☾ - DRABBLE. // @serastium
REGRET is bittersweet. Parched lips are cracked, tongue sticks to the top of her mouth and Bella is sure that her silence is due to how dry her mouth is. how dry her life is.
Hollow eyes speak of restless nights, any signs of adventure have surely diminished - everything about her existence betrays her. She’s empty - a mere shell of who she was, and what was worst was. . . todavía no había pasado . (it still hadn’t happened.) her body was reacting to the events about to unfold.
Does she know how lucky she is ? And even after spending months of anguish, Bella can’t find it in her heart to hate the girl. An empty smile appears - she’d tried it all. dios, (god) how she had tried it all. But fay loved tohru.
Even after deleting his memories of tohru, per his request, he was still in love with her. God, how was that even possible?! Her smile is plastered painfully as regret pours out of all senses.
She can’t do this any longer. She was depressed beyond comprehension. She could never have him.
The moon is full - it lights up the beach, magical rays dance gently around her. She buries her face into her arms, she wants to curl up - disappear, dissipate into nothing. Not even the magical waves calm her nerves.
The worst - lo peor - lo peor - is that she does not regret meeting him in Japan. She almost laughs at the memory of him finding out she was a witch. His cute expression as he stood in awe when she planted things with her wand. Being a muggle, he couldn’t visit her in Hogwarts but she took him to Diagon Alley.
Ay - fay. ¿Por que? ¿Por qué esta pasando esto ? (why is this happening?)
Heart leaps from her chest into her throat - his voice has the power to shake her very existence. Plastered smile turns genuine as he approaches her - life swells through her veins, as they act as a catalyst to snap her out of her dead senses.
“¡fay - llegaste! Te extrañe. (fay, You’ve arrived! I’ve missed you.)” not out of her character, the Hufflepuff wraps her arms around him into a warm hug - his familiar scent overtakes her.
He’s home. He’s home. He’s home.
Not even the ocean compares to this.
“ Ah - thank you for coming to visit me here, Mexico is my home, after all. You’re going back to Japan tomorrow. I wanted to make your last night special.”
He nods, his gaze fixed on a device that was gently placed in the sand. A small radio. Hah, she had forgotten about the music. Her gaze smiles excitedly - she doesn’t smile like this as much anymore. Bella grabs his hand and pulls him towards her,
“¡Fay, vamos a bailar! (Fay, let’s dance!)” She laughs - he laughs too, they both awkwardly shuffle - the moonlight keeping them company.
“I don’t want this moment to end. This is how you know there’s magic.” They’ve gotten used to each other’s rhythms- they’re swaying with the beat - slowly. Cheeks blush as she realizes they’ve never been this close before.
“Fay - “ her voice is above a whisper but he’s intently looking at her, “ Ah - I need to tell you something. ” they’ve stopped moving now. Her heart is racing, she’s sure she’s having some kind of heart attack. Voice shakes a bit but she manages to spit out her emotions,
“fay - te amo. Te amo. Te amo. I love you -“ her face is burning up ! She speaks the words that have been locked away in her heart for what seemed ages. “—I know you may not feel the same. But it’s my truth. I love you. What I feel is strong - think of the ocean. Think of the waves. Perhaps. . . perhaps I shall show you how it feels - I’ll try if you’ll allow me. ”
To her surprise he nods, and this is when she knows it’s time to say goodbye. Dismay paints her senses - it’s time.
“close your eyes and I’ll show you.” She smiles at his obedience - he was kind. He was lovely. Bella traces fingertips across his cheek, his skin causing fire to her soul. slowly, two things happen. her left hand reaches for her wand - her right hand gently pushes fay towards her.
Lips collapse as they kiss, and it feels like she’s alive - her soul catches on fire and she would never regain from this moment. She would forever and always love him.
By a miracle he allows her to kiss him - she kisses him again, passion in her lips, then once more; he was intoxicating. Bella es tiempo. Bella, its time. Lips part- and shy gaze meets his. she can’t read his expression but she won’t need to for much longer.
“Te amo. (I love you). Obliviate.”
And it was over. He was gone.
She would never forget him. The black hole in her chest would never leave.
Nunca sera completa. (She would never be whole again).