Dear me,
I am sorry for hurting you and not being able to protect you more from yourself and others. I’m sorry that the love I have for you I wish others gave you unconditionally. I know the things you have done for the people you cared for and trusted have left you asking what’s wrong with you? I know that when your upset you don’t know where to run so you hide and cry yourself to exhaustion just to repeat it once more. I realize that when your upset you feel so much that you push away. I apologize for the people who have used your heart and body for their own self-esteem leaving you wondering if that’s all that you are worth? I can’t help but put a wall up for you in order to not allow anyone to hurt you until eventually you can’t help want to give love no matter how angry you wish to be. I’m sorry that you live in world where people want materilistic things more than human love because in that I know you only live for. I am sorry that I have so many expectations of you that I make you forget that you have already accomplished so much by continuing to live. Which is the reason you have anxiety every day. I can’t bare to feel bad that I’m not the only one but others too. I am sorry that I know more then others that you have tried to harm yourself while being frozen in your own tears that you fight back. I just wish that people knew how to own up to the promises they gave you and yet break all the time. I sometimes can’t help feel that your so innocent at heart that you always want to take care of others feelings while you think they are thinking of yours when that is not true because I know I love you. You hide in your reflection hoping that someone will think your worth it because in that you still see yourself as “the witch”. If only people knew how much you do to just try and make them feel better. You are such a sweet girl underneath all your flaws and choices that in the end even I am upset that after so long I wish you had the chance to hold on to happiness a bit longer before life takes it course again. You hide in your world for periods of time because you feel that your dreams are the only ones that care about you. Most people don’t know that you always change places because you are searching for that home that no longer leaves you feeling lonely. You are all I have I just want to see you happy . You are not the mirror you see, nor the physical or psychological thought that people think you are. You are so willing to be whatever anyone wants that in the end that is the reason why I love you for that big broken heart you have because through your lense I love you until the end. I’m just really sorry that today this is the only promise I can give you my beautiful amazing women girl. In a world full of fishes you are the one that deserves to be happy, loved and cared for. You are one in a million.
-Your infiniteheart.
