filth and squalor ⋆ g. hightower & o. hightower
cw: canon divergence, fem!targ!reader, toxic/abusive relationship, jealousy, religious themes, infidelity, pining, typos, hightowers be freaky, etc.
Many a man murmured about your house, and the murmurs about you nourished your infamy— the most damning of which was that Daeron was not Alicent's son, but yours and Gwayne's, born during Ormund's holy conquest to Dorne.
A/N: this can be read as a continuation of The Sound & Senseless only because i give yn two dragons and really long hair in this fic as well, but thats literally it HAHAHH | crossposted on ao3
Ormund's heart was racing out of his chest as he marches indignantly down the halls of this shoddy seat of Tumbleton. He bursts into the office, causing his nephew to flinch just as he sets down a teapot.
"The bitch queen has written to you?!"
I lift my eyes from the paper in my hand, seeing my husband's worn and angry face. The tea in my cup steams between me and Ormund's visage. Daeron slowly removes himself from this just as his uncle's hand reaches out to me expectantly. I raise a brow and slowly purse my lips, "tea?"
"Do not test me."
I smile and deliberately roll the paper before handing it to him, "I always test you."
The lord of Oldtown snatches the paper, eyeing the boy now stood stiffly across the room, chastising him even in silence for absolutely no reason. I look at Daeron, his countenance shined upon by gentle sunlight trickling through an opened window. "Close the window," snaps Ormund as he unfurls the paper, "it reeks."
I cross my arms and subtly shake my head at the boy.
He stops before he even moves, lowering his hand. He give me an apprehensive look, but I only shake my head again. Daeron does not close the window.
Ormund's lips purse and his jaw sets when he finally reads, or rather, looks at the contents of the letter. He turns back to me, lifting the paper as it curls back into itself, "what does it say?"
I tilt my head, my silver curls spilling over my shoulder, "did you not read it, lover?"
His nostrils flare, "tis in fucking High Valyrian," he crushes the paper, "lover."
I shrug and tilt my head further, smiling at Daeron, "ask your nephew to read it."
Daeron tenses as Ormund rolls his eyes and groans, chucking the crumpled piece at me. It lands just in front of my tea cup, into the saucer. I pout and click my tongue, "you missed."
"Be quiet," he snaps, walking over to his desk.
I watch him as I pick my cup, my red-painted lips faintly curling upward, "oh, don't be upset. You forbade my tutelage of him for a reason, did you not?"
Ormund's jaw feathers as he angrily sits down. He uncorks his pomander and inhales deeply. He turns to Daeron, the sight of his red hair calming him only momentarily. He turns to me, my long, silver hair enraging him all over again, "read it out for him."
I snort, the heat of my drink warming my curled lips, "first, admit how grateful are you so suddenly that I insisted on speaking to him in my mother tongue."
Daeron watches his uncle shift in his seat. Fear creeps up his spine. Had it been anyone else who'd spoken such a thing, he'd immediately take it back himself and beg for forgiveness. Instead, he turns to me, his heart uneasy yet in awe.
"Daeron," Ormund's ears practically steam, "speak sense into your aunt before I lose my patience," he roughly snatches up a document; he cannot read with how hot his head is burning.
I smile, beckoning him over with a gesture, "come to me, my love."
The boy, though still rigid with tension, comes to my side and takes the chair to my left.
I grab the crumpled paper and flatten it out for him, showing him the script written harshly. I rub his shoulder, "lykirī," I whisper, "ȳdra daor sagon zūgagon." Be calm. Don't be afraid.
He sighs, relaxing slightly under the sound of my voice.
"Now," I point to the scrawled text, "what are the letters you—"
"I did not ask you to teach him this devil language," Ormund cuts me off with a sharp gesture, "speak what it written and he will translate."
"Mittys," I turn to him and mutter. Idiot.
"What did she call me?" my husband immediately demands my nephew.
Daeron's face pales, "I-I-"
"I called you an annoying, no good, irritating, ugly, red-headed idiot."
Daeron prays the ground would swallow him whole. Ormund tilts his head at me and and grits his teeth into an angry smile, though his eyes were anything but amused, "I had no idea lowly speech could have such robust words."
I turn to Daeron, my irritation fizzling out as I see his distressed look. I stroke his hair.
Ormund barks out my name.
"Please just read it," Daeron blurts, making my heart ache.
"Listen to the boy, wife," he leans back on the chair.
I glare at Ormund one last time before turning to the letter. I point at the script and read out each word for him, "mēre hen īlva morghūlilza lo īlon rhaenagon arlī, hāedar."
The boy gasps.
