#guam native

I just experienced racism from another person of color for defending my cultural identities and experience as a lesbian. when I said that I was engaging in good faith and asked them not to put words in my mouth they continued putting words in my mouth mocked me, said that my definition of lesbian (which is specific to my cultures and my races and ethnicities as a Brown and Indigenous triracial person) comes from yt people and then said I learned it off the LGBT wiki which I don’t even know what that fucking is. My definition of lesbian comes from lived experience as an indigenous 2spirit malalåhi mamflorita lesbian. my definition is me centering Black and Brown experiences. and then they had the fucking audacity as someone who is not two spirit to tell me in a condescending disrespectful way that other 2spirit people think that the definition of lesbian is “non-men loving non-men” when that very fucking definition EXCLUDES us for being two spirit. TWO SPIRIT IS NOT NON MEN. THAT ENGLISH COLONIAL TERM DOES NOT DEFINE US. just because SOME two spirit people do not identify as men doesn’t erase all of us who do identify as men . FORCING THE TERM NON MEN ONTO US IS MISGENDERING, DEGENDERING/UNGENDERING, AND RACIST AND ANTI-INDIGENOUS. it’s disgusting how people think that two spirit equals non-men when that is a colonial idea that erases our cultural identity. I am not the only 2spirit person who has repeatedly, publicly, proudly stated that our male identity is EQUALLY as important as our female identity or other identities. the fucking nerve for a non-indigenous person to “2spirit people to me when I’m explaining how that very specifically invalidates and erases my identity as a twospiritlesbian the fucking nerve y’all have. this is a reminder that just because you yourself are not white, does not mean that you are incapable of being anti-indigenous and racist to other Brown and Native people. not being white yourself is NOT an excuse or exemption from being anti-indigenous, holding anti-indigenous beliefs, and enacting anti-indigenous violence on an Indigenous person. “NON MEN” (LOVING NON MEN) IS A RACIST, COLONIAL, ENGLISH LANGUAGE AND USA-CENTRIC TERM AND CONSTRUCT. IT HAS FUCKALL TO DO WITH ME AND MY CULTURES AND I WILL NOT LET IT BE FORCED ON ME. FUCK OFF.