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I love you. :)

DID I MENTION HOW DAMN ADORABLE HE IS? :3

I just wanted to give a shoutout to the cutest, nicest, nerdiest, most perfect boy in the world. We've only been together for a month, but because of all the shit we've been through, I can feel that this is something special. So Jaden? Will you be my valentine? :)

In the car I just can't wait To pick you up on our very first date Is it cool if I hold your hand? Is it wrong if I think it's lame to dance? Do you like my stupid hair? Would you guess that I didn't know what to wear? I'm just scared of what you think You make me nervous so I really can't eat Let's go Don't wait This nights almost over Honest, let's make This night last forever Forever and ever Let's make this night last forever Forever and ever Let's make this night last forever When you smile, I melt inside I'm not worthy for a minute of your time I really wish it was only me and you I'm jealous of everybody in the room Please don't look at me with those eyes Please don't hint that you're capable of lies I dread the thought of our very first kiss A target that I'm probably gonna miss Let's go Don't wait This nights almost over Honest, let's make This may last forever Forever and ever Let's make this night last forever Forever and ever Let's make this night last forever Let's go Don't wait This nights almost over Honest, let's make This may last forever Forever and ever Let's make this night last forever Forever and ever Let's make this night last forever Forever and ever Let's make this night last forever Forever and ever Let's make this night last forever

I realized that I've kind of sunk into my old habit of hiding my feelings around people because I'm depressed and don't want to show it. I realized tonight that a certain someone has made the dark clouds head west to someone else. I feel like we are moving so fast, but it feels good because it also feels right. I don't feel bad about rushing. You feel like I've known you my whole life. I am already as comfortable with you as I am with friends i've had for years, yet I am also so tense and nervous every time I know i'm going to see you. Tomorrow I get to introduce you to the adult that has had the most massive impact on my entire life, and I am so excited that I get to share you with him. :) 

So I just wanted to do a sappy ~uguu~ post. So a few nights ago the cutest boy in the world told me he liked me. At this point I had noticed he was cute and fun to talk to, but there really wasn't much there. I really didn't wanna make anything awkward by not talking to him or anything, so I talked to him, until 3 in the morning, then all day until 3 AM again the next night. He is so sweet and cute, and funny, and adorable, and amazing. I think he has some Misfits-esque super powers because in the time from those few nights ago to now, I am head over heels. We spent all day today that we could together, he makes me in such a happy mood. I started playing music again last night on both my old piano and guitar. I spent all evening tonight making delicious orange slush, homemade pita chips, and Muhamara. All of it turned out perfect, and the whole time I was smiling, joking around with my parents, (which if you know me personally you know that does not happen a lot) and singing happy love songs. :) He makes me smile, and blush, and squeak. I feel so lucky to have found this boy. On one hand I think, wow this is going really fast, but its so perfect and feels right. There is not a doubt in my mind that he is who I am supposed to be with. My prince. :) I cannot wait until tomorrow so I can see my sweet, sweet Jaden once more.