#grenade journaling

Page 1: Sunday 28 July 2024 Feeling a little bit art block So, so. Darwin was so beautiful, but everything in the territory feels so raw. The obvious violence of colonisation is still so present, so undeniable. It's a place where every problem so-called australia manages to obscure or obliterate in its wealthier centres still remains. It doesn't feel like a margin, it feels like this outside, intentionally separated place.

Domestic Baggage Tag - Qantas Adelaide to Darwin.

Designed in Australia. Made in China.

All the buses were on a free trial the NT is currently running, but the signage was abysmal and the bus stops run-down, the ticket info booth [almost] comically shuttered itself as I walked towards it to ask a question, and two seccies and two police officers watched us like prisoners as we boarded the free! public! bus! Page 2:

30 July 2024

Instructions For Use

Super Flangeless Ferrules (Ferals)

Instructions For Use

Polymer Tubing

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31 July 2024

Nikita very comically kept making these janky, rigged 'blocks' when he was asked to close a line. There is something endearing about a cobbled together answer to a simple question. An over-engineered, poorly implemented, non-solve.

Relatable

BLOCK.

I've been working on the synthera V1.0 (B) which hasn't been passing pressure tests - I'm really not sure if I'm cut out for any of this - I made a small shim/stand off on the lathe for it. I think it'll work. Maybe?

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July 2024 Northern Territory

These two pictures were taken less than a kilometer apart.

I hate it when I can't even write a poem about something because it's too obvious.

Page 1 | 28 Oct 2025: i would hate for people to think that this unintentionally sounds like the ravings of a self-obsessed moron. THIS IS ON PURPOSE.

Gene Mapping for AI.

Page 2 | 28 Oct 2025: Floppy Disk Icon Save and Exit. Exit Program Icon

Page 3 | 04 Nov 2025: Beep Silence Beep Beep Beep Motifs The Pattern is Patterns. One Size Fits All (OSFA)

Page 4 | 04 Nov 2025: Does Lolita Fash(ion) exist because of the internet? and how does it relate and/or oppose the "demon chinese punk" aesthetic, I keep seeing around? Is this all a reach? It's origins proceed the internet but its explosion tracks quite neatly with the growth of the internet. Motifs Motifs Motifs Motifs Motifs Patterns Patterns Patterns Patterns Lens Lens.

This is an under developed idea that's been knocking around in my mind for a while but i keep thinking about it because of this recent boom in ultra girly fashion (I think of Simone Rocha as ground zero for this) that uses motifs of militarism and especially para-militarism.

Page 5 | 23 Nov 2025:

I'm not a heraldry and symbolism (well ok maybe) person really. But I was looking up old union banners and flags because I'm interested in that art movement and style at the moment - no reason. I found this video on youtube on History Hub that they (Royal Holloway University of London conservator Jenny Mabbott) claim is the oldest surviving trade union banner in the world (probably in the UK), which is housed at the People's History Museum in Manchester. The Curator/Conservator helps by explaining the icons on the flag, the union Jack to display National fealty, the all seeing eye of God etc. It was made for the Liverpool Tin Plate Workers and the symbol in the center is a bundle of sticks showing "strength through unity". Which I had never seen or come across (in this state or context) as a symbol. Which considering the thread/twigs I was pulling together in the moment I was watching this video - I was surprised. But by looking up the symbol I pretty quickly came across the Fasces - which had a long history before Mussolini - but also Mussolini! - and seems to have ... sort (struggling here) of ... survived global symbolic flattening that usually happens due to deployment by fascists. Rightfully or Wrongfully? I vacillate like crazy on this, it's right that we abandon symbols used by these groups or should we not cede territory to them? I don't know. It's only symbolic territory, so like who cares? Indeed my favourite thought terminating question - so what and also who cares? But more importantly - is it the same symbol at all? The Fasces has the emerging axe. The multiple restraints. These things create the aura of state power and punishment? The one on the Tin Plate Worker's flag is a loose lean-to bundle of sticks, not unified but an intersection, which seems to be a far harder icon to search up effectively (...for some reason). The union heraldry symbol in this banner is also, a lot less like a weapon. The sticks are visibly sticks - not seasoned and planed rods, they are only tied together in one place. They do not look like they could/would support an axe at all. With all these differences, how can they possibly be the same symbol? How has it become impossible to search this symbol due to any description or descriptive words about it being a complete distortion of what is actually there to be described?

