#god this one sucks...

Helena Klein x fem!(MC)reader for @thealehazeleyes warning-ish: more of, even though milder, jealous Helena. slight angst but sweetness overload! phew, finally done! I’m really sorry this took so long to write! but since I wasn’t given much of a plot to work with it took me a little more time. but here it is! and I hope you all enjoy it!

It’s a beautiful day. Well as beautiful as a cloudy day can get. But even during biggest lightning storms there is one thing that lights up Helena’s day like moon and stars light up midnight sky. She doesn’t understand why but you are her reason for every smile she gets, every giggle that threatens to escape past her lips. Just every emotion that gives her this warm feeling inside. She’s not used to it, far from it. After all her queen made sure she’ll never know the feeling of love and being loved. But when you entered her world you flipped it upside down. It confuses her greatly, not just the fact that someone sharing Witch Queen’s face could be so different. Ever since your arrival she has been trying to process how your world of thoughts works and she’s been having an extra eye on you to call out your bluff the moment you let your guard down. But she has found none as of yet and that is annoying her a lot. She is almost certain any moment now you are going to drop your surprisingly good disguise and tell Wolfson and his grew to attack them. While so, she also truly wants to believe in your kindness, to hold on to that little sparkle of hope to have this feeling stay. No matter how much she tries to tell herself that the Witch Queen wouldn’t approve of it, that she doesn’t need it, she still has to admit she in fact likes it. All thanks to you.

Helena is just about to pass one of the huge windows on crystallized hall when something catches corner of her eye. Curious she walks closer to it and she sits on the cool windowsill. She sees you together with Alain both of you sitting on the garden bench among the spiked flowers. Her eyes narrow immediately, the dark feeling she has come to know returning to her very core. She doesn’t know why would she ever feel this way but seeing you there, laughing with Alain irks her so much that she wants to get down and sweep you away. And the fact that he used to be your childhood friend makes matters a lot worse. Of course she has been hiding it as well. After all it’s inappropriate to go after the queen if she has already decided otherwise. But it doesn’t mean the attention you seem to give Alain goes unnoticed by her. Oh no, the complete opposite and how she wishes it were her you had your eyes on. She slaps herself lightly to awaken herself from the daze. No, this is not right. She shouldn’t be even feeling this way. She shouldn’t feel… jealous of her own comrade. But oh, how she does. Even though more slowly, Helena started picking on jealousy whenever she’d  see you and Alain even glance at each other and she wishes she knew why. In fact, she does know, she just doesn’t want to admit it. And there’s the fact when the Witch Queen is back there will be no room for… love. You’ll be most likely disposed of anyway once the queen returns. That thought always brings her a bang of thread and her will to protect you awakens, and this time isn’t any different. With those feelings present again as well her build up anger flares just a little bit hotter.

‘’What are you doing to me, little girl? What are you planning?’’ she asks no one, not that there’s even anyone to answer. She curls her fingers to a fist on her lap as her hard gaze keeps following your every move. This all is so maddening. So much so that she thinks she has gone insane the very least. All of the confusion, jealousy and… compassion, as she’d word it, has brought her to the point where she doesn’t even know what to do with you. Even more importantly what to do with herself. Frustrated sigh escapes her lips before she takes a calming breath. This isn’t the moment to let it go loose. She needs to concentrate on her one and only goal at the moment. Yes, that’s what she needs to do. Just concentrate on the future yet to come she’s been so hungrily waiting for. But then why does it feels so wrong?

She watches Alain stand, probably suggesting you two get back in to the castle. Seeing you shake your head no makes her jealousy ease somewhat, even more so as the man finally nods and leaves you alone on the bench to take in the garden’s beauty. While feeling happy about Alain finally leaving your presence she doesn’t move, she keeps sitting still and watching you as seconds turn to minutes. She could stare at you for hours and she’d never get bored. You’re just so magical, in your own sense. A siren whom only needs to smile and she has everyone already under her spell. Just what she wouldn’t do to be the cause of that smile. Suddenly something hitting the window catches her attention. A rain drop? It seems it’s about to rain soon enough and judging by the clouds it’s going to come down heavy and dreadful.

She sees you shielding your head with one arm, the pour down is probably starting sooner than she thought. Without realizing it she waves her fingers in front of the window creating an invisible forcefield above you just a second before the rain starts coming down as a heavy shower. She watches you look up above your head totally confused and once you realize you have a forcefield above your head you try to look for the source of the magic. Helena bites her lower lip slightly, wondering to herself what is she doing. She cares only about getting her queen back and nothing else, especially of some strange girl that popped out of nowhere and just happens to look like her queen. Okay maybe a little but no more than that. Right?

