The Last Soft Thing in Basgiath
Summary: After Rider Survival Course floods the infirmary with injured cadets, the Marked Ones are left on your floor with orders to ignore them. You refuse, stitching Xaden Riorson and his wing back together while exhaustion slowly catches up with you. As fever dreams drag him through memories he canât escape, your voice becomes the only thing grounding him in reality. When he finally wakes, he realizes you never leftâeven when everyone else did.
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PART TWELVE
XADEN
The next afternoon, the gym is packed. There are four more sparring rings than usual and two times the cadets.
The healers are observing drills.
I could say that I hardly noticed her; but that would be a lie. She is a bright blue beacon in a sea of black riding leathers. Sheâs perched on a stool on the opposite end of the mat, sleeves pushed up to her elbows as she takes notes in the book on her lap.
âRiorson and Talbot!â Professor Emetterio reads from his clipboard. âOn the mat!â
Iâm stepping onto the cool plastic when a brown braid shifts in the corner of my eye and sunlight catches the hair.
Emetterio is talking, but about what, I could not tell you. All I can hear is the soft laughter that floats across the gym.
My chest feels tight and my jaw clenches on its own.
She has stopped writing, instead of visibly listening to the Rider who is standing next to her as he speaks. I recognize him vaguely as one of the cadets who had sent her rushing out of the dining hall.
His lips tilt up in the corners, and he tilts his head to her ear to say something.
When she laughs this time, itâs softer. It sounds closer to a shift than a laugh.
It isnât the laugh that she uses at mealtimes with Garrick.
Itâs forced. Fake.
Focus, Sgaeyl grumbles in my head.
I have to drag my eyes off the spectacle to the cadet in front of me, just in time to shift my weight back slightly to avoid a bow staff coming toward my ribs.
âEyes up, Riorson!â Garrick calls from my left.
I shake my head, trying to clear my thoughts. As we circle around the ring, my gaze flicks back to Y/N. The cadet is leaning into her space and heâs still speaking low next to her ear; but her eyes are fixed on the mat.
The wooden pole flies up to connect with my face, but I dodge once again. I try to relax my shoulders, bringing my hands up in front of my face.
Sheâs smiles again.
Shadow Wielder.
Too late.
I donât even see the staff swing; I just feel its impact when pain explodes across my skull. Iâm still watching her when my vision blurs and stars float int front of me. I have to push back the instinct to raise my hand to the blow. I could feel blood already beginning to drip from my hairline.
âFuck.â Garrick breathes.Â
I shoot him a glare. The rider in front of me smirks, raising his weapon once again. Blood drips down the side of my face, my brain is already throbbing in my skull.
Warm liquid escapes from my hairline, sliding down my neck and disappearing into the collar of my top. I donât even bother wiping the blood clean.
I shake my head, trying to bring my attention back. The other cadet, Talbot, is bouncing between his feet.
We circle again.
I dodge a few well-placed blows to my torso and land a few on him. There is a thin sheet of sweat that makes my shirt stick to my chest; it rises and falls with my heavy breathing. Iâm about to aim a hit to Talbotâs face.
Then Y/N laughs again and my attention flickers once again.
I feel Sgaeyl huff through the bond right before the staff cracks across my ribs. White hot pain spreads across my ribcage. Although Iâd been mended weeks ago, the ache of shattered ribs had lingered, and I canât stop the grunt of pain that slips out.
It takes everything I have to not double over to protect my midsection.
Focus. Focus. Focus.
âReady to tap out, Riorson?â My opponent taunts.
I roll my shoulders, straightening up and leveling a glare at him. I pretend that I donât see a flash of blue in the corner of my eye.
That I donât notice the way she has stopped laughing.
That her notebook is now closed in her lap, and despite that the cadet next to her continues to talk; she is no longer leaned to listen.
Green eyes are wide as she watches the match; if I didnât know any better, I would think that sheâs worried.Â
I donât entertain my opponentâs banter, and I throw my own right hook. My fist connects with the top of his cheek bone.Â
We continue to exchange blows. He dodges an elbow and I sidestep his staff. I start to think that Iâve gotten my focus back.
That is until I catch a glimpse of Y/N standing up in her chair. The cadet next to her has a hand hovering at her waist and sheâs shaking her head no. He doesnât seem to care because he reaches out to grasp the exposed skin of her wrist and pulls her to him.
I see red.
Then, I see white.
The blunt end of the bo staff slams into fragile cartilage and the sound of my nose breaking rings in my ears.
My knees buckle and suddenly Iâm staring at the ceiling. Iâm still blinking dots out of my vision when the end of the weapon is shoved under my chin.
âAlright,â Professor Emetterio sighs. âThatâs enough.â
I close my eyes for a moment trying to stop the spinning of the room. When I open them, Garrick is above me with a hand reached out to help me up,
âYou know, youâre allowed to talk to her,â Garrick sorts. âYou donât have get your ass kicked to get her attention.â
Emetterio pinched the bridge of his nose, shaking his head and sighing. He waves a hand in my direction,
âGet off my mat before you bleed all over it, Riorson.â
Garrick grasps my elbow, pulling me up right and then to my feet. I sway for a moment, more disoriented than I would like to admit. I can already feel as the skin stretched across the bridge of my nose begins to swell. Blood runs over my lips and down my neck.
