#goddamnit malcolm

I AM STILL MAD ABOUT THIS!!!

And yes. I am going to post this again because Bri has not apologized for the harm this image that was up for... mmm, 12ish hours has definitely been done, and will continue to do. I am going to yap about this because, this is bad! This isn't a oopsie, its made its way around because THE INTERNET IS FOREVER!!!

Now for some thoughts!

•"She didn't actually draw a transohobic character because C!Lily is cis!!!" You and I know that is bullshit. That's it. She even says this is an "accurate version" of Lily. The main inaccuracy for C!Lily is her not being cis.

And besides, tell me, WITH YOUR FULL CHEST, that she would draw any cis woman lolcow like this. Tell me.

•"This is just how Lily looks on the inside!!!" Go back up. Look at my first point. Ok?

Not gonna Ronald Dahl yourself outta this. If this was "how she looked on the inside," then it would be Liquids art. She purposefully chose all the physical traits that has been said that Lily had herself, is self-conscious about, or has been noted by other people. It is specifically a jab at her physical appearance.

•Just the way that fucking stupid leek is there pisses me off because;

1. It shows how Bri has no concept on the effect sexual assault has on victims other than "I can add a bloodied and ripped skirt for AnGsT and EdGE!!!" Great job. Great fucking job.

2. It shows that Bri cares more about that fucking Gardevor more than any of Lily's actual victims because she put so much effort into you knowing that Lily's perfect sister-wife is "ACTUALLY A VICTIM AS WELL YOU GUYS!!!" When she is written to be the opposite in the Pokémad house comic.

Along with her calling Britt and several others stalkers for rightfully being upset, having to be banned from Lily's first victim and bio sister's discord for posting the incest baby (Bonnie), and that I've been told by Bri that G IS HER FUCKING FAVORTITE CHARACTER FROM MADHOUSE!!!

•Bri has a history of being weird about trans women. I have proof of this because I was a part of some of these convos. She's even says she doesn't like viewing Lily as a trans woman/woman in general. Which, should have been a RED FLAG, but my empathetic ass was like, "She just doesn't understand."

But she is transphobic. 100%. I'm not gonna hold her hand on this. Not when she says this-

Yes, this made me incredibly uncomfortable and like I wasn't safe around her, but she was only cool with me because I am AFAB and still mostly feminine. I've had these screenshotted and saved for months, and they still make me angry. They make me feel stupid for not seeing this bright red flag.

You, as a cis person, do not get to say shit about anyone's transfers.

Because I am a big boy with big boy responsibilities who has been dealing with big boy shit in my own life I've chosen to more so disengage and obstain from saying anything as it pertains to certain parties I used to be involved with-- wishing them absolutely no ill will, just not really interacting anymore. Saying anything at all publically being a sure fire way to get myself dragged into litigating private shit where the peanut gallery can all watch.

But a good friend of mine,

@thetepes

Or "Sheev" has been implicated now. So I'm going to say something at risk of that happening.

To the people in Malcom's server who have heard Sheev is a "tyrant" and that they "can't have a normal conversation when she is around"-- I know exactly which discord users are saying that. And why. And there's a multitude of screenshots (and an ungodly amount of fucking voice memos) that will give *full context* to what actually happened if they keep talking shit.

Including a certain person, in response to sheev explaining to them she's deaf and did not have her hearing aids in after they repeatedly sent her voice memos, saying, direct quote, "you're not really deaf. You just don't want to listen."

All of that shit is still accessible. The fatphobic comments, the abelism. All of it.

You know who you are. Last warning, bud. The fact that you still haven't fucking moved on is pathetic.

“Old families have a lot of skeletons in their closet”

“Yeah, mine had 23”

My opinion of Sai hasn't changed really that drastically one way or the other. As far as I'm aware, we're still on good terms (after this post that might change, but so it must be.) I'm saying this at the start of this post so it's harder to crop out should the cringe continue and this get included in some sort of "SAI'S ALLIES ALL TURN ON HER!" comp or some shit.

If you're looking for someone to confirm for you Sai's some incidious malefactor-- you're not going to get that here. I know a lot of you who Sai's antagonized are young-- and I'm not trying to invalidate your rage. But if you'd listen to this old man for one second-- the internet is real good at whipping people up into a intensity of emotion rarely ever appropriate. For every reason I have already given in defense of Sai, I'm not going to be able to match that energy. The exact same disagreements I've had with Sai from the beginning hold true.

It feels stupid to be frank that by curse of me making the pour decision to make a parody shitposting tumblr I'm in this position in the first place to have to say something publically. I'm literally fucking no one, but.

There's really no tea here-- I drifted away from Sai for the exact same reasons Ant and Crim did. Around the same time too-- which was months ago. A bunch of small things added up. Uncomfortable comments, tense discussions, the asymmetric standards in which some people got banned, and some didn't.

If you're looking for confirmation that I had one interaction too many with either Sai directly or what was considered permissible in her community-- yep. I did. Things indeed were said and done that surpassed my level of tolerance. To me and about others. And sai if you're reading this and thinking, "well why didn't you talk to me?" I did. And i know others attempted to aswell. We were never that close-- so I don't think you would have appreciated me pushing any further than I did. I have a "no saying shit you wouldn't say to people's face" policy. You want to hear it I'll lay out for you every single one of my grievances. I'll send you my *own* screenshots of everything I've said about you were you can't see. Happily. But I'm telling you right now it's nothing I didn't try to at least lightly confront you about already. You should have a very clear idea of what and why I peaced out. And I've been as respectful as I can of the fact you've made it clear you disagree.

