love makes u ugly
i fucked up the minute i let myself fall in love with you without ever considering if you would love me back. i knew i could love you kind of quickly. which terrified me. bc i didnât think i would ever be capable. like ever. bc with love comes pain. and i feel like iâve had my fair share. but i fell anyway lol. i loved you anyway. i donât think you knew it at first, thatâs why everything was fine. the minute you knew tho shit got weird. then i didnât understand it. i thought i did something. or that i was too boring. not doing what you needed me to. idk. i know now that you never planned on loving me. and that isnât a crime, bc i never asked. i was too afraid of what youâd say. but that isnât an excuse, bc look at what iâve done to myself. i loved you more than you could probably fathom. mostly bc you didnât want that love from me. and iâm sorry that i tried to makeyou take it. iâm sorry i thought i could make you love me. iâm sorry i didnât fully consider you. that isnât love. despite everything thatâs occurred i know for a fact that we were meant to come across eachother. i can feel it. bc my soul knew you before i did. iâm only sorry i ever wanted it to be something it wasnât supposed to be at the time.










