#happy posts

So here it is, I just wanted to wish you an absolutely awesome day. You’ve been doing so much for our tight knit fandom for what feels like forever, and it really shows. You’re honestly legendary, and I hope you know how much you’ve shaped things and inspired people along the way. You deserve to feel incredibly proud of everything you’ve done. xoxo barachiki

I LICHERALLY had a double take to see who sent this.

Barachiki. This is such high praise from someone I consider a legendary staple of the fandom themselves, from someone I genuinely admire and am intimidated by. I literally cried when I saw this come into my inbox a few days ago, and again now as I am replying to this.

I often don't FEEL like that I'm really doing much around here, I just... "do my thing" and carry on, but lately all these amazingly kind messages coming from everyone is really overwhelming for me (in a GOOD WAY!!!! I PROMISE) and messages like this are what keep me going here. I love this fandom so MUCH, and while I'm not as deep into it as I once was, I can honestly say I stay because I feel like I am loved and appreciated here.

I love reccing fics. I love writing meta. I love drawing. I love making people feel welcome in a fandom that can be overwhelming for new people. It's a weird thing to "be", I know, but there we are.

Seriously though, your message is OUTRAGEOUSLY kind and generous, and I am so overwhelmed with love and happiness. Thank you, Bara, for taking time out of your day to exposit appreciation for my blog and taking notice of my little corner over here. I genuinely didn't think I was on the radar of people who are bigger staples in this fandom than I am, and this makes me all fluffy inside.

That all said, I will take this opportunity to thank YOU for all your amazing gifs and graphical contributions to this fandom!! It's awe-inspiring, and as a professional graphic designer as a day job myself, the TIME it must take to do what you do is not lost on me. I love your work. Thank YOU for being here forever giving us the best silly graphics for us to use as memes <3

ZCLKHLKXHCKLZHXCLIHZCLKH NONNY OMG. I ADORE THIS SCENE SO MUCH!!!!! Honestly, I LOVE S2 because they're SOOOOOO SOO precious the two of them!!!!

One of my fave scenes is the one at the pub where they sound JUST like Michael and David arguing about Jane Austen, LOL. OOOO and the ADORABLE little squeal of delight from Angel Crowley in the beginning. GOSH!!! Honestly S2 is SO full of adorable scenes!!! AHHH Nonny!!!

BUT ANYWAY WE'RE SUPPOSED TO BE TALKING ABOUT AZZIE!!! He is SOOO cute in S2! I LOVE THIS ONE HERE:

LIKE AZZIE YOU'RE SO SILLY AND PRECIOUS AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!! AHHHH. This whole scene is so SO funny because you KNOW Crowley will give in because WHO CAN SAY NO TO THAT FACE?? Hee hee. He's such a little bastard because I do think he knows he has Crowley wrapped around his pinky and will inevitably get his way (we're gonna, for argument's sake, ignore the final 15, that's a whole other can of worms in my brain)

Ugh, I love Azzie and his little autistic-coded self. I relate so hard to him, good lord.

OH! And this one too!!

He's SO SILLY. I love him.

ANYWAY I'll be here forever, because I adore Azzie so much and I could probably give you like 50 more scenes in S2 where Azzie is just being so precious. I've been rewatching the entire Season 2 (and realized I actually love it A LOT more than S1, unpopular opinion, I know) and I've just been rewatching all my fave scenes <3

hands u. hap birth !

(from funishment-time)

Today marked a new chapter in my life. It changed what I was used to for the unknown. Throwing me back into the world like a new born, helpless and alone. And yet I smile knowing deep down this held an exciting aura to it.

Today left a sour taste on my tongue. All the words unsaid feeling like acid burning away the flesh. All the people I'll miss and the place I once called home. Yet, these new memroies waiting to be made invade my senses like the sweet smell of honey.

Today is a sad day. As I leave my past in changed for my future. But today is also a happy day. As I leave all the bad for the better.

Today is so bittersweet. Something I've longed for, but also hoped would never come.

A bittersweet will stay today, for the rest of my life.