than I had planned to. He lookef happy so it made me happy Lowpoint - We had to drill the routine like 30 times and it got so hot. It was good but slightly exhausting  20/04 Highlight - Went to Pickle Barrel to celebrate Kevin's birthday, twas fun.  Lowpoint - The dance is far from done and we don't have enough practice time 21/04 Highlight - I finaly went back to choir. Victor got a girlfriend.  Lowpoint - I feel 50x more single now 22/04 Highlight - Kaviska's promposal was a success Lowpoint - We decided it's best if I don't do the full audition because I don't have it down yet 23/04 Highlight - I fell asleep at five and didn't wake up until five in the morning  Lowpoint - Mausami left school early and skipped out on practice, turns out there's something seriously wrong with her and I just hope she'll be okay 24/04 Highlight - My dad let me stay home today Lowpoint - I just felt wrong today 25/04 Highlight - Venuya and Pirasha stayed at my house until 10:30 for practice it was fun Lowpoint - Mausami being missing is just weird 26/04 Highlight - Tracy came back from Waterloo and showed up at dance also I went pretty hard on the new dance yay me  Lowpoint - I feel really bad about Kevin. I wanted to do something for his birthday, but I think that frustrated him.  27/04 Highlight - I found a great dress store  Lowpoint - I still feel like I'm settling 28/04 Highlight - Got my prom dress Lowpoint - I sort of settled, but I think I'll grow to love it. 

29/04 Highlight - We're changing the first song Lowpoint - The audition didn't go so well

01/03 Highlight - My late for class got excused again because I went to the office to ask Ms. Kelsey another question.   Lowpoint - We apparently have our STOMP audition in three weeks and we aren't ready

  02/03 Highlight - We went to the mall to look for my prom dress and although we never found it, it was nice to have a family outing. Lowpoint - I didn't feel like going to Unity. Again. I don't know why.

03/03 Highlight - Kim, Ash and I went to Tim Horton's after the praise and worship music practice. Nice conversation Lowpoint - I keep postponing that philosophy essay 

04/03 Highlight - I took a nap afterschool to avoid making tarts with Venuya. I wasn't in the tart-making mood. Lowpoint - I'm sure that my prom will more or less suck unless I miraculously get a boyfriend.  

  05/03 Highlight - Venuya, Kevin, Kavishka, Anthony and I went to the mall afterschool and just chilled. It was nice. Lowpoint - I don't like how Venuya's problems eventually become mine too. Not meaning when she tells me, but when her emotions affect how she acts in general. She doesn't need to tell me what's wrong for me to know something is wrong, but regardless of if I know or not, it eventually affects me too.

06/03 Highlight - My dad got me a happy meal Lowpoint - What I don't like about me being single is I confuse my own feelings. I could think I'm starting to like someone just because I think I want someone. I know I don't need anyone, but if I automatically just do that I can't contol it with the snap of my fingers, otherwise I would.

07/03 Highlight - I went to Warden Hilltop for an extra practice session. All the goofing around in between was fun, it makes me happy to have found intrest in this, and to have met the people I've met. Lowpoint - So in first period I went to get my folder from my locker and when I came back up the stairs he was coming down the stairs, late. Neither of us said hi, or threw a greeting smile, or anything really. It's just sad, it hasn't even been a full year yet.  

08/03 Highlight - We had to choose our crew name for STOMP today. Even though Mercy was throwing out great suggestions (many of them greater than what we have, but since that wasn't unanimus they weren't used) my random idea was used. Don Mindset. Simple, but represents where we're from and who we are. Lowpoint - I chose to wear lipstick today and well I was just reminded of how dry my lips are in the winter. Though a better lipstick wouldn't hurt.

09/03 Highlight - Finally went to Unity, it was fun. I'm apparently close to some sort of backflip. Lowpoint - I am so unsure of my faith it's not even funny. I went to Praise and Worship mainly because not coming would disappoint Jonathan and some other people. Plus, there are some friends I wouldn't get to see if I didn't go. During praise and worship I was thinking about how illogical this whole relion thing is, and if maybe I was here because I still believe a bit. I slightly felt ashamed to be there in case I was more on the 'I don't' side. Most of these people take it seriously, and I'm sitting there just pretending to be the same.  