I never even left. I just stopped opening it when the amount I'd see shit that pissed me off just reached a point it was better to just not. Not unless someone pinged me. If anyone who's still in Sai's discord is going to get upsetti spaghetti by me making this post-- like, what do you want from me? Are you suggesting Sai or anyone is entitled to my mental energy? I got better shit to worry about, my dudes.

I know how this dog and pony show goes. I saw you guys calling Ant and Crim all sorts of things. Regardless of the fact the only reason any of us have had to publically say anything is because people around Sai are getting dragged into her drama by association.

Genuinely, no ill will to Sai. She's a person on her own path that makes her own choices. That part is probably going to fall on deaf ears-- I know what the internet is like, but. I just ran out of spoons man. The vibes were no longer on point for me dawg. I'm not one to burn bridges. Peace and love. All father bless you on your travels. You need not seek any forgiveness from me. It's chill. We good sis.

Though I imagine me saying that isn't going to feel any less like you're being kicked while you're down-- and I'm sorry. Genuinely. I promise I had no plans to say anything publically until I had to for Sheev's sake. Thems the breaks.

This shock collar hysteria has really made me realize just how much people don't train their dogs properly.

Now I suppose there are quite a few dog breeds you can kinda get away with not having the best, most structured training with. With some dogs, good enough is good enough, but.

Kaya is 100+ pounds and part Chow Chow. Very sweet baby, but could have easy become an actual threat to herself and others if she wasn't trained properly.

Because you guys don't watch Hasan's content I'm guessing you didn't see what a little menace she was as a puppy and how MUCH Hasan had to work with her to get her to well-behaved good girl she is today.

She's a rescue-- rehoming situation. He had no idea what breed mix she was when he got her-- but he has experience with training dogs, so. When he identified that Kaya was on a whole other level when it came to the havoc she could cause (both by getting a DNA test and just-- well, her observable behavior and how big she could possibly get) he did the responsible thing and got a professional trainer to come in and get this shit locked down.

And even with the best dog trainers in the world-- if you don't reinforce the training, it's not going to be nearly as effective at controlling the dog.

I'm no expert on dogs myself, to be clear, but one of my uncle's retirement hobby was dalmatians. He loved his dalmatians. But if you don't know about what they are like-- they are actually one of the breeds I'd almost say if fair to make people get a license to own. That he had them while I was a child and they were safe for kids to be around at all is a testimate to how well he trained them. And when I was old enough to not get scared by him being frank with me as to why, he explained it. (Side note: "Jean-Guy Joy" is a pen name. This is actually the uncle I got that name from, "Jean-Guy." He was a cool guy-- for many reasons. Rest in peace oncle Guy.)

Anyway. Hasan literally brought Kaya to the No Kings protest. That's how well trained and well desensitized she is.

I'll be honest I don't really know who Blackishhh is. Like I know of him, I've seen him mentioned a few times.

I'm not really following any of the chatter, like outside of what I'm sent tbh. And anything I end up watching based on my own curiosity.

And uh-- okay, I don't know what he said, I'm going off of what you're telling me right now-- I. . . Personally don't blame people at this point to assuming Sai is a zionist. Based on everything else, I understand why no one is willing to give her the benefit of the doubt on that.

Do I think she is? No. I think she, if anything, has demonstrated she's totally lost when it comes to what's going on with the Palestinian genocide. Which isn't a . . . Surprise to me. But.

I genuinely fear me saying that is going to immediately trigger ten people sending me screenshots of her being an obvious zionist-- and if those exist, I'll eat my words lol.

(Yes I've seen the 'From the River to the Sea' post. As I currently understand it though that slogan has been widely accepted by the pro-Palestine movement and I am in support of it personally. But, it is not totally agreed upon as productive even among Palestinians and anti-zonist jews in the movement. That's going to happen with any rallying cry in a political moment though.

Do I think Sai knows that? No. But her having disagreements with it 'sending an aggressive message' or whatever is very predictable to her typical liberal fencesitting. Or she's literally that committed to being anti-Hasan she'll use that to suggest he's an asshole too. Aggravating but . . .

I don't know guys. You tell me. I'm really not an authority here. My opinions here are genocide bad. Apartheid bad. American puppet states bad. If this is a bad take you're welcome to yell at me in the anons over it. I'll for sure hear you out.

Free Palestine. From the river to the sea.)

But uh-- yeah. Anti-seminitsm ain't cute broskies. Even with a pro-palestine tag on it. The Jewish diaspora is not Israel. The Israeli people are not Israel. No Nick Fuentesing. Bad. Naughty. Don't make me take out the spray bottle.

On the topic of me and Sheev (thetepes)-- honestly it wouldn't surprise me at all if no one covers what I've been talking about ever.

I mean we're kinda nobody. Totally auxiliary. Sheev is slightly more notable than me as a mod, but.

Honestly I'd be shocked if any channels covering this know I exist? And even then I'm just kinda a rando.

But uh. . . I don't know. If any youtubers are reading this-- eh, bonjour vous gars? Je suppose? Uh if you want anything summarized or to message me feel free. I'm an open book. I'm willing to chat with whoever. I'm not going to talk shit where I don't feel it's warranted and you're not going to be able to egg me into saying something harsher than I already have been. But I'll be honest, so.

But uh-- yeah, ghost, even if Opp block or Beckett or Blackishhh or fucking Lio or whoever else know who I am, I'm not really being mean enough here to be worth it to acknowledge me probably.