Strength is such a charged topic.

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I passed the guy who rips down all the socialist posters around Brunswick last Sunday morning on the way to DnD.

He looks kind of hum-drum as he efficiently goes about splitting each poster up its belly and shucking them from their new created centers.

Axe Grinding. Shadow Boxing.

No wrapped this year, just a dodgy lists I’ve been recording manually over the course of a couple of months.

Music Artists I've newly listened to or returned to a great deal in 2025.

26 Aug 2025

12 April 2023

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I <3 the Saturn Emoji

Jupiter has very cute rings too. (Though I think I drew them the wrong way)

WHY MAKE ART?!?

Because of the Visions! The visions are what you believe in!

What are my visions?

It's that unity↔duality thing, at least at the moment.

"All the time -- now"

I'm making things to save this little part of me, in a page, in a post, in a painting, so that I can collaborate with myself. Argue with me, agree with me. It lets me see how many things I can hold, and how many I've let go.

Sometimes, I think all artists are driven by some obsessive infatuation with all the beauty in the world OR by all its ugliness. The desire to capture it OR to correct it. We're compelled by beauty

[YOUR BRAIN ON BEAUTY]

The sky's a mirror [co-star app]

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♺

It's so weird that they're gonna make a Cat Person movie. Other Cat Person thoughts from me. Ghost World already exists and it's perfect.

Sterope, Taygeta, Maia, Calaeno, Pleione, Alcyone, Atlas, Electra & Merope - Pleiades. The Sever Sisters.

[God is a Circle - Yves Tumor] Now Playing - Tally Tunes

Pipes, Plumbing, Dumb Plumbing!

Anemic Maiden in reply to the Iron Maiden, Lack of Blood, There Won't Be Blood.

[OK]

Polaroids are a very cool lil bit of chemistry and physics - a site where the negative is fused to the positive (print) Private and Singular.

Like a memory -

When it is a sad memory, at least it has passed. When it is a happy memory, alas it is in the past.

12 July 2023

Page 1 TEETH THEET THETE TEETH +

I got that mouth sadness ------ We all got mouth sadness. IS THERE ANY OTHER KIND?

Stay golden you stupid fuckin' gob!

I want visible dental work - [AU]RGH

Page 2 ROT ROT ROT ROT ROT ROT ROT ROT It's just that I feel I [ROT] create my whole self through my mouth. It's where the talking, [ROT] eating, sex - so much of the self happens in the my mouth. ROT ROT I MAKE MYSELF [ROT] THROUGH MY MOUTH ROT ROT ROTTED ROTTED ROTTED ROTTED ROTTED ROTTED ROTTED

and when dental work is happening or immanent, I feel existential dread like real bone-pain* existential dread.

VISIBLE MENDING

Stones Corner Dental - from last year when I had a gold crown installed. I got it because I think visible mending is cool. And because I like the phrase "a rat with a gold tooth". And because if it's gonna cost 2K, I reckon it should look expensive. And because so much dental work gets done, and hidden, it has become such an enormous class signifier. Quiet Luxury, is people never noticing your teeth.

And because of Garden State and New Slang - The Shins Gold Teeth and a Curse for this Town. Were all in my mouth.

*Bone-Pain is a term I heard when a student dentist was removing my wisdom teeth. I was awake in the chair, they were using a bone saw to remove the root of the tooth from my jaw bone, and their supervising professor lent across my open maw and looking into my face said: "I know you're still feeling pain, I can see it in your face. Unfortunately we've already given you three blocks (anesthetic) and that's all we can give in this clinic. Not that it would help all that much because what you're feeling is "bone-pain", all I can say is - it'll be over soon".

I tell this story all the time, because I'll never forget. Teeth are a monster. Teeth are a blight! TEETH TEETH TEETH TEETH.