all the people so many people & they all go hand in hand hand in hand through their parklife #blur #parklife _____________ lately I keep secretly muttering -I have no fucking energy- to myself & I could live in the shower for days if nothing required my attention & I only dress in real legit appropriate-for-public clothes if I must leave the house & be semi-professional or appear like a functioning adult & my diet is crap my gym attendance nil my self-care is ehhh ... ehhh. when Im present for my son its boss, life is fucking good everything is on point. I am in it. I am genuinely excited in this portrait with my son - thanks @craftycarmen for the wildly fun day at the academy!! but I am beginning to realize that if everything isnt go-go-go I dont feel like Im succeeding & I feel like I am not using my time wisely ... like if I have time to think I am not doing enough. so. I went to gym today not coz I look like shit or anything I like my body but I need time to actively meditate & reflect & read trash magazines coz I love that shit & its a guilty pleasure I deserve to enjoy. I need to figure out what actions to take to continue to become someone I admire & respect more. I think I need to set some goals & start making plans. having a purpose is mandatory. action is mandatory. this is me rambling because this is where I am at. and at the same time its pretty simple for me to just close my eyes in a warm breeze & realize Ive got everything I want/need - I am not waiting for my dealer to re-up or answer my call, I am not sitting on some street corner waiting for them to arrive, Im not in some public bathroom stressing trying to hurry & hit myself while people are pounding on the door, Im not sick kicking wondering if this time will be the last time, Im not in a holding cell wondering when I'll feel the breeze again xox #warmbreeze #gratefuladdict #ontheroad #onstage #concertphotographer #tourphotographer #workingmom #toddlerlife #wildandfreechildren #toddlerontheloose #toddlerbreastfeeding #toddlermom #punksgoneparent #ourcandidlife #thehappynow #sobermom #sobrietyrocks #cleanandsober #giftsofrecovery #soberaf #odaat #wedorecover (at San Francisco Bay Area) https://www.instagram.com/p/BqLbDtNHNrJ/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=92bj9ib6ylz2
