What made you want to start writing Unbreakable?
(PS I got tumblr for your Gonjo theories lol)
Wow, thank you so much for asking! And first of all let me say that Iām really honoured that you care enough about my theories to make this account š„ŗ I need to post more to be honest, but right now a lot of them are caught in a trap of being spoilers for the next important project.
As for why I wanted to write Unbreakable⦠the short answer is that, as a Yeong stan I was unsatisfied with Taegon, and it annoyed me so much that I felt compelled to write a fic to fix that SKFSLKJFKLJK something where Gon would have to face consequences for how Yeong was mistreated, before eventually they would be able to make each other happy for the rest of their lives. This was⦠perhaps inspired a little by my own life at the time, where I was in a complicated situation with a straight girl that I liked, a kind of situation where it was almost as if we were together even though we werenāt⦠and recently sheād got a boyfriend, and I was pretty heartbroken despite having no real reason to be š
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itās embarrassing looking back, but I connected with Yeong a lot because I saw my situation at the time in how he might have felt about Taegon.
The longer answer is that while that was the initial reason, it quickly became more than that. I have a bad habit of writing the first chapter of a fic without really knowing where itās going, I just know where I want it to start, and only when that first chapter is done do I really start thinking about ācoolerā twists and turns for the story to take. The act of writing the fic itself made me start thinking about Yeongās family, and wanting to explain the age gap between Yeong/Eunseob and the twins while also trying to explain why Yeong is the way he is. I have a habit of making myself sad while daydreaming about my beloved blorbos, and my general rule of thumb is āohh this would be awful - letās write it!ā
The surprising thing for me, however, was how as the story progressed⦠it stopped being a way to vent from Yeongās point of view, and I started to really identify a lot more with Gon as I was writing. Obviously I was still feeling Yeong as well, but what started off as a way to complain about Gon turned into something where I really wanted to explain his point of view in a way that was sympathetic and understandable. To be honest, I think a lot of this came from my friends at the time telling me that they think Iām autistic, and then me looking at Lee Gon and going āwait a damn minute⦠why does the research Iāve been doing seem to fit with how Iāve been writing him?ā Then I started projecting, and from about chapter 11? 12? onwards I started doing what Iād accidentally been doing before on purpose, and that also became a big driving factor. This is a hill I will die on, and at some point in the next⦠well, few years, being honest with myself about how fast Iām working now Iām at uni, I do want to make a post on this headcanon for Gon because itās important to my heart, but I want to finish my detailed rewatch of the show first. TL;DR, halfway through writing I switched sides from being a Yeong defender to a Gon apologist, and then that became a big driving force for the fic.
But mostly⦠they just live rent-free in my head, and that was the summer after I finished school so I had a lot of free time to write, and I really enjoyed working all my headcanons at the time into a fic that tied up enough loose ends to satisfy me after the show just left me feeling frustrated. Nowadays, Unbreakable is kind of out of date for me honestly - working on another fic with @irregularpeach has created so many more headcanons than I ever could have dreamed up on my own, and now the multiverse is pretty extensive in my mind š
I hope you didnāt regret asking me this question - itās perhaps a mistake to get me talking about my precious blorbos, because I will talk. From my part, thank you for giving me this opportunity to shamelessly witter on about my fic, this really made me smile when I saw it!