#2 from the prompt list ðĪŠð
Looove u meel ðĨ°ð hope you like this... ð cuz writing this really hurt... cuz i guess it's a lil angsty?
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You left the hall filled with friends and family. "Y/n.." he makes you stop by holding onto your wrist "wait I.." he starts, but you interrupt him. "No.. I.. just no.." you try to form a whole sentence but you couldn't.
"You make me feel Jeff..." you start slowly"you make me feel things that i'm not supposed to feel and i hate it.." you add feeling tears running down your face. "You don't even now how hard I tried to..." you can't even finish your sentence before your voice breaks. "Fuck Jeff i tried so hard to prevent my feelings.." your eyes now completely filled with tears. "But I can't.." shaking your head. "I just can't.. and I hate myself for that.." you look back into his eyes, filled with compassion. "because it fucking hurts..." you restart "it fucking hurts and I fucking hate it.." you try to deal with your overwhelming feelings before you continue your monologue.
"Justin is a really fucking great guy.. and I really like him... and he just doesn't deserve that cause.." you hesitate for a moment, exhaling loudly "I love you.." finally saying those three words "and i don't want to love you.. because I just want to be happy.." you breath out heavily, looking into his glassy eyes "and Justin really makes me happy... but happiness isn't love.. and... I just can't cope with that.." - "y/n" he tries to interrupt you, but you put your finger up and shake your head "shut up I'm not done yet.." you say boldly.
"You don't destroy the person that you love Jeff.." you continue. "but that's exactly what you did and still are doing to me.." you look back at where you came from. "you destroy me.. because.. you are in me.." you try to explain "it's like you are a fucking disease and i'm infected... and I cant think about anything or anybody.." another wave of tears filling your eyes again "I can't sleep.. and I can't breathe... and that's just because you make me feel things.."
You bite on your tongue, shaking your head again "I just destroyed Justin's fucking life.." you just now realize. "Actually I did..." Jeff corrects you. "I-.. Jeff-.. Its.. just to have the audacity to..." - "I just couldn't hold my peace.." he says, stepping forward. "Y/n.." now taking your hands "I know this was the worst timing ever but.. " he clears his throat. "Seeing you..standing there... looking at him.." he looks you up and down "in that dress..." he swallows audibly "I couldn't forgive my self if i didn't attempt to at least try.." you look up at him getting lost in his eyes. "It's my fucking wedding day..." you recall, holding hands with a man who isn't supposed to be your future husband. "It's your wedding day.." he repeats, looking down on you, your eyes still filled with tears, but underneath all those tears he sees unconditional love.
