#happynow

That’s for you.

You meant a lot to me, it just wasn’t right, i came at a point where I was just forcing myself to stay with you, even when you weren’t by my side anymore, or at least you didn’t show me enough you were. Or maybe you’ve never been by my side, you just wanted to feel loved, and trust me it was true love, yours wasn’t i can tell you, you preferred them to my trust and love, that’s enough.

We came to that point where everything could only break and it couldn’t heal anymore, that’s for real, I gave you my soul, you gave me your fake words, now you’re repented, now you keep saying you love me when it’s just too late. To me, everything you say is just a bunch of excuses to make me stay, cause c’mon be honest, you loved my kindness, my being in love with you and being desired that much that you forgot to show me what I meant to you, blinded by your own ego. You were only afraid to be alone, and I didn’t notice that in the beginning, but you did this to yourself, and you won’t change, it’s an habit for you by now. I was blinded by feelings, and I put myself aside to help you, but you didn’t need help, you needed company, that’s what it was to you.

I like to think that if I noticed before your behavior, maybe I would have followed the reason, not my feelings, I don’t care anymore now, everything’s gone and I’m so happy.

You will be an important person to me forever, that’s true, but you are important to me on the same level you’ve been toxic to me. You suffocated my true self, and I helped you doing it accidentally, I’ve been your partner in crime.

I’m over it, and now I know what I don’t want anymore, I need to be myself and spread all the energy I have, and I wanna make people laugh, and make them happy and wanna do my best for the people I love, like I did with you, but I wanna be the better version of me.

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