#glargh

The freelancing mindset is very hard to break out of, once you're in it. All vacation is unpaid vacation, and that's scary. I had a much more lucrative summer than I thought I would have, and we're actually in really good shape financially, despite some arguably reckless spending (getting bikes and gym memberships for both of us, new computers for my wife, plus paying two months rent for my brother's stepson). I was supposed to have three weeks off in August, but I took one all-day job and three piecemeal jobs (which usually take 4 to 5 hours each to complete) this week. I just got an offer for another two weeks of work, 3 to 8 hours a day, and I just wrote back to say yes. That means I probably won't have any days off after all. I have a feeling my wife is gonna be pretty upset. She was looking forward to spending some time off with me. But she's gonna be working on her syllabi for most of that time, and it just feels so irresponsible to turn down work. Especially since I don't know how much I'll have starting this fall. Right now I have 14 hours a week, which isn't enough. I might get more, but I just don't know yet. Argh!

I just found a paper that says I have a 5 page essay due on Thursday and it's Tuesday night...welp, better put it off until tomorrow night. Sorry future me.