My ribs ache as I gingerly make my way to an empty stool a few feet away.
âCâmon, Xaden.â Garrick nudges me. âLetâs get you looked at.â
I grunt, wiping blood from my face and making a point to spit the red liquid that pooled in the back of my throat to the floor below me, âIâm fine.â
âYouâre not, letâs go.â
He all but drags me to the opposite side of the mat where the healers are gathered.Â
Professor Krell levels a stare at me as we stop in front of him. The expression on his face swirls with annoyance and disgust. His eyes look me up and down before he points to a folding exam table a few feet away.
âY/L/N!â He calls.
Y/N materializes next to Garrick, eyes shining with concern. Her eyes flicker between me and the professor. But he doesnât spare us a second look. He just turns slightly to the cadet taking notes next to him,
âCadet Y/L/N can take care of him.â He says nonchalantly. âSheâs made it clear sheâs willing to dirty herself with the Marked Cadets.â
The cadets around us snicker and I can feel Garrickâs posture go rigid.
Y/N doesnât laugh. She places a soft hand on Garrickâs arm and leads us to the exam table.
Then, Iâm sat on top of the plastic folding table with my gaze fixed on the floor beneath my feet. A few droplets of blood make their way from my nose to the stone below me, and I briefly wonder who had to clean that up.
Y/N had stepped away to collect supplies, and she was now making her way back. She stops in front of me, dropping the gauze on the table next to me and crossing her arms.
Part of me thinks she might just leave the bandages here and make me take care of it myself.
I probably deserve that.
I know she wonât though.
For a few moments, she doesnât speak. She just looks at me.
Sheâs not angry, but itâs not a soft look either. I can practically see the wheels turning in her head as she takes me in.
She sighs, âYou look like shit.â
My nose throbs more when I lift my gaze to meet her eyes.
âThank you.â
She takes a step forward so that sheâs standing between my knees and reaches out a gentle hand to lift my chin, âYouâre still bleeding.â
The corners of my lips twitch, threatening to curl up into a smile, âI am aware.â
She shifts the light grip on my chin to turn my head. The other hand comes up, moving hair to get a better look at the slowly weeping wound. Y/N sighs, reaching to my left to pick up a roll of gauze.
Iâm painfully aware of how close she is to me. The gym is loud around us, cadets continuing to spar, but the air between us feels quiet.
She hums softly, dabbing carefully at the cut near my hairline. She exhales,
âYou shouldnât have let him hit you so many times,â she huffs.
I breathe out a laugh, âLet him?â
She drops the dirty gauze to the other side of the exam table, her lips pressed together to stifle a smile. I watch quietly as she continues to work, gently covering the wound with some type of healing balm.
âWell, at least you donât need sutures.â She muses.
Then, sheâs looking at the bridge of my nose wearily. Iâm sure itâs bent grossly out of shape; sheâs going to need to set it. She seems to think the same thing. Her thumbs press gently along both sides of the bridge of my nose.
White hot pain spreads across my face.
âWaitâ â
She doesnât.
She applies pressure, and a sharp crack echoes through my skull. My vision blanks out for a moment, and I canât form a thought.
âFuck!â
More blood pours from my nose, and she pushes a piece of gauze up under it so that it doesnât stain my chin.
âHold this.â Y/N watches as I blink black dots from my vision. âYour eyes are watering.â
âI got hit in the face with a staff.â I shot back.
She hums as she reaches for clean gauze, wiping blood from under my nose.
Then, sheâs moving away from my broken nose and down to my sore ribs. She hesitates, her hands hovering near tender skin. She drags her bottom lip between her teeth as she presses gently along my ribs.
Thereâs a sharp twinge of pain, like someone shoved a hot knife between them. I suck in a sharp breath, but Iâm able to stop myself from wincing.
âThere it is,â she says, dropping her hands and reaching over to get another tin.
âThatâs old.â I mutter. âThey were worse before.â
âI know, I remember what they looked like when it happened.â Her eyes glaze over for a moment as she says it as if it were an unpleasant memory.Â
The balm in this one is dark yellow, and it smells like herbs. She doesnât ask before slipping cold fingers under the hem of my shirt, gently rubbing the cool mixture against the heat of sore ribs.
âTheyâre still tender.â
I have to unclench my jaw to reply, âOccupational hazard.â
Her hand had been making small circles over my side, but now theyâre still and she leans back to look at me for a long moment.
âYou know, you didnât have to get beat up just to prove a point.â She says softly.
I stare at her blankly for a moment, âI wasnât proving a point.â
Y/Nâs eyebrows raise and she makes a face, âReally? Then what was that?â
I meet her gaze but donât speak. The honest answer is worse than the one she came up with.
She isnât going to drop it though,
âYou were staring.â She says, green eyes study my face, lingering on the bridge of my nose for an extra moment. I shift my weight, and the movement sends a pang of pain through my torso.
