#hardbittten

What is the biggest headcanon deviation from the canon material that you have incorporated into the way you write your muse? Why did you come up with it?

it’s not a Big Deviation From Canon in that it’s really just ….. choosing to actually deal with canon instead of just ignoring it and hoping it goes away (the walker way) but from the vague but undeniable reality that a ct scan of trish’s brain would look not unlike some discounted fruit due to:

the fact that she has flatlined AT LEAST once 

repeatedly being strangled by her mother 

possible side effects from long term drug use 

i write her with some speech tics accordingly, and keep in mind her physical needs (trauma triggers being most Glaringly Obvious there – stop re-traumatizing her, Keep Your Hands Probably Even Also Your Mouth Off Her NEck God – but also stuff like being prone to headaches, her chronic impulsiveness, certain issues re: apathy, etc.). people don’t … seem to get how easy it is for a lot of us brain-damaged folk to be Normal-Passing so i’m here to make everyone uncomfortable, basically. but i do think it just makes the most sense with her like … active personality vs. her inherent nature, and so on.  [taps mic] RESPONSIBLE STORYTELLING

it’s also like … i’ve always thought of patsy as having been selectively mute as a kid, yeah? she was a late talker (no major trauma as a toddler she just, wasn’t really, talked to as often as talked at; when she started she was like, full sentences, ready to go) and has only ever really been comfortable / in her element in professional settings … 

[gazes longingly at “the sandwich saved me”] with one exception

… with very defined roles (another thing i am very conscious of when i write her, sorry to everyone) and therefore clear expectations? if trish feels she knows what she’s “supposed to be” doing, she’s golden, but if she starts feeling  incompetent … she will still like. prefer not to interact with the situation. she’s trying to do better, though; which is to say, i’m making her try, and she hates me for it, but ultimately will be happier. or at least more well-adjusted.

Do you have any controversial headcanons that go against what is generally accepted by the fandom? Do you incorporate this into writing your muse or keep it to yourself?

well, all of THat, and i … never shut up, so, i think it’s safe to say nothing i’ve fleshed out is a secret? like, there are certain things i’m more inclined to just talk to you about / whoever they’re directly relevant to because i know you can’t always. trust the internet. there’s a lot of things i will probably never make outright individual posts about but i’m pretty open, so. that said. here’s some unpopular opinions, flashcard edition:

heart eyes over luke cage don’t mean you like men, they mean you have eyes

wrong all the time except probably like politically and even then y’all know she was all about clinton ‘16 way faster than she had to be

jessica doesn’t owe her anything, which usually SHE understands (though yeah, she has her moments, she has been Spoiled Rotten since she was fourteen, it’s a process) but her fandom … usually … does not … closes my eyes like a corpse

btw like. i know you know this, but. they’re exes. they’re best friends. yes, it’s complicated. yes, they mean something to each other that no one else can touch and yes! sometimes that gets a little weird! but they’re really pretty chill with it. there are very few things in this world that trish is chill about but that’s one of them. she can be kind of clingy but it’s the trauma, not pining. their sexual relationship is off in the corner with a “maybe later” label on it and nobody’s in a rush? trish is just really jazzed to be around her, except when she’s not

SHE CANONICALLY ENJOYS RAW STEAK I DON’T KNOW WHY IT BUGS ME SO MUCH THAT EVERYONE IS ALL “TRISH WALKER: VEGAN” BECAUSE I KNOW, I KNOW, SHE FITS RIGHT IN, BUT SHE EATS, RAW, STEAK, AND FOR SOME REASON THEY WANTED ME TO KNOW THIS

she does not! drink! socially! thanks! she is, very canonically, a recovering addict! you cannot just throw this shit around like it doesn’t Mean Anything, Jessica Jones Writers and Fandom … if she’s drinking you need to address that this is not something she is capable of doing casually.

good with (sometimes even too tight with) money but often in weird ways. she didn’t always have it so her earliest memories were a very paycheck-to-paycheck at best kind of life? there are things – presentation, mostly – that she will Spend Plenty On because she thinks they are Very Very Important but she’s never thoughtless about it. 

“don’t… have… feelings, okay?”  - jessica jones to trish walker, but also trish walker to herself every morning while she does her makeup

kid fic stresses me out … not in general! i love kids and i love babies and if a character / pairing makes sense for that trope, i’ll be all over it but … Mom Trish … stresses … i’m not inherently against The Concept like, one day In The Future but you gotta handle that one very delicately because she is consumed with fear? all the time? that one morning she will wake up and be her mother, If She Isn’t Already? and it’s not like it isn’t navigable territory, i just have some questions,

self-defense is better than drugs but she’s doing it for the same reasons and that is still bad, Patricia, that is what we call a proxy addiction

she is so vengeful, as a side note. way more than … anyone else on the show who is not an outright villain. she is petty and she is cruel (If You Deserve It)

probably she is somewhere on the ace spectrum tbh which i know is Very Different from what, people go for, but the more i think about it the more i feel like she’s just as sexually active as she is because she’s kind of just. been conditioned to get her self-worth that way lol [they say, crying] LIKE i highly doubt trish has ever once actually, like, considered what she Might Want for herself and it’s, a scary thought trajectory because she’s still kind of. getting used to having choices to make. also she has no idea who she is, as both you and caryll so CRUELLY pointed out last night