― “...Every Word.”
title → “...every word.”
pairing → gray x female reader.
synopsis → gray and his idol girlfriend (who is the little sister of THE g-dragon) are in an on-again, off-again relationship.
word count → 1.9k.
a/n → ngl,, i would die for gray. and i guess all the people who follow this blog stan gd and really wanna be his sister or sumn sksksksk i don’t think this was completely the request, im sorry !!
“We broke up.”
“AGAIN?! Y/N! OH MY GOD! LET HIM GO!” Your friend, (Friend’s Name) shouted, throwing a pillow at you.
“OUCH! WHAT WAS THAT FOR?!”
“That was for dealing with this shit for how many years with this fucker now? Like three years?”
You huffed, covering your head with the pillow letting out a groan, “It’s been four years!”
She rolled her eyes, sitting next to you on your bed, grabbing the pillow to make you look up at her. You could already see the disappointed look in her face. You didn’t blame her for being disappointed.
She’s been your best friend since the two of you were kids. She didn’t want you to be hurt like this, and your “relationship” with Sunghwa was hurting you as well as him.
For 4 years now, you had been in an on-again and off-again relationship with Sunghwa. While girls your age were now either looking for a life partner to settle down with or starting to have kids, you didn’t want that.
You didn’t even want an actual relationship.
Despite your parents’ pleas for you to find someone to settle down with, you continued doing what you love, performing. Performing became your life, as it has always been since you were younger.
Being THE G-Dragon’s little sister always seems to put you in the light for whatever you had done. Even if it was simply going to a restaurant or park or even taking a walk by yourself. All eyes were on you.
Following in your brother’s footsteps, you had begun auditioning in companies at a young age. You took on SM Entertainment as that was the first place your brother auditioned, and you wanted to train alongside him.
You were accepted on your first attempt and became a trainee. Four years into your training period, Jiyong had left to go to YG. You had wanted to follow him, but he refused to let you, making you stay at SM.
Years later in 2006, Jiyong officially debuted as a member of BIGBANG under YG Entertainment. And then in the beginning of 2007, you officially debuted as a soloist under SM Entertainment.
While your concepts were completely different, many continued to draw parallels between the two of you.
During the stage of your first win, you were in tears and Jiyong had gone up to hug you, which sparked the interest of many. Seeing all the weird things people were saying, Jiyong had confirmed that you were his sister and his sister ONLY.
The two of you were known for your close relationship, which was why whenever Jiyong did something on TV, he was always asked about you. Whenever you did something on TV, you were always asked about him. The two of you were inseparable and have always been.
Your career was your lover. Your career was your baby. You didn’t have time for a relationship, and as mentioned earlier you didn’t want one. But you had needs. Netizens were breathing down your neck just to find something on you. Because you’re an unproblematic queen.
A dating scandal isn’t what you needed.
Then you met Sunghwa. On the night of the anniversary of your debut, you had gone to a club with your friend just to relax a bit, as you had been working hard on something for your fans. You really needed a break.
You saw him across the bar. You had seen his face around. You had known who he was. He didn’t? He was an amazing artist. You couldn’t help but introduce yourself. You at least wanted some kind of collab.
The looks of things, he knew you too. The two of you exchanged contact information and went from there.
It was then rumored to the public that the two of you might be working on a song together, and they weren’t too far off. That’s where it started...eventually becoming more than that.
You’d be lying to yourself if you didn’t say Sunghwa was a very attractive man. He was too hot for his own good.
One night, the two of you had gotten a little too drunk in the studio. One thing led to another and the next morning, you found yourself in his bare chest in your naked glory.
It was only supposed to happen one time.
But of course that it didn’t stop. He wanted you, he craved you, as you did him, beginning the on-again-off-again relationship the two of you have. It’s been like this for four years.
You’re together, everything is going well and then someone says something that pisses you off and everything falls apart and you break up. You had lost count of how many times you and Sunghwa OFFICIALLY ended things only to get back together the next week.
Now here you sat, with your best friend by your side, upset over your umpteenth breakup with Sunghwa that happened just yesterday.
“I don’t know why you do this to yourself. It’s like the both of you want to be with each other but then you don’t because you’re scared or something,” She mentioned.
You sighed, pulling the pillow back over your head, “He doesn’t want to be in a relationship with me.”
“Are you blind? Sunghwa has been dedicated to you and you only for 4 years now. Even when you guys broke up several times, he never ever even looked at another girl. If anything, Sunghwa fucking loves you.”
“Who the hell told you that?” You questioned, your voice kind of muffled by the pillow.
“Jay, of course.”
“Since when do you listen to Jay? I thought you hated him. What happened?”
She rolled her eyes, folding her arms across her chest, “I do hate him but I still listen to him...even though he’s the most annoying man to walk the planet. And Jay told me that all Sunghwa talks about is you, making you happy, hanging out with you, collabing with you. He’s fucking in love with you and you still don’t see it.”