Her eyes widen slightly in surprise as she suddenly registers your grey eyes staring up at her. She can’t help a smile as she sees you waving slightly and smiling at her, grateful and bright, before running back in to the castle’s walls. Helena makes sure to drop the little spell as soon as she’s sure you are under at least some kind of shelter, smile still remaining. Suddenly she scoffs and shakes her head. No, she can’t let you do this to her. She is loyal to her queen and her alone. She can’t be changed, there’s no way. Then why are you doing so good job at it? Helena runs her hand through her hair looking back out, her eyes reflecting all the crippling emotions going on in her mind. She leans her forehead against the cool surface of the glass, her eyes closing tight.

‘’Whatever am I going to do?’’ she whispers to nothing, the quiet echo of empty hall being her only answer.

                                        ~*~O~*~

Another day of confusion, another day of unsorted feelings. Helena scoffs as she rubs the corners of her tired eyes while continuing her journey along the long halls. She didn’t get much sleep last night, all she could think about was you and what to do with this… situation. She still has to come up with anything clever, still refusing to believe she’d have any feelings towards you. You’re not her queen, recently she noticed, not really even in looks. Her queen is all way cold and ruthless while you are-.

‘’Warm and gentle’’, she says quietly almost in actual awe. Her eyes widening, she stops on her tracks shaking her head. Helena silently curses herself for letting such words slip past her dark painted lips. She needs to concentrate on the task at hand: forget about whatever this is and get her queen back. Only if it were as simple as she makes it sound. Sighing she decides she needs some fresh air and her thoughts back on her queen. She looks out of the window meeting her answer and likely savior behind the painted glass. The rose gardens. Smiling slightly, she calmly continues her way, anxiously waiting for some comfort from the tall flower beds. When Helena finally reaches the gates to the garden she stops for a moment to listen. She hears a sweet humming sound that hasn’t graced these gardens before. Frowning ever so slightly she makes her way stealthily towards the sound. When she finally looks around the corner her breath catches in her throat her eyes widening slightly. She sees you moving around by the roses, the soft light emitting from the white flowers making your whole appearance shine more brightly. As you stand in front of a tall wall of leaves your angelic humming stops just for a moment. You lean closer to the roses to breath in the sweet scent of them, a content sigh escaping your lips. Helena blushes slightly as she stares at you awestruck. Every move that you make, every little sound that manages to get through doesn’t go unnoticed by the sorceress. Helena is absolutely drawn in by you, her whole world now focusing just on you. Your siren’s spell has done it again, she is absolutely awestruck, your humming tempting her to get closer. But before she can take even one step the spell is broken once more by her sheer willpower. Helena looks down biting her lip, her eyes narrowed a little sadly and frustrated. Why of all times you had to be here? Why some higher power wants to test her like this? Then again, she’d rather have you here than anywhere near Alain, or the other generals for that matter. She makes her decision; instead of mobbing around here she needs to do something else. Destroying few practice dummies should do the trick. She straightens her posture and takes a deep calming breath, giving you one more glance that is supposed to be the last for today. Just when she’s about to turn on her heel you turn around and your eyes lock with hers. Well damn it.

‘’Oh Helena! Hi! I didn’t see you there. Would you like to join me?’’ you offer with a smile. After a moment’s hesitation Helena finally nods making you beam at it. She grows nervous upon seeing it, trying her best not to show it as she walks up to you. The two of you sit down on the bench, both of you on either side of it. Awkward silence falls, neither of you sure of what to say. This continues for a moment longer until you decide to break the silence.

‘’So… What you’ve been up to?’’.

‘’Uh, nothing much’’, Helena starts out slowly:’’I thought of practicing more on few of my spells. I haven’t exactly mastered them.

‘’Really?’’ you ask your voice filled with surprise:’’But I thought you were plenty strong with magic’’. Helena can’t help the chuckle that makes its way up her throat, a smile forcing its way on its place. The surprise and little confusion on your features is just too hard to resist.

‘’I am plenty strong but there is still all kinds of magic that I haven’t managed to master yet’’, she answers simply, holding both pride in her abilities and excitement for learning something new. That makes you smile and you scoot a little closer to her.

‘’Can I watch when you practice? I don’t think I’ve ever seen you practice yet’’, you tell her, hope clearly shining in your eyes. Helena looks taken aback, seemingly not expecting you to ask such thing. She knows you’ll be a big distraction so she should say no. Then again, she should be able to work her spells even under highest of pressures as her queen has been teaching her.

