to celebrate california becoming the first state to end CASH BAIL I am throwing up some extremely personal ephemera from my last sentence, served right before my universe changed as a result of getting clean & getting recovery. these post cards were sent to my ex-husband who was also in custody at the time. I went in on Sept 22nd 2014 & got out Dec 23rd 2014 after pleading guilty to the felony charge of possession (of heroin) for sale. at the time I couldnt imagine my life with my husband at the time ... our relationship festered over 10 years of history from the street to a condo to a house to an RV to a jail cell. right now his bones rest on a bunk at Calipatria State Prison. am I grateful the universe offered me the GRACE to sever ties with my sickness that manifests in drug addiction & codependency? fuck yeah I am. grace got me my seat in the rooms of recovery but my actions & attitude allow me to earn & keep it. after the ephemera sit collages of before/after; the 1st & 3rd I made at 6mo clean in 2015 - the 2nd & 4th I made at 3y & 6mo clean in 2018. the middle split image is my jail ID card from 2006 when I served time on a felony grand theft auto, beneath it me out of custody & off probation visiting the jail in Ventura as part of an amends to myself. I meant to do this last week when it happened but Im a mom with a job, 10 fucking bands on Saturday to juggle the merch of, totally hoped to be on point & post this last friday but its Monday & thats ok xox #bail #jailmail #onstage #ontour #livemusic #concertphotographer #tourphotographer #workingmom #toddlerbreastfeeding #toddlermom #punksgoneparent #ourcandidlife #thehappynow #addiction #addictionrecovery #sobermom #sobrietyrocks #cleanandsober #giftsofrecovery #12steps #workthesteps #soberaf #justfortoday #odaat #wedorecover (at Ventura County Jail) https://www.instagram.com/p/BnRj3Cwg30B/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1hg00gpme5k79
