#halsteadsiblings

Y/N Halstead has been pushing herself to the breaking point, eventually, she can't do it anymore. Will her brothers be able to help her rebuild and teach her it's ok to not be, ok?

Trigger Warnings: Panic attack, fainting, blood, self-injury (minor), anxiety, emotional distress, dissociation.

Having a doctor as your brother was hard but having a doctor AND a detective as a brother was even more difficult.

Will was always fretting about you whenever you had a temperature or if you had a cold and if you came home from college upset Jay would immediately be there to bombard you with "did someone hurt you?" "What happened?" "Y/n please talk to me." However doubling that with both Will and Jay being concerned about you was one hell of a show. They sometimes overreacted but they were your brothers so of course they would overreact... they just wanted you to be okay.

Lately days had been mashing together, making you forget your days the days simply turning into nothing. You had a lot on your shoulders with college, work and other life things and it was starting to take a toll on you however you took in the halstead "stubborn" gene and wouldn't admit it and so here you were sitting near the table studying your ass off for your assignment "Hey kiddo you're up early," Jay spoke his hand gently resting upon your head as he ruffled your hair ever so slightly "yeah couldn't sleep so I decided to do some work... you know..." you murmured not really looking at him as he hummed nodding his head "right yeah. Well I'm proud of you for getting on with it. It'll all pay off in the end." He assured noticing the slight concern in your tone. "Anyways, have you eaten?" He asked and you shook your head "alright I'll make some breakfast for you." He spoke with a small smile.

Jay had left a while after making you your breakfast and Will was still in med, he definitely overworked himself- hell both your brothers did but they were hard workers and again you followed suit with that working incredibly hard and sometimes pushing yourself harder than needs be.

As the day went on you got through five coffees and as you got up to go make your sixth thats when it hit you like a truck, the dizziness the fatigue. All of it made you feel ill- sick to the stomach your eyes landing on the work in front of you all the paper scattered all over the table adding as a tough reminder that you hadn't even done half of it yet and that's when the panic set in, your breathing growing heavier your hands getting clammy and you prayed that it was simply a cold setting in but that was ruled down as your symptoms were soon followed by your lungs betraying you, your airway closing up as panic began to form within you your hands beginning to tremble and as you attempted to pat down on the table for your phone you heard it ping in the kitchen, your stomach dropping and you attempted to stand to get your phone but your legs weakened as you fell to the ground your chest hurting as panic mode truly set it, grasping at your chest as you began to gasp for breath and you soon realised that this was no cold... no... this was a panic attack.

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Will was exhausted from his shift to say the least, but it was simply another day in the office. He liked to say that to remind himself to separate his work life from his personal life as sometimes working as a doctor did affect you. It was harsh sometimes but it was also rewarding. And as he made his way to jays apartment he simply expected to be able to chill and relax however as he unlocked the door he heard soft cries and heavy wheezes and he automatically became concerned his only thought being you.

"Y/n? Hey you in here?" He called placing his medical bag down onto the floor as he made his way into the kitchen seeing you on the floor grasping at anything you could, your face wet with tears and he immediately fell to his knees beside you "you alright? Hey it's okay... I'm here..." he gently rested his hand upon your shoulder rubbing up and down your back slowly and gently as he was immediately able to diagnose what you were going through your eldest brother going into immediate doctor mode "okay I need you to breathe with me... here hold my hands." He took your hands into his as he looked into your eyes "when I squeeze your hands I need you to breathe in... and when I don't squeeze breathe out." He said calmly and carefully before he squeezed your hands as you took a deep breath in holding your breath before he let go of your hands as you exhaled and he began doing exaggerated breaths to get you to follow him however it only worked for a couple of minutes and before you could even help it another wave of panic flooded over you.