‘’Um I suppose, yes’’, she says before she can stop herself but the light sparkling in your eyes makes it totally worth it.

‘’Thank you so much, Helena! Can’t wait!’’ you beam at her. The sorceress blushes softly as she looks slightly away. Okay, this is going better than she expected this to go. Wait what is she thinking?! Of course it’s not! She came down here to forget about you but instead here she is, sitting right next to you and talking to you and whatnot! How if ever she wishes she could make the earth swallow her.

‘’Helena, are you okay?’’ you suddenly ask, worry lacing your voice. She looks at you a little surprised, realizing her displeasure must’ve been visible on her face to cause you to look at her with such worry.

‘’Oh. Yes, I’m just-‘’, she begins but she stops when she hears slight movement in the bushes further away at the edge of the forest. Snapping her gaze right at it, she in one quick swift move gets up to stand and moves right in front of you, having her blades at ready. With narrowed eyes, she looks around everywhere where eyes just reach, not seeing any source that could have caused the noise. But she knows someone, or something, is out there and she’s just about to find out what.

‘’Who’s there?! Show yourself!’’ her commanding voice booms mightily around the area scaring a few birds. She sure can be powerful even though she doesn’t raise her voice that much and you find that highly impressive. Not long after more rustling is heard and the creature in the shadows makes itself known. It’s… a fox? But not just any fox, instead of usual red coat it has beautiful silky silver fur, reminding you a lot from winter. It cutely sniffs the ground before it locks its black button eyes with Helena’s deep blue ones. After long staring competition between her and the animal Helena realizes whom it belongs to. The sorceress loosens her stance, scoffing at the silvery creature:’’It’s just one of Jinhai’s pets’’. You’re surprised Jinhai would have an animal of that kind as a pet but then again foxes are beasts too in a sense. Helena turns her head slightly as she hears something moving behind her but when she sees you she calms down completely. She still doesn’t understand how you are able to do it but something about your presence just does it to her. Slight redness taints her cheeks when she finally realizes how close you stand next to her, your sides almost touching. She studies the studious look on your face, finding it extremely cute. Cute? No no, she can’t be going there, she just can’t. Just when Helena’s about to look away, embarrassed, you catch her attention by breaking the fallen silence.

‘’You know, I think it’s very beautiful’’.

‘’Beautiful?’’ Helena voices her confusion raising her eyebrow curiously. She raises it more as you suddenly look the other way slight redness finding its way on your face as well.

‘’Y-Yes. It reminds me of you’’, you admit trying your best not to let the blush show. Helena gets startled, not expecting those words to leave your lips. Very visible blush decorates her cheeks as she’s frozen on where she stands trying to register what she just heard. Did she even hear you right? Helena feels more heat rushing to her in waves the more she thinks about it, her brain trying to understand these feelings. Surely you, her for now supposed queen, don’t find her attractive? No, she must have heard you wrong, she must have. Helena looks away trying to form an intelligent sentence before saying a word but she finds herself unable to.

‘’It’s an amazing creature. Mysterious, sleek and absolutely beautiful’’, you break the silence with an absentminded edge to your voice. Helena’s eyes widen and she quickly turns your way, her eyes searching your face, trying to find anything that shows any sign of a lie. But she finds none. And now she can’t turn away. That dreamful edge you have has completely captured her attention, her eyes and mind focusing on you and you only, everything else disappearing from all around her. Suddenly she’s brought back to earth as she catches you moving quickly to your side to face her, nervousness very much clear on your every feature. Even in your forever cute smile.

‘’Oh, and thank you for saving me, my sorceress in shining armor’’, you say quickly leaning in and you peck her cheek before running off to the safety of the castle before your embarrassment can show. You leave Helena there frozen on place, the color of her face leaving even brightest of tomatoes pale in comparison. She doesn’t register a thing that goes around her, her mind completely shut down. Absent mindedly she walks over to the bench sitting on it once more. This can’t be happening, this so can’t be happening, her mind tries to tell her. She tries to think of each and every scenario that could prove this to be a cruel joke, or at least a dream. But she can’t convince herself so, not with all the proof there is right in front of her. Her hand slowly moves to her cheek, over the spot that you kissed. She can still feel your soft lips against the surface of her skin, the gently touch lingering on it like a ghost. A little smile starts tugging on her lips, a dreamy smile slowly making its way on them. Suddenly everything seems so much clearer, all of the doubt leaving her be. Helena chuckles softly at the thought, at the chance of her being in love with you. A happy sigh escapes her lips as she leans back to look up to the sky, speaking with small voice.

‘’Yes, whatever am I going to do?’’.