#goodbyesarehard

This part never gets easier. After being out of the hospital for a whole 5 weeks (the longest I've been out of the hospital in the past couple of years), I am admitted once again. Hopefully this won't be a long stay and I won't have to tell my baby girl goodbye every night. She knows this routine too well and it breaks my heart. But she sees momma being strong and fighting extremely hard every second of every day to be a healthy mommy for her. Melody Grace, you are my everything and I will never stop trying to get better for you. #beautifulbabygirl #goodbyesarehard #gastroparesis #gp #livingwithgastroparesis #livingwithgp #chronicillness #spoonie #professionalpatient #gastricneurostimulator #pacemaker #portacath #hospitalbaby #hospitallife (at Bayshore Medical Center)

And I suppose I’m still trying to understand how this can be.

Oct 15, 2010 - Feb 15, 2021 10 years of memories. Leading up to this. Its not fair. I love you Olivander Charlie Bigglesworth Felshaw. Ridiculously long name, for a phenomenally awesome fur baby. ❤🐾🌈 #Oliver #catsofinstagram #goodbyesarehard #thanksforthememories ❤ https://www.instagram.com/p/CLWVxLaBGxh/?igshid=k7xavquhzsmy

Well it's about time to say goodbye to these islands. What a rejuvenating trip. I've met so many cool people - what are the odds I write a sappy post about it tomorrow? I'll give you 2-to-1. : I hope you're a little better for sharing this journey with me. I've enjoyed sharing it with you. . . . #goodbyehawaii #goodbyesarehard #oceanair #clearwaters #vitaminsea #islandvibes #paradiseisland #tropicalvibes #islandtime #islandparadise #sunandsea #saltescape #sunshinetherapy #unlimitedparadise #atthebeach #endlesssummer #beachphotography (at Hawaii) https://www.instagram.com/p/CHYQ8RqA6Lu/?igshid=q6t2r7zmiatc

I have decided I am closing down How To Female. I just got off the phone after an hour phone call about my premium plan. I was calling to see why my domain expired even though I upgraded the site on Tuesday. I found out that the domain, Analytics, and other benefits I had during the first year will not be part of the plan. That means I would have to pay $19 USD per month for 10 GB extra storage, unlimited broadband which I was already getting, excess to upload 2 hour videos instead of 1 hour and no wix ad’s. That’s all I’d get for $19 USD a month. When I started the site, I was under the impression I’d get those benefits (domain, etc) everytime I renewed the site, but no, that’s an extra cost on top of it. No where on the wix site does it say I don’t get that. It’s not worth me putting so much money into this site if no one is gonna even use it. I have almost 1k followers and barely anyone is active on it. I put hours of work into the site and my own money for what feels like nothing. All I am trying to do is help people, but I can’t do it anymore. This site is going no where. It would take a few hundred people to change my mind about this.. this means I have to give up any chances I have with @geeky_sex_toys and future collaboration with @good_vibes_boxes but I’m sorry, I can’t do this anymore.. If you wanna try and prove to me why paying so much money for a site that no one uses, then go ahead... I have so much respect for those who actually put time into reading and commenting on my site. I love you for it. I am sorry for giving up on you.... #howtofemale #goodbyehowtofemale #savehowtofemale #goodbye #goodbyesarehard #iquit https://www.instagram.com/p/CBmqrH0pzGS/?igshid=7txjezn95wmt

Onto new adventures! A few goodbyes with the remaining staff I have spent the past 6 months with in Manning Park Resort. . . #newadventures #livingabroad #goodbyesarehard #travel #canada #britishcolumbia #friends #internationalfriends #aussiebackpacker #friendsthatcantakephotos #forgotaboutsocialdistancing #timetostartworkingagain #sofetravel #travelgram #snow #spring (at British Columbia) https://www.instagram.com/p/B_v9ifCFZDW/?igshid=uuxyi80s7fqp

This has been a very trying month for me. And I've been in off and on tears, heck it's hard even doing this post cause I never thought I'd ever be posting this. But tomorrow would have marked 5 years of having Lucinda....Feb 24th, got into a fender bender. Thought it be a simple nose job and I'd have her back good as new......March 5th, it was deemed too costly to fix and it was better to just junk her. Cleaning her out, saying my goodbyes and sorries, cause I had let her down. It was an extremely hard day for me. Like Mary Jane, Lucinda became more than just the mommy car for me, hell we drove to New York and back! My second drive or die.....March 17th, let me introduce you to Blu, aka my timey whimey Tardis car. n_n Ain't she a beauty!? She's got nothing on my dear Lucy, but I'm hoping she will be an adventure just the same!!! 🚙💙 #goodbyesarehard #Lucinda #2015Fiesta #hellonewcar #Blu #2018FocusSE (at Ford of Clermont) https://www.instagram.com/p/B94sYFWh2NZ/?igshid=13blk9yq1ygbi

A wee smile for my friend Jessica Chapple. We say goodbye today. But it's never really goodbye as they live on in our hearts. #goodbyesarehard #celebrationoflife #loveneverdies #missyou #friendsforever https://www.instagram.com/p/B8CMdu1pjwe/?igshid=d40o4t6sb23y