#haterid

trishater - where someone is both cishater and transhater.

cishater - where someone is a cishater in someway.

conhater - where someone is a hater in a consensual or conharmful / conhateful way.

permahater - where someone is hater in a permanent or perpetual way.

I wrote the following to one of my YouTube followers when he was wondering why I was a girl now.

Hi Luke, I was cracking up laughing when I read your comment. It seems that a great number of my followers haven’t seen my videos for awhile. You aren’t the first one to scratch their head and say “WTF? Why do you Look like a girl?”

Since I was a child I knew I wasn’t happy in my own skin. I had this strange and strong desire to be a female. It wasn’t a feeling I could change or control. I finally discovered that I am transgender back in April 2014. There is no way to change the brain so my only option is to change my body. It involves taking hormones and testosterone blockers that will slowly cause new cell production to form the same way a biological female’s would. Yes my body doesn’t produce estrogen but it is running on it and I can’t believe how much has changed in such short time.

The video didn’t do me justice, I have a very feminine body. With curves and very smooth skin. I have breasts that hurt like a bitch some days.

Many people don’t like me now since coming out. That’s their issue to work out. But I suffered for over 20 years and couldn’t get help until now. I don’t want to be transgender, I just am with no choice in the matter. Some say that I chose to come out and transition, however my choice was to try to live in constant agony and depression or seek happiness to survive and try to live a happy life. It makes me mad that doing girly things makes me happy. I just wish I was normal.

This is a damned if you do and damned if you don’t situation. I lose no matter what I do. If only the world would just try to understand that this is a birth defect and that we can’t help being who we are. We’re born this way, just start accepting it and treat us with respect. Trust us if we could change ourselves to stop being transgender 99% of us would do it. This is mostly because of the inhumane treatment we face from the general public.