Ormund perks, "what?"
Daeron turns to him then back to me. His eyes are glassy, "ñāmar..." (Paternal) aunt.
I knit my brows and clutch his head, "hush," I kiss his forehead, "they are empty words. Do not be frightened."
"What the fuck did Rhaenyra say?!" he slams his fist on the table.
Daeron flinches, scratching his eyes before turning to his uncle.
I kiss his temple, "go on, te-"
"Do not coddle him!" he points a finger and jumps out of his seat, "he is a king!"
I release him to glare at Ormund, "he is my son."
Ormund scoffs, "He is the son of your brother and my cousin; you are no more related to him than I."
"I have more blood with him then you ever will-"
He groans my name out.
"-I nursed him at my breast."
"HE IS NOT YOUR SON!" he points an accusatory finger, "you nursed him because you could not sustain the boy you birthed when Daeron came to ward!"
I stare at him as his chest heaves.
A shiver runs up Daeron's spine.
My expression is blank as I mutter, "am I supposed to be moved?"
"DAERON!"
"M-My lord-"
"What did the FUCKING letter say?!"
Daeron clenches his teeth as he steels himself. He knows better than not to look at his uncle when spoken to, especially during one of his many volatile moods. He slowly turns to him, "I- I don't remember exactly but it was like...
The lord tilts his head impatiently.
"..."
I squeeze his knee from under the table.
"... one of us will die if we meet again..."
Ormund can practically see red, "I will cleave th-"
"... y-younger sister," weakly adds Daeron.
He tenses, brows shooting up.
"Which is why..." I grab stand and shrug my hair back, feeling the tips of my hair brush the hem of my dress. I walk off, deliberately turning my back on my husband, because my heel-length hair enrages him so when it is undone like now— proof of my wildness, thinks he, "...it is nothing to worry about."
"Nothing to worry about?!" Ormund blurts, stretching his head out as he charges towards me, "Daemon Targaryen has threatened your life."
I whimper when he grips my nape and tugs the roots of my hair.
Daeron slowly stands, heart in his mouth, "m-my lord—"
"He spoke similarly when explained I wanted no part in heralding your lunacy in Dorne."
His grip tightens on my hair, "the Dornish conquest converted many souls to the Faith."
"Yet somehow you and Daemon for once agreed that fire rained onto the land would've improved your journey."
Ormund releases me, his upper lip curled in disgust, "the taint in your blood is not absolved by your disapproval of war."
My stomach sours. He speaks this as if there was never a time he was awestruck that I vowed never to use my dragons in battle, for as a child I dreamed a day would come that dragons would die. Awe curdled into rancour when he realized that he found no exemption, even with a purpose so glorious.
"And it was different then," he snorts and paces aimlessly, "your brother still had sense when he urged you to rid of those heathens. But it is the will of the Warrior that the battle was won through flesh and not fire," he turns to Daeron, "the will of the Seven was shown that season. Man ought to be ruled by its own blood," he turns to me, "not of savages."
"Mmm," I brush some of my hair by my shoulder, "I wonder if you'd side Daemon if what he proposed to kill me and assure Daeron's rise."
"Ñāmar!"
I turn to the boy as he grips my skirt.
Ormund scoffs, "your brother would sooner see you rise than Daeron."
I roll my eyes and take a sip of my tea, "It's almost as if that was my point precisely."
The man begins to roughly rub his face and Daeron begins to visibly tense, anticipating this act like lightning before thunder.
Instead of giving him an opportunity to rage, I catch him off-guard, "I shall go out on dragonback."
"What?!" he immediately drops his hands, the veins on his temples popping out.
I smile and clasp my hands in front of me, "now that I've your attention, I will, in fact, be visiting Nightsong and Vermithor—"
"That bronze lizard is up in the mountains a league away."
"Which is why I will be riding Nightsong to—"
"You will not!"
There is a knock on the door.
Ormund barks, "WHAT?!"
"Ser Gwayne Hightower, my lord."
I audibly gasp just as Daeron releases my skirt.
Registering both of these, Ormund's eye twitches. He is about to give the word, but I move too soon and open the door myself.
The scent of mud and grime hits me first. The guards outside the door turn to me and nod. I feel acutely aware of the hair on the sides of my face, for only this man before me brushed them ever so gently.
"Princess," Gwayne bows, his voice evidently tired.
I hear Daeron scurrying behind me, "uncle."
His eyes, darkened by mud and gods know what else, look just past me. He smiles softly, "my prince."
"Well, enter the damned ro—" Ormund walks over then halts abruptly, his face immediately curdling at the sight of his cousin.
