I won't be reblogging and interacting with posts and things as much. Will still be trying to write and make art.

Sorry for it, hope you peeps understand <3

So... gonna just be out and clear on how I feel and what's been going on, bc I have been so inactive on here and just want to use my blog as a personal blog to dump my head out rn

The past months (year tbh) I've been dealing with my shit mental health which likes to fuck me up periodically. Am thankful for my two online sibs for helping me out when I feel extra miserable from the intrusive thoughts and just trauma that haunts me...

I wish I could heal and move on from all of it, but in reality I've just come to the conclusion that it will likely never happen, unless in some miracle way I and the rest can resolve the severed connections and misunderstandings and just everything that has gone down in the past (really wishful thinking)

Most would probably hold grudges, but honestly, I don't really have any bad blood to pick (ofc, i was mad and hurt at first for how it happened, but over the time the anger has faded and just the hurt has stayed), with the only things being the way I was treated and smeared as well as lied about (those are valid things to be hurt about I think)

I don't even ask to have any communication kept after patching things up, but just the peace that comes with it

Doubt that any of the people involved want to talk it out and come to close the ends of the seem... Am open if anyone wants to (tho, none of them will probably see this bc of blockage)

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Anyway, I got into anime ain April and have been enjoying it. Watched Go For It, Nakamura and was really sad when episode 13 came around and it ended (my bb bois🥲). It was so good!! Definitely a favourite!🧡💖 Currently have been watching Sasaki and Miyano. Also really good!!

I want to do some more art and edits for GFI,N and might start doing stuff for the other as well, once I've finished watching it fully :)

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While everything has been going on, and am currently working in shifts. I will try and return to writing fics/updating them, tho no real promises bc my motivation is at a real low rn. It isn't even writer's block, but just the lack of any want to write u_u

Art will be coming tho! That I somehow have motivation to do it, but might take a bit, as am currently in Artfight and juggling that with existing stuff will be a challenge

(I have been kinda also, don't want to say it, but slowly starting to like tiktok more, as on here I feel like the algorithm is excluding my stuff, where as tiktok has been pushing it)

Another thing I guess is my lack of interaction with the fandom on here... I had someone suggest that I interact more with others on here, but... truthfully as much as I'd like to, I am being held back by fear; fear of what happens if the person I end up interacting and talking with has my trigger and is really passionate about it, to where it gets in the way of having any connection between us?

Like, I'm open minded to any hcs others have, and respect them if the person respects mine too... tho I usually hit a hard rock with the one thing (that this fandom for some reason has adopted as "canon" and sees anyone not agreeing as an idiot. (Am not shaming anyone or pointing fingers or anything, as people can hc whatever they want and no need to police them. Just, kinda is sad that it's become the only way to see the character and if you don't fit into that group, even more so if you have a mental trigger with it, you are left feeling outcasted))

Anyway, that's mostly all I think, that I wanted to put out in a post.

THE COMIC IS DONE AND OUT NOW ON MY ACCOUNT!!! XDXD

LINK TO IT IS AVAILABLE ON PIN-POST :3

I'll be releasing my first ever comic later today! I hope you guys will like it!! ^_^