She notices and her eyes soften. She doesnât meet my gaze when she speaks, âYou donât have to worry about me.â
Sgaeyl snorts in my head, do not let the poor girl feel guilty for your inability to control your jealousy.
âI wasnât worried.â
Y/N looks like she doesnât believe me, but she doesnât argue.
There is a long pause; silence fills the space between us. Her eyes donât hold any heat as she studies me.
Finally, Y/N sighs and takes a half step forward. Sheâs so close that the blue fabric of her uniform brushes against the black leather on my thighs.
âYou waited.â
I look at her confused, âWhat?â
âIn the hallway that day.â She sighs. âYou waited until they were actually going to hurt me to step in.â
My stomach tightens and there is an apology at the tip of my tongue; but she continues without waiting for an answer.
âYou trusted me to handle it.â She pauses, dropping her eyes down to face the floor. âI didnât handle it.â
Itâs a quiet admission. Shame heats her cheeks until theyâre flushed pink.
âIâm good at avoiding things,â she continues. âThinking three steps ahead so I donât end up in situations like that in the first place. Then, when it happens⌠I just⌠freeze.â
I blink at her.
She doesnât meet my gaze. Instead, letting out a small, empty laugh,
âYou had to step in and save me like some sort of damsel. And⌠and I was embarrassed. Not angry.â Y/N sucks in a deep breath, then lets it out through her nose. âThen you started following me around everywhere and it felt like⌠like I was a burden. A responsibility you felt like you had to take care of because I helped you in the infirmary.â
I open my mouth to speak but shut it quickly when I see that sheâs not done yet.
âAnd then, in the courtyard that day, I realized that Iâve never actually shown you that I can handle myself⌠So, I canât really blame you for thinking I couldnât.â
I blink again.
For a long beat, I just stare at her.
Iâm trying to digest everything she just said.
Honesty. Vulnerability.
My jaw clenched, and my chest ached.
She is apologizing to me?
âYouâre not a burden.â The statement comes out sharp. Short and definite. Y/N looks up at me, startled by tone.
But I need her to know that my words arenât sympathy. That what Iâm about to say isnât just to appease her.
Despite the ache that flares in my ribs, I shift forward.
âI wasnât trying to protect you because I thought you were incapable,â I say quietly.
She frowns at me, but she lets me keep going.
âI did it because I couldnât stand the thought of watching you get hurt again."
Silence stretches between us. The noise of the gym becomes muffled as green irises search mine.
I can practically see the gears turning in her head as she tries to decide if Iâm being genuine. A few more quiet moments pass between us before I clear my throat, the awkwardness threatening to swallow me.
I look away first.
âDonât make it a thing,â I breathe, rubbing a hand across the back of my neck.
Despite herself, the corners of her lips twitch up into an amused smile, âYouâre the one who said it.â
I grunt, looking anywhere but her face.
Remarkable, Sgaeyl huffs. You are both equally determined to avoid the obvious.
Before I can respond to Sgaeyl or Y/N, a shadow falls over us.Â
Y/N feels it too.
âWell,â a voice says, cold amusement in its tone. âguess I shouldâve gotten my ass handed to me too.â
Her shoulders straighten and I can swear she unconsciously shifts closer to me.
The moment is gone as quickly as it came.
I look past her. The cadet, the one who had been chatting her up next to the sparing mat, stands behind her. Heâs leaning on a support beam near the exam table, arms crossed across his chest as he takes us in.
His eyes flick from her to me and then to where she stands between my legs.
Finally, he brings his gaze back up to y/n. His brows furrow and he scoffs. Y/n pushes a strand of hair behind her ear,
âIf you need assistance, then sit, Caden.â She says softly.
Caden makes no attempt to move to the bench.
âBut, when I asked if you wanted to have a meal together last week you happened to be too busy.â
Y/Nâs cheeks flush pink, âI am busy.â
âSo, youâll make time to helpâno to stoop to touching himââ He jerks his chin to the relic on my arm. âBut, youâre too good to carve out a few moments with me?â
She opens her mouth to reply just as he pushes off the beam to take a step toward us. Y/Nâs mouth snaps shut, and he copies his movement, taking her own step back until her back is so close to my chest that I can smell her shampoo.
âBut I guess that makes sense if youâre Riorsonâs new pet.â
Thatâs enough of that.
Despite the ache that swallows my chest when I move, I slide of the side of the table. I pause for a moment, meeting her gaze.
Asking for permission.
âWatch out for your ribs.â She mutters.
Permission granted.
âCareful.â I warn. Any softness that I had held during our previous conversation has disappeared.
Caden smirks at me, giving me a long up and down before his smirk turns into a sneer, âWhy would I do that?â
âBecause I just lost my first match in two years. I wouldnât bet on me losing another.â
The color in his face drains for a moment, before he can hide it.
âI just got hit in the head.â I level a glare at the cadet in front of me.
âAnd Iâm in a very bad mood.â

