"Will- wi- I cant... I cant put up with the pressure anymore what if- what if- what- I- fail- you and Jay- be disappointed-" you struggled to get out as pain formed in wills eyes and he shook his head "no we'll never be disappointed in you y/n... never..." he said worried about you as none of his attempts were helping you calm down you were working yourself up more and more to the point you could easily pass out "I- but- I- I... Jay... please get Jay... I- need-... both of you..." you stuttered out and without even hesitating Will was calling Jay not giving Jay a second to talk as Will was quick to explain what was going on "y/n cant calm down she won't. I've tried everything. Get here asap." He spoke before hanging up immediately pulling you close to him once again "jays coming... he's on his way."

Jay immediately burst through the door his eyes filled with worry "Jay we're in here! Grab my medical bag would you!" Will called and Jay was quick to grab the bag before rushing to you and will and as he saw the state you were in his eyes filled with even more concern "oh y/n," he murmured as he immediately held your hands in his "I can't bre- I cant-" you wheezed out terrified "Jay keep her distracted." Will said as Jay nodded "okay hey tell me four things you can see..." he said as you gazed into his eyes "you... will... your eyes... will's med bag." You said and Jay smiled nodding "good good. What do my eyes remind you of?" He asked as Will silently prepped a nebuliser for you "the sea... uh... the blue dog that I painted you when I was five." You said and Jay smiled letting out a soft laugh "that's right. What was that dog paintings name hm? I swear it was something like mr waffles..." he said your eyes lighting up at the memory as you smiled "yes! Mr waffles-" you cut yourself off as you began to cough just in time for Will to place the nebuliser over your mouth resting his hand on your shoulder "just breathe. You'll feel better soon." He assured with a soft smile "Jay keep an eye on her whilst I get her some water." And Jay nodded "will can I get some Pepsi?" You asked and he looked at you a disapproving look on his face before he smiled "sure, but just because you aren't doing too good." He said smiling as he simply wanted you to be okay and happy.

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Later on that evening everything was much more calmer and you had managed to relax and get a decent amount of sleep however you couldn't sleep anymore so you decided to watch a movie and halfway through it the lights flicked on as jay stood silently in front of you "cant sleep either?" You asked and he shook his head "nope. Came here to also check you were okay." He murmured sitting down beside you as you looked at him "oh don't go into detective mode jay I'm fine." You said with a soft laugh and he smiled "I'm just making sure you're okay. But... what caused that panic attack?" He asked concerned and you sighed softly debating on whether to tell him before you let out a little sigh knowing you weren't going to get out of it, you'd have to tell him sooner or later "I haven't been sleeping properly and I just overloaded myself with work I guess and I just didn't want to be a burden as you and will have enough on your plates as it is." You admitted and he frowned "y/n, you're our sister. It doesn't matter how much or little we have on our plates you're always going to be our priority. Always." He said lightly stroking a hand over your hair, something he had always done since you were little as it was something your mother did to relax you and he inherited that act to help you during tough times.

You leaned into him as you let out a little sigh "thanks jay." You whispered and he smiled "no problem now how about you try to go back to sleep and tomorrow you, me and Will can help you with your revising. Will purposely asked for the day off tomorrow so we could both help you." He said and you smiled slightly "that sounds like a good idea." You said nodding and he smiled "good. Now get some rest."

And as promised jay and will both worked with you to make sure you got your work completed without any stress and making sure you took breaks whenever you needed, Will promising you a takeaway afterwards to get you through the difficulty of everything and as you came out the other side of things you realised that having your two older brothers as a team really did pay off.

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Characters: y/n halstead, Jay halstead, Will halstead

Y/n's age: 10

The music of home alone played quietly in the background, Jay and Will sat either side of a sleeping y/n as the movie slowly closed to an end the credits slowly rolling, the light from the credits illuminating the cookies and milk left on a tray on the table for Santa and Jay let out a soft sigh as he yawned as Will checked his watch "nearly 11:30, we should go to bed. Y/n sweetheart bed time." He spoke gently rubbing her shoulder however she didn't stir both brothers glancing at each other as they realised their little sister was asleep.