My eyes are set on Gwayne as I walk past my husband, "tea, ser?"
His eyes drift, falling on the disgusted lord before him. Ormund pulls out his pomander and walks back. Gwayne finally enters the room and gives his nephew a soft smile again, "tea sounds lovely, thank you."
I do not bother getting another cup. In fact, I make sure to take another sip of mine, kissing my rouge deeper on the rim, before pouring some more tea into it. I prop it onto the saucer and walk off.
"What's happened?" Daeron asks softly.
Gwayne so badly wishes to clutch the boy's cheek and assure him he is well, exhausted but well, only his hand is filthy.
I hand Gwayne his tea, raising a brow as I do, "and your retinue?"
He takes care not to touch me, and not just because of his soiled fingers. He is dying for a taste, evident by how his throat bobs in anticipation. As one hand holds the saucer and the other clutches the handle, his throat bobs again, his breath struggling when he sees the red stain by the corner.
"Yes," Ormund blurts, his expression severe. His narrowed eyes flit from his cousin to his nephew, who he commands with a point, "ensure no one else who's defecated themselves enter."
Daeron nods and heads for the door.
Gwayne takes a sip, his tongue meeting the porcelain cup before his lips wrap around the rouge stain. He welcomes the heat, though it was teetering scalding.
I gulp and rub my belly, eyes desperate to engrave the moment in my memory.
He props his cup back on the saucer and licks his lips, immediately regretting it when he tastes dirt, "I am my own retinue. Ser Criston Cole has endeavored towards a path of certain death."
Ormund purses his lips and tilts his head, "so you're a deserter?"
I roll my eyes and immediately needle through them, smiling at Daeron as he reenters the room. I clutch his cheeks and mutter softly, "have a room prepared for your uncle, a bed, a bath, a table."
"B-but-" his lower lips juts out, "I want to hear what's happened—"
"As do I," Ormund blurts, wafting his pomander below his nose, "and be concise, for your stench is wholly upsetting."
"I did almost just die," Gwayne purses his lips, "more than once actually."
"And we are all of us gladdened, methinks, that you did not give up your ghost," he rebuts, uninterested, turning his back and heading to his desk once more. He turns to me just as I link my arm into Daeron's, then raises a brow, "hmm?"
I again roll my eyes. They then fall on Gwaynes back, "tell us, my dear, that we might pray in thanks for what the Father has delivered you through."
Gwayne turns around.
I smile softly.
Daeron's brows furrow.
Ormund clenches his teeth, "at once, Gwayne."
And so Gwayne recounts his horrors, sparing details, I knew for Daeron's sake, but underscoring the hardships and perils that Ormund might feel for him.
He doesn't, of course.
When he's heard enough, he waves a hand, "go and do as your aunt has tasked, Daeron. Gwayne will follow shortly after I decide a fitting punishment for his desertion."
I turn to Daeron as he sighs and nods. I squeeze his bicep and whisper, "daorun kessa massigon." Nothing will happen.
Daeron turns to me.
"With haste," Ormund urges.
My boy pulls away from me, dejected but dutiful. He nods before leaving and my face immediately hardens when it's only the three of us. I snap at my husband, "you wear him down like chalk."
"I discipline the rightful king of the realm," he stands from his chair.
Gwayne's brows raise, "king?" Then relax the next, "ah... king."
Ormund hums, watching me as I circle around the other Hightower. His nostrils flare as he reaches out a hand, "your hair will brush into his filth."
Gwayne looks at his cousin's hand, his wedding band pristine as the day it was forged. He knows the gesture, though not directed at him, is for him. He watches my expression as I walk towards Ormund.
I want nothing more than to bite his hand, and so I do. I grab him and sink my teeth into the fleshy part beneath his pinkie, fully intent on ripping him to shreds.
Ormund moans as he pulls away, his other hand swiftly twirling into my hair before yanking me back. My jaw clatters shut, a string of spit stretching between us before ultimately splattering onto my chin.
Gwayne steps forward, "Ormund."
"Vermin," he hisses, nose pressed against my temple.
I lean into him, pushing myself into my toes to bring my mouth to his ear and whisper, "he always did get your blood so hot."
Gwayne does not hear, but he watches me murmur, knowing nothing ever good will come from it. He quickly puts his porcelain down, then dares to step forward, "let her go, Ormund."
Ormund pulls away, his upper lip tense as he glares at Gwayne.
I faintly grunt when my hair is further pulled back, my neck straining under the weight of his grip.
"Did you miss your whore, hmm?" he raises his brows, "or is it stoking my rage?"
