#guardiandae

THANK YOU DAE!! <3

"She's my everything," Nate whispers. "Now she's yours."

But… you're my...

From Chapter 3 of Hello, Handsome by @guardiandae 

Have you ever been so emotionally damaged by a fic that you gotta finish an illustration for it over the weekend? I did and it’s thanks to Dae ✨✨✨✨ I love this chapter and I would die for my octogoo Wade baby.

Tagged by the myth, the legend, the one and only ♥ @guardiandae ♥

1. Nicknames: Tav, Tab, Krys, Kyo, Tavi, Dad (not sexual you heathens), and one of the best ones Blooming Star Cactus (I love you Jojo).

2. Zodiac Sign: Taurus

3. Height: 5′11″

4. Hogwarts House: Slytherin

5. Last Thing I Googled: Honest-to-God it’s: “I can’t do a push-up?” Gotta take a physical exam for this better security gig I want, but despite being strong I’m just push-up disabled. Trying to fix that *sobs*

6. Favorite Musicians: Breaking Benjamin, The Last Jumpsuit Apparatus, John Legend, Superfruit, Gackt, Janelle Monoae, a million others, and like any soundtrack composer that has blown my mind in the past.

7. Song Stuck in My Head: Thunderstruck by 2Cellos

8. Following Now: 427

9. Followers: 752

10. Do I Get Asks?: On very rare occassions but I always welcome them!

11. Amount of Sleep?: I try for 8 hours a night, so I either get 12 if it’s a day off, or 8-5 during the work week OTL

12. Lucky Number: 27 has always stuck with me and I couldn’t tell you why the fuck that is ‘cause I don’t have a clue.

13. What I’m Wearing: Chill capree-like pants, and a hoodie.

14. Dream Job: It would be working at a cat-cafe, taking care of the cats. Or being a book editor/writer. Or something that has me travelling a lot all over the world so I could finally fucking travel.

15. Dream Trip: Ireland, Scotland, or Japan.

16. Favorite Food: Curry, hands down. Thai curry, Japanese curry, Indian curry, sign me the fuck up.

17. Instruments: I had been teaching myself keyboard/piano for a couple years when the class I had at school utterly failed to actually teach me anything, but then I kept moving and just never had the time/energy to practice, and the last house I lived in my keyboard got stolen so...fuck me I guess. I always wanted to learn violin and/or cello though.

18. Languages: English, some German, and a basic grasp of Japanese.

19. Favorite Song: what kind of fool question is this (Dae is correct so I’m leaving their answer as I cannot improve on it)

20. Random Fact: I have actually mutated thumbs. They’re short and stubby and aren’t normal at the end at all, so gloves never fit just right, and typing on my phone is a nightmare.

21. Aesthetic: Cats, queer pride colors, classic poetry like Paradise Lost or Dante’s Inferno, gothic imagery, horror imagery, cyberpunk imagery, steampunk imagery, Paganism, robots, aliens, and historical landmark images like the pyramids of Giza or ancient grave sites.

THANKS DAE @guardiandae

“Spots of black drip onto the floor. Genos finally moves, grabbing a dishrag from the sink and wetting it so he can wipe his face. Then he kneels down, scrubbing the black spots from white tile. When he's done, however, he doesn't get back up. He rests his hands on his knees and keeps his face angled away from Saitama, but his fingers start digging in harder and harder, and then fresh black marks start dotting the floor.”

I created this account that will be deleted in a moment once things has calmed down just to offer an explanation and also as the last defense of my person considering my deletion was taken for me having something to be ashamed of or feeling guilty after recent pitchforkings.

I sure am not.

I wasn't even gonna offer replies to @guardiandae tirade but after they just kept on and on and on. I'll allow an explanation that isn't 75% assumptions.

So here is a list:

- If you honestly believe anything she is saying, I won't stop you. Feel free to have whatever opinion you want about me but allow me to say anyone who knows me even just a tiny bit knows what kind of person I am.