"I'll carry her to bed. You turn the tv off," Jay spoke softly before wrapping his arms around his sister and lifting her up as she stirred slightly in her sleep wrapping her arms around his neck as she let out muffled groans and Jay gently shushed her rubbing up and down her back before carrying her to her room "did Santa come yet?" Y/n questioned sleepily and Jay let out a soft chuckle "not yet. He's on his way though I'm sure." He reassured pressing a kiss to her temple before laying her down in bed and tucking her in as she immediately dozed off again and he lowered his lips down to her temple "love you kiddo, sleep tight." He spoke gently and lovingly before leaving the room and shutting the door quietly.

Y/n slept soundly however her sleep was soon disturbed as she heard quiet shouts almost like someone whispering but also shouting at the same time and so she clambered out of her bed grabbing her dressing gown from the back of the door wrapping it around her body before she made her way out quietly and carefully believing she had caught Santa clause and one of his fellow Elves as she paused near the doorway “stop eating the cookies will, we have to put the presents under the tree! C’mon…” “Jay shut up. Do you want our sister to be unhappy that “Santa” didn’t deliver her presents? No. I didn’t think so” she continued listening to their conversation watching as her brothers laid out presents under the tree, lots of presents at that and so she carefully made her appearance coughing slightly as the both of them froze looking at her “y/n?” They both simultaneously asked.

“Look um, we can explain…” Will started as Jay looked at him before looking back at her as he nodded his head “yeah right…” he said both brothers looking at each other in a worried way trying to communicate ideas telepathically but they weren’t magic. They were just idiotic brothers who had ruined Christmas for sure “we found these presents and decided to put them-“ however before Jay could continue y/n had cut him off “you’re Santa!” She exclaimed excitedly running up to her eldest brother wrapping her arms around his waist as Will looked down at her shocked before looking at Jay who began moving his hands around like a maniac and Will took that as a sign to go along with it as he smiled “I sure am kiddo,” he said with a warm smile lifting her up into his arms as she smiled excitedly “that’s so cool! My brothers Santa clause!” She exclaimed happily “yes I am. I didn’t want to tell you as it would ruin the surprise.” He spoke as Jay glared daggers into his brother but when you looked at him he’d smile to make sure you didn’t see his expression. “Can I open one now please please please!” Y/n begged and Jay quickly interjected wills words “of course. Here,” he smiled handing her the smallest present out of them all before grabbing onto wills hand and dragging him out of the room “you’ve just dug yourself a grave that you won’t and can’t get out of.” Jay said and will shrugged “she’ll forget it by morning.” He said with a smile but oh was he wrong… having both a doctor and detective as a brother meant y/n halstead shared both the smartness and she sure as hell didn’t forget what Will had said.

A few days after Christmas was finally the day y/n was back at school both Will and Jay going to pick up their sister as they continued to make bargains with each other about whether she’d remember that her eldest brother was indeed “Santa clause” Jay let out a laugh “okay fine if she forgets all about it and never ever mentions it again then I owe you $20. But if you’re wrong and I’m right… you owe me $100”

“$100?! Are you insane! That’s nothing close to $20.” Will complained and Jay smirked “better hope she doesn’t say anything then, huh.” He teased as they walked into the school grounds waiting in the cold for y/n, Will silently worrying that he was indeed incorrect about her. “See you tomorrow mrs davis!!” Y/n said excitedly as she smiled skipping up to her brothers “see you tomorrow y/n… make sure to tell your brother what I want for next Christmas.” She said obviously joking but y/n took it seriously as she smiled looking up at Will “mrs davis wants to be able to have a puppy by next Christmas! That’s her only wish! You can do that, right will?” She asked excitedly and Will closed his eyes gritting his teeth as Jay grinned holding his hand out as Will placed a $100 note in his hand before gently grabbing onto y/n’s hand “alright kid, I’ll keep that in mind. Now let’s go home.” He spoke both brothers sharing looks with one another knowing they’d have to tell you that Will wasn’t Santa but they weren’t that mean and cruel, they just wanted you to be happy and even if that meant keeping up the “Santa act” then will would even if Jay didn’t want that but they’d keep doing that until y/n was able to properly understand the reality of the situation.