I huff sharply and grab a fistful of Ormund's auburn locks, yanking his own head back as I sneer, "let me fucking go."
Ormund moans again, and I see that glint in his eyes that kindles my own. He stares at me more a moment, his grip not at all wavering.
Gwayne can only watch, knowing interfering now will do more harm than good.
"You have marred me," mutters my husband, as his other hand comes to grip my jaw.
I gulp when his hold shifts, the pressure on my hair easing only for the pressure on my jaw to tighten. It is then that I release Ormund's hair, knowing I no longer have no reason to.
Ormund's one hand releases my hair altogether to pull me by the waist and press me against his chest.
My skin pricks when he takes his turn to press near my ear.
"You disgust me," he mutters.
A watch him pull away slowly, my defiant expression raging even as he's squishing my cheeks.
Gwayne takes a slow step forward.
Ormund side eyes him. His nostrils flare, "your whore then."
I whimper as he shoves me into Gwayne, my shoulder colliding roughly into his chest.
Any other day, such a collision would not have hurt him, but he is worn. Gwayne nearly topples, but manages to find his footing, only because I too manage it. I gasp and clutch his arms, my nails digging into his rough yet slimy coat. He does the same, his hands desperately clasping my shoulders. Once we are both stable, we pull away, only I do not release his left bicep.
He notices and mumbles my name.
"Do enjoy sniffing lavenders in your lonesome, Ormund," I blurt, leading Gwayne out the door.
"Oh, I will," he, yet again, sits back on his desk, "and I trust you'll make him smell like it for me by the end of the night."
I make sure to slam the doors shut on our way out.
In my anger and haste, I forget that Gwayne is aching beside me. Yet all it takes from him is a word and I am still. I turn to him, my expression all at once soft when I hear him wheeze. I clutch his hand like it is precious, because it is.
He looks as how I hold him. He surveys the hall then eyes the wooden door beside us. He takes a moment before he lowers his head and sighs, "I am filthy."
I try to see catch his gaze with mine, "you are Gwayne."
His eyes lock with mine only for a second. He pulls away regardless, and I do not quarrel.
"I prefer the lashing be done unto me, you know."
I purse my lips and knit my brows, "so, you've come here to die."
Gwayne sighs and tilts his head, muttering my name in exasperation.
"One lashing from him in your state will send you to your grave."
He sighs again, deeper, "he would not lash me in fear of sullying his hand, princess."
It takes a moment for me to register his words.
He sighs again when a smile spreads on my lips, though it bears a different sort of exasperation.
"I'm impressed."
Gwayne shakes his head, "nay, I'm underestimated."
"I do no—"
"I counted on it," he looks at my shoulder where a brown handprint lay, then his eyes fall on my lips. "You are well, I pray."
"As well as one can be under a tyrant," I shake my head and look away, "still, I am convinced he is not completely without reason, and though his heart is a fortress, it is not impenetrable. He stills comes to my bed after all."
Gwayne's jaw tightens.
"And so will he tonight, with a vengeance."
He feels fire burn down his spine.
I look at my hands. I almost do not want to wash the dirt off them, "would you have me after?"
He stiffens. He almost looks over his shoulder but stops himself, instead whispering my name, slow and weary.
I finally look back at him, "he would let me, I'm sure."
"Let you?" He nearly laughs, "foolish girl."
"I—"
"A bath first," he takes my hand, "your head is always so up in the clouds."
I clutch his hands and smile.
Gwayne releases me before we walk off. I clutch my hands in front of me as I lead him to his room.
Daeron, who had been on his way back to Ormund's office, emerges from the door in the hall, from the storage room a few paces from where his aunt and uncle stopped. He had thoughtfully fetched Gwayne a towel there, but now he thinks he cannot even give it to him. As the door clicks shut behind him, a thousand different thoughts enter his mind, truths and rumors begin to muddle within him until he feels like his head is about to roll off.
Just then, a servant passes by.
"Excuse me," Daeron calls.
The girl stops and curtsies, "my prince."
He offers her the towel, "will you give this to my uncle?"
Her expression twists, "to L-Lord Ormund?"
"W- no," he shakes his head, "my uncle, Gwayne Hightower, has returned from a long travel. He is in dire need of a bath, you see."
"Ah," she slowly accepts the towel, "the knight of Citadel."
It has been so long since Daeron heard this title. It makes him smile, though it is a sad sort, "yes. The very one."
The servant curtsies again, "at once, prince."
Daeron turns to his feet after she walks away. He debates with himself if seeing Tessarion would be wise at this hour.











