#greenotter

I was petrified, unable to speak.

This waiter was even prettier closeup. I know very well that to be a good looking person you also kind of have to be kind but damn he was fine. The nametag on his chest said. E.O.Green, He/Him. I like it when basically any shop does that, I mean, including the pronounce, very important. E.O. Green…I wonder what his real name is tho? Especially since it appears to be a double name which, personally, I really like.

Waiter: Soo? Everything okay? Lucia: Yeah I’ll pay for both. Waiter: Oh that's some kind of date then? Lucia: OH NO haha. He's a really good friend, and he’s gay so. Waiter: I see, well good to know. Lucia: So, the bill then? Waiter: Oh yeah of course! Here you go. Waiter B: ETHAN, I NEED HELP OVER HERE Waiter: Sorry, just put the money in the book, have a great day. Lucia: Thanks, you too. Lucia: [...] Lucia: JAMES HELLOU???? James: WHAT Lucia: You like, did your body lost your soul for a few here or what was that? James: Haha, what do you mean? Lucia: You were stone. I kicked you under the table like twice, no sign of any reaction. Are you good? James: I had…other stuff to do. Lucia: Like what? James: Thinking about him. Lucia: Well next time just pay attention. His name is Ethan, he brought us the bill that I have to pay. James: Ethan is a really nice name. Lucia: JAMES ARE YOU SANE?! James: Couldn’t be any better. Lucia: Okay you like lovestruck as hell right now. Wait, Idea. You got a pen on you? James: Sure why? Lucia: Just some shenanigans. James: Sure, here. Lucia: Perfect! James: What are you doing? Lucia: I’ll leave him a note. Maybe that calms you.

She was right though, I was love stuck, and not small either. This only ever happened once, back when I used to go to Dover school before I had to move to Truham. But since then, nothing. Lucia laid the bill as well as the money in the book, handed me my pen and both of us went outside, back to campus. I promised I’ll take her to her accommodation before heading home but, if I am honest, I kind of want to drive to Jesse for a quick stop, just for a day or twoo. Since the library is fixed now there shouldn’t be any issues with that. We went into Lucia's home which she usually shares with a roomy, though she’s currently sick at her parents place. Apparently some kind of infarction which, as a biology student, she didn’t want to bring to the entire class. Lucia sat crossed leg on her chair while spinning a view, meanwhile I layed down on the bed and looked at the ceiling. 

Lucia: Sooo, that Ethan huh? You think he’s hot. James: OH MY GOD! Do we really have to talk about that? Lucia: James you haven’t seen yourself it was like, watching you developing a marriage in your mind within three minutes of sight. I’m Italian, you can’t lie to me about love amore. James: Okay. He may or may not be  my type, like almost 100 percent. Lucia: So that’s your type then huh? James: Well, I don’t think I really have a type. But I also only ever had one Boyfriend and he kind of shared the same hair as Ethan does. I don’t know, I'm just confused. Lucia: Yeah, love can be difficult. James: Wrong, feelings can never be good with those kinds of things. Lucia: Kind of guessed that. James: Okay outsh? That was unnecessary. Lucia: I’m just messing around. James: I know I know. Oh, by the way, what have you been writing on the bill? That he can keep the change? Or did you tip him? Lucia: Even better! James: What could be better than a tip? Lucia: I just scribbled your number and discord on the bill.

I istendly spit all my water out again and started heavily caughting.

James: HAVE YOU LOST YOUR MIND?! Lucia: What, if he’s interested he’ll reach out. If not, I tried. James: I couldn’t even talk to him, Lucia. What in the hell am I supposed to do when he really reaches out?! I can’t just start a conversation with *ohh look I’m the weird dude from a few days ago that was too stunned to speak with you* Lucia: Oh my good James for fuck sake calm it! James: CALM YOUR TITTS AND THINK BEFORE YOU DO STUFF HOW ABOUT THAT!?

Lucia remained silent. No counter nothing, she was clearly thinking and processing. I may have overstepped it and went too far but so did she. She’s not mad, or angry, or annoyed. Lucia is the calmest person I know. If she makes a mistake she rather thinks clearly about what to say and how to approach the situation instead of just screaming at you. I really like that of her since I hate to get loud myself. Or well, fighting in general. I’m a pacifist through and through.

Lucia: I’m sorry, I see the error in my thinking. I shouldn’t have done that. James: I guess it’s too late anyways and who knows, maybe he just threw it away. Who knows. I’m also sorry for…wasting your water. Lucia: You don’t have to, it’s tap water anyways. James: At least now I know why it tastes like a rat's ass. Lucia: Blame the school not me. But like, in theory, what if he ends up sliding in your dm’s? James: Throwing my phone out the window while I threw up and sob? Lucia: James…. James: I really don’t know. I never had a date via phone and I totally suck at doing things successfully on the first try. Lucia: If you never try it how will you know that?

She’s right, she almost sounds like Jesse. I hate it. Only time when I use apps for dating it’s because of the need for sexual satisfaction which turns out to be sexual embarrassment and self hate anyways. Ugh…men. As much as I sometimes want a boyfriend, sometimes when a potential person is there I just ignore them. Jesse says I’m too much into red flags which, judged by my count of boyfriends might be true…but still…I lost my point, well done James. Anyhow, I can’t just straight up talk to Ethan like nothing ever happened. The first time we talked was when I was sweating like deer in the Mexican desert. Mexico doesn't have a dessert as far as I’m aware but I’m trying to make a point here. I don’t even know what I should reply. Worst case I just ask Jesse how they would do it. To be fair I actually plan on seeing them later that day anyway so we might even have a lill chatter about that too while we’re on it. Lucia and I just talked for a while, ignoring time or even the fact that the night was slowly making the way into our realm. I’m still trying to wrap my head around everything that has happened today. 

It didn’t take long and the both of us got hungry so we decided to call tonight a pizza night. While Lucia has been fighting with the dude on the telephone rather or not the pizza is an authentic Italian made one, I’ve decided to firstly call Sarah to inform her about me being away for a bit longer and then later sliding in Jesse discord dm’s to inform them that I’ll show up in a few. Lucia was still in a furry when she threw her phone across the room nearly hitting me with it since she planned to throw it into the bed. I calmed her down before she grabbed her laptop to do some studies for uni while we waited for our order to arrive. Meanwhile I was browsing through insta and other apps so I would stay focused as well. Nothing important, and even tho Lucia and I didn’t really talked in that moment it wasn’t awkward or anything like that. It was nice to just be here and knowing that someone is also here. We both recharged in our ways which I found really cool. Until my phone started buzzing. I looked it up and say that I got a discord message. I opened discord since I thought it was Jesse answering me but no. The message was from someone called @GreenOtter. Green Otter? WAIT. E. O. Green. Ethan O. Green. This…this message