( to clarity I don't actually mean higgs IRL people say they want I mean someone like him with his same issues and mental health ). I made a post about this a couple of months ago as it pissed me off so much people faking they would give a shit about someone like higgs IRL...as someone who has been abused my entire life and has severe mental health as well as tattoos (Black teardrops ) on my face and a gothic/techwear dress sense ( basically not the social normality in any way and pushes you out of ya dainty little comfort zone....I am treated still and for the last 33 years like a piece of shit that doesn't deserve to breath the oxygen of this fucking planet..certainly not a homo erotic sex symbol that you would ( baby and care for or wish to get pregnant and all that bullshit🤣 )...more like something not even worth giving the time to because it would push you out of your comfort zone to respect me or may i say..speak to like I'm alive...and believe me if gas chambers where not illegal nowadays I would be thrown in it along with anyone else not fitting the social norm and snuffed from existence...on another note I'm not highly attractive and ( hot ) like higgs ( although I have tattoos and long hair and am a goth so ( white face black lipstick, eyeliner ect ( yes I'm a man who wears makeup boo hoo )..and selfishly of others I bet if was on the hot scale my abuse, mental health and behaviours would suddenly be acceptable and I would get fuckers wanting to help me and love me and shit..so very typically human .....I have so much understanding of higgs because I feel I am him..apart from the murdering stuff ( as it's illegal 😂🤫 ) I have never seen a character in anything more like me in my life...and I actually would like him to be real because I want to connect with him so badly..not baby him like every idiot says....but give him someone who understands him finally and for me to also have someone on the same level that understands me as well..someone he doesn't need to wear a mask with...and he's fucking desperate for it but knows he will never receive it.....but someone like higgs ( like me ) IRL absolutely no one gives a shit about us...and no one will give someone like higgs the time of day IRL..we are to much effort for someone to bother putting anything into to see the other side of us...they just want to judge what they see.. compeatley blow off what trauma, abuse, mental health or how they have been treated their entire life that's turned them into what they are saying is a bad guy ( monster ) but those kinda of People when given a shit about..have so much care and loyalty within them when given a chance..but that's the thing...we ain't worth being given a chance..so we never know what being cared about/loved even feels like..so we can't give it back..so our behaviours reflect the only thing we have experienced and know ... HATE