- I have never yelled enough time already that I was never against NSFW artists. I have NSFW artist friends, me being Ace change nothing about that and guardiandae and I even made post in the pasts talking about that very thing. ( but of course she ain't saying that lol.) I explained myself like 3467532 times already. Not liking that content DOESN'T equal disliking the people making it.

- ( that one made me laugh because the accusation was so ridiculous.) The eclipse AU was turned into Zenith because I was looking to made an original story since a WHILE for portfolio purpose and my own friends came to me telling me potential ideas, which then developped the story in a completely different direction. ( Zenith and the eclipse au are nothing alike aside for Sola's design. That's it. ) it has ZERO to do with Doon's and Myself's parting.( but yeah let's use that to further your shitty agenda.)

- I don't take out my wrongs in situations and Doon and I parted ways because I was not in a right place emotionally because of hormonal therapy, which left me extremely distressed and unstable BECAUUUUSE of therapy ( ya know totally reconstructing your hormonal system is bound to have side effects.( one I was being followed for by my endocrinologist.) Some people dealt perfectly with it and understood while others didn't. So I knew when to leave them the fuck alone because I was being a royal pain the ass, but I can safely say now it's all over with and I am doing juuuuuuuust fine.) However my hormonal therapy side effect ain't a damn excuse and I know I hurt some people ( unintentionally.) but USING THAT BY SAYING I PURPOSELY GO AROUND EATING PUPPIES FOR BREAKFAST and that I am a manipulative bastard/someone who use people is just...so incredibly wrong and shitty I have no words. Taking the 3-4 people I had arguments with out of the 14 000 is laughable...( and arguments do happens. No one is perfect.)

- There is only shitty people that use all past arguments between people WHO HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH US to use for your arguments.

- Your own friends wouldn't come to me saying you are taking this way too seriously and way too far if you were in the right, dae.

- You totally assumed I purged you off my blog when I explained I purged my blog of anything not having to do with art or general gifsets and pictures because I had Hiveworks guidelines to follow and since the Tumblr is linked to it: I deleted most of my blog's content that was just replies to people or even my own posts lol. Like I said: you totally made this about you and turned this into some kind of insult against you when it had nothing to do with you. NOTHING.

- if anyone was ever hurt by anything I said or did: they are welcomed to come talk to me on instagram if they wish so. I'll promptly apologize and explain whatever needs explaining. I assure it's never my goal to hurt anyone.

- random anons are NEVER a valid source of anything Dae. You should know better.

- THIS WHOLE ARGUMENT HAS NO PLACE IN PUBLIC. THIS ISN'T HIGH SCHOOL. Gosh...

- it's been an entire year since we last talked. Find yourself a hobby, go out , breath some fresh air.

- When you responded with all the hatred and rage in the world to me at me , I was right smack in the middle of my little sister's birthday party. It sure was merry afterward lemme tell you...which is why I just deleted everything. I had no more patience left.

- If peopke ask why " all artists are leaving Tumblr" this is why. This senseless pitchforking for personal shits or arguments.

- like I said previously : believe whatever you want to believe. You can't be liked by everyone...but at least I'll give a chance to clean my slate . I don't even want people to side with me here. I just want this to be over.

- I won't be back on Tumblr , ever. Do a party Dae for all I care while I'll celebrate with my own peoples who genuinely care and never backstabbed anyone because they had nothing better to do.

- do yourself a favor and go to your friends, talk about cows, fangirl about stuffs, enjoy life, if I am suuuuuch a bad person, the best thing you can do for yourself is to enjoy your own life.

Sincerely

I wish I could do a proper job toning (and a more interesting job paneling lmao) but this was a bit of a splurge on time as is lmao. 

A comic based on Salvaged by @guardiandae, based on a converation @rustnut and I had about what it would feel like to be ‘decommissioned.’