the monastery's grass bends as berlin sits next to her, lips touching briefly the skin of her shoulder in a kiss before he asks β how long do you plan on ignoring me because i haven't told you i survived? β
βakina has a weird way of grieving , a different technique that allowed her grief to stretch for years because she never let it out fully . ever since andrΓ©s died , there was a growing hold of void in her chest and it was hidden so well that nobody believed they were having an affair before he died β she even greeted him the same when he came to the monastery this morning .
βbut feeling the grass shift beside her , feeling his presence before he even kisses her shoulder , akina doesn't want to think about anything but him . him , his familiarity , his playful quips as if nothing had happened . as if she's not spent the last few months doing the most stupid things because she couldn't recognize her grief . in fact , she was avoiding him because facing him completely scared akina . it wasn't even something as dramatic as this , she could swallow the humiliation and eventually let him come closer to the erupting volcano of her rage β if he can .ββ i'm not giving you silent treatment . ββ she lies , toys with a strand of thin grass between her fingers as she stares at the old building , a new place to plan a new heist . eventually , she looks back at him , catches his stare with a small smile . he hasn't changed , he's probably still ill , and he looks as handsome as ever .ββ . . . you'd come to me if you missed me . right ? ββhe probably would , there's only one option left and akina simply doesn't want to think about it . long fingers tuck black strands behind her ear , before she looks away from him again .ββ i'm not mad . we didn't have anything serious . β