i have goooot to remind myself that just because i haven't put a trowel in the ground i'm not as behind my peers in terms of my career as i've convinced myself i am. i have post-season experience. i've developed skills and research interests. i have professional references. literally nobody in my department ever looked down on me for not going to field school yet. it's literally fine i am as always my own worst critic. i WILL get to grad school.