You uncovered your face once more, looking at her, “That’s a lie. Sunghwa doesn’t want a relationship with anyone just as much as I don’t want one.”
“You’re right, he doesn’t want a relationship with anyone. He wants one with you, and you’re not just anyone, Y/N. Hell the boy wrote several songs about you. And don’t try to say they aren’t about you, because they are. And you’ve wrote several songs about him.”
Before you could speak, you felt your phone vibrate in your pocket. You reached into your pocket, pulling out your phone and bringing it to your face to see Jay’s name appear across the screen with a text, “Speak of the fucking devil.”
‘Baby GD, did something happen between you and Sunghwa?’ His text read.
‘We broke up, why?’ You replied back, waiting for Jay’s response. Worry filled your mind. Jay hadn’t always texted you about Sunghwa, let alone text you asking if something happened out of the blue.
Was he okay?
Did something happen?
Was he hurt?
“Y/N, you okay?” F/N asked. Before you could speak, Jay had responded. You looked down at the message, ‘He locked himself in his studio and he hasn’t been out in hours. We’re kinda worried about him.’
You had known what that meant. Sunghwa didn’t lock himself in his studio unless he was TRULY sad or angry.
‘I’ll be there in a minute.’
You climbed out of bed quickly, throwing on a jacket.
“Where are you going?”
“Sunghwa has locked himself in the studio again. I gotta go see him.”
“There you go again,” She sighed.
Annoyed, you turned to her with a worried expression on his face, “F/N, Sunghwa has locked himself in the studio, and no one knows how long he has been in there. The last time he did that, he didn’t eat for almost two days and almost passed out! I’m not letting him do that to himself again. I can’t, especially when it’s my fault. I need to go check on him.”
You grabbed your phone and bag, heading out of the room, leaving your friend in your apartment.
She shouted behind you, “MAKE SURE TO TELL HIM HOW MUCH YOU LOVE HIM!”
“NO PROMISES!”
You hopped in your car, heading to AOMG in a rush, but of course obeying the traffic laws.
You arrived shortly, AOMG wasn’t too far from where you had lived.
You parked your car and rushed inside, to see Jay waiting for you at the door.
“There you are, Baby G-Dragon. So what happened?”
“I’ll explain later. I just need to see him right now,” You replied, bypassing him, heading straight toward Sunghwa’s studio, slamming your fist on the door repeatedly, “Lee Sunghwa! Open the door!”
“Y/N?” His sweet voice chimed on the other side of the door. “Yes, it’s me. Now open the door!”
A few seconds of silence sounded before the sound of the door unlocking. The door opened to reveal Sunghwa with dark circles under his eyes. His eyes were red and puffy from crying, his hair was all over his head. He wore a grey hoodie and sweatpants, not caring what he had looked like in that moment. “Jay texted you, didn’t he?”
“Sunghwa, you look horrible.”
“Thanks for making me feel better,” He groaned, leaning against the door frame.
You pushed him further into the studio, closing the door behind you, noticing how dark it was. You turned on the light, “We’ve called it quits plenty of times before, why are you acting like this?”
“I don’t know. I guess...this one just really hurt. I thought it was going to be the end of us. I don’t want it to be the end of us,” He confessed, his eyes twinkling.
“Answer me this,” You started, making his ear perk up, “Lee Sunghwa, tell me how you truly feel about me, about us, about this. I want to hear every word.”
Without hesitation, he answered, “I love you, Y/N. I have for a long time now and I can’t get over it. I know we’ve both said that we don’t want a relationship, but with you it’s different. You’re different. We’re different. I...can’t be without you. Just the thought of you with someone who isn’t me hurts. I know how your company is. I know you need to maintain your good reputation and you wouldn’t risk it for a guy like me, but I―”
You cut him off, taking his soft face into your gentle hands, smashing your lips onto his in a passionate kiss. Without wasting a second, he relaxed against your lips, allowing his hands to snake around your waist gently.
You slowly pulled away, your eyes opening as had his. He stared into yours with admiration and love.
“I love you too, Sunghwa. I...I want things between us to work. I want us to work. I don’t just want to have you, I want to hold you, love you, kiss you, hug you. I want you all to myself,” You confessed, pressing your forehead against his.
You continued, “I want to lay in your chest on raining days and relax. I want to hear your heartbeat as I lay on your chest as you sleep. I want to make sure you are okay, every second of every day. I meant it when I said I love you.”
“I mean it too,” He smiled.
“So.”
“So.”
“Do you want to be my boyfriend?”
“Do you want to be my girlfriend?” The two of you asked at the same time. The two of you giggled.
“I asked first!”
“Nuh-uh, me!”
“No me!”
