#head convos

Idk. Weird.

I've been taking this flu medication for 3 days now, and after surviving 3 days of sweating buckets (and counting) just to relieve the fever, I am now starting this blog. Also, does taking flu meds to cure legit flu really increase sweat? Or it depends on the drug? Or maybe... I just forgot how flu and meds feel since it's been a while since I got it.. idk anymore... x.x

Me: I feel like I really fucked things up with you at the beginning of the year. And we don't act like friends, not like we do with the other rugby girls. We're cold towards each other. I'm scared to say the wrong thing most of the time and never get to talk to you again. I mean, I don't like you like that anymore and I get why things blew up the way they did, but I didn't when I was doing them. And I'm really sorry. God this is hard... I've never tried to chase down a friendship before. I've never had to, but I want you around in my life. You're a great person and you make me laugh, I need that sometimes. And you're the most honest with me, you're okay with turning around and telling me what I did was really stupid and sometimes I need to be told that... I dunno just, I wanted to put everything on the table... Goodnight