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I was wondering if you have any tips on how to keep tape from peeling/coming off in the shower? I haven’t been able to find a lot of info online and it seems to make the tape’s efficacy diminish.

I don’t mean to make you uncomfortable at all, totally understand if you don’t want to answer! Thank you for all the information and examples you’ve shown so far!

hello mr. cowboy

i figured i could use your ask to make another post about my tape - my initial post is having another wave of traction (positive this time) so i’m returning with some reference pics

to first answer your question about peeling and waterproofing, i’ve seen lots of recommendations for rounding the corners of your tape, cutting off the edges before applying. people have preached it pretty hard to me, but i’ve never noticed a difference when i do, so i personally don’t, but it’s worth mentioning

the biggest factor in making my applications last longer has been the addition of saniderm / tegaderm - it’s clear, medical bandaging that comes in rolls similar to the kinesiology tape

saniderm / tegaderm comes in uncut rolls you’re able to cut to size, i like to use rolls that are 4” in width, but i’ve used anywhere from 3”-6” in width with success

the same goes for kinesiology tape, i prefer 4”-5” widths but have used rolls 4”-7” wide before and made it work for me

unfortunately the cheapest place with most consistent availability for both products mentioned is amazon - i buy large quantities of both and only restock every three months, as i don’t use amazon for anything else. other places to get kinesiology tape include transtape, transguysupply and urbasics, with some sex stores like early2bed selling transtape branded tape too

attached are pics of how i ❗️PERSONALLY❗️bind my chest with saniderm underneath and kinesiology tape on top. i’ve been tape binding for seven years and it’s changed forms over that time, with fat distribution from testosterone / weight gain and loss / muscle gain all playing factors into my choices and results

any transphobia or sexualization of my body will be immediately blocked, i want to be a source of education for trans folk like myself, if you use this post as a chance to insult me or flirt with me you can go to hell

i wish everyone well

xoxo grizz

does anyone have more insight on the fetishization of trans folk? both ftm and mtf

giving “pose” a rewatch recently which heavily explores the themes, i haven’t seen it since i was 16 and am now watching it with the eyes of a man post-hrt but pre-op, with a history of an online following + sexwork as a transman under my belt - and my mind is just sprawling all over this subject now

i don’t understand the “pre-opness” of it all, the preference of girls before bottom surgery, and more personally, anything of my bound chest exploding with reblogs to personal porn stashes

i can’t enjoy being public on any media out of (other than blatant transphobia) being fetishized or oversexualized for it, i know so many trans folk go though the same, and i genuinely want answers for the behavior

comments / asks appreciated

been having a strange, bittersweet struggle

when i was living in america i didn’t dream. and this isn’t some metaphorical dig at the united states i literally, physically didn’t remember any dreams - remembering maybe a handful over the last two years

this worked for me as i don’t actually “dream,” i just have nightmares

any fantasy my mind spins while i’m asleep is mildly upsetting at best, sometimes fully gruesome and horrific. i have an anxiety disorder and all the thoughts i’m able to push away during waking hours seep through my brain into my night subconscious

but what’s odd is i always dream when i’m in france. even before moving here, just visiting, i consistently dreamt. and i hated it

and now i’m here permanently, having nightmares multiple times a week

the kicker? being here is the only time i’ve been hitting rem cycles. the deep, restful sleep that allows you to dream? yeah just full incapable of doing that in america somehow

i don’t even know what to do about this. i get punished for sleeping soundly next to my beautiful wife? get fucking real

what’s the science behind being a pussy ass transandrophobic bitch but having a fetish for tgirls? i’ve never seen this before 🤔

i’m from (one of) the homicide capital of the united states

today is my twenty second fourth of july being alive and for the first time woke up naturally

no fireworks for the days surrounding the holiday with gunshots sprinkled in and thinly veiled as other explosives

i woke up next to my lover sleeping soundly while the french sun and subsequent heat fills our room

i hear birds and only birds and i bask in this quiet for awhile

a quiet it takes twenty years to hear