10/03 Highlight - I went to Venuya's to make tarts. Twas fun Lowpoint - I could have finished reading the Joy Luck Club if she called like an hour later.

11/03 Highlight - I went bowling with a couple of my dance friends and met some of their friends. One of them was cute, and funny too. Lowpoint - I had to get up early to go to the dentist. At the dentist, I was told that I'm gonna have to get my wisdom tooth pulled and it'll be so bad that I'll have to take off a week from school ): Terrifying.

12/03 Highlight - I met up with Venuya at stc and went to her house after. Lowpoint - I didn't get to sleep in because I went to the job search help thing. Aside from my resume getting editted I didn't get much out of it.

13/03 Highlight - Jay Park released a new song a couple weeks ago (I felt so late) so I naturally got excited. It was pretty dope, and I think I'm going to use the Korean part for multi. Lowpoint - I'm back on meds.

14/03 Highlight - We cut our dance practice short and just talked. It was nice to just laugh and listen to stories. Lowpoint - One part of the conversation was about this girl who cut herself and they kind of related depression to being crazy.

15/03 Highlight - We're now reassured that we're going to be okay (well a lot better than that) for STOMP. Lowpoint - I'm thinking now that I can't have a small debut either and it really sucks, especially since I'm going to some this year. Regardless of the stupid money and guests issue, I just don't have enough friends for the roses and candles and shit. I want my closer friends to do it, I'm not really for just inviting people I'm probably not going to remember.

16/03 Highlight - Coming home from Unity was nice. I walked to McDonalds and the sun and it being after 6 it was just nice. Lowpoint - We were doing house at Unity today. I don't know what it was I just wasn't getting it.

17/03 Highlight - I am getting back on my tumblr game, how did I give it up? Lowpoint - I didn't really end up doing anything productive.

18/03 Highlight - Finally got our yearbook advisor to send in what we needed for the last deadline, even though it's not all of them its better that I don't have to worry so much anymore. Lowpoint - I watched that movie "The First Time" and it made me cry at the end. It wasn't a sad ending or anything, it just made me feel lonely

19/03 Highlight - I got to sleep for three hours. Lowpoint - I saw a post on tumblr at 6am and started crying becuase I understood why I cried the day before.

20/03 Highlight - Venuya and I made oatmeal chocolate chip cookies. They were great. Lowpoint - My mom forgot I came home so she called me and yelled at me for staying at Venuya's so late. So basically she forgot she even saw me come in.

21/03 Highlight - Dance was refreshing.   Lowpoint - I went all over town and I found one lovely dress that's over budget.

22/03 Highlight - I'm less worried about the audition, we're getting really good Lowpoint - The Walking Dead Game episodes are done and season 2 comes out in fall )':

23/03 Highlight - The whole day was pretty good. I guess the party was the best part I had a lot of fun just talking to Adrian Lowpoint - We didn't do as well in the audition as we did in practice, yet they still may put us in advanced.

24/03 Highlight - I got to go around downtown by myself it was pretty chill Lowpoint - I keep finding great dresses with like one flaw. This time the dress was white, can't wear a wedding dress to prom -.-

25/03 Highlight - I stayed back with Venuya afterschool and while Mr. Welsh was talking for 45 minutes I got good ideas for my essay Lowpoint - I didn't finish the essay

26/03 Highlight - Disconnected dropped and I liked it a lot Lowpoint - I didn't finish my essay. Still.

27/03 Highlight - Me, Venuya, Kavishka and Anthony hung out for a bit afterschool again. It was pretty cool Lowpoint - I had to slave over that essay to finish it

28/03 Highlight - The essay due date got extended Lowpoint - I stained my lips with a lip stain from Urban Decay and it REALLY stained the drier parts of my lips. It was darker and it looked bad so I tried wiping it off and it didn't come off so I sort of covered it with a lipstick after a lot of scrubbing and bleeding.

29/03 Highlight - I didn't do anything Lowpoint - I didn't do anything. 

30/03 Highlight - I watched a movie called Keith. I think it might be my new favorite movie. Lowpoint - Alcohol and I are no longer friends. Well at least